A graveyard of dead trees
Fallen leaves of vast red and orange seas
Squirrels scurry before winter strikes
As children play while others pass on bikes
A harmony of the trees an the wind come together and sing
As a bird chirps then stops to clean it's wing
Children shrieking and screaming as they play
Angry armies of cars roar past, then fly away
Memories start of when I was a kid
Only broken away by time an what it did
Sitting still only in question
Of who I am and to what is my impression
I laughed . . . I played here
I was happy unknown of fear
But then reality again breaks memory's connection
Only to be lost again, still unknown of my reflection
so deep, tripping through
a vault of echoes opened by you.
your love like fine wine
one sip so sweet
my lips could never compete.
an open road, a valley
a place to let it all seep in
warm like blood & tender as your skin
heart to heart syncing in.
eyes of the moon, tranquilized
swirling like valium
an ocean of consequence, I can barely swim.
which of us took the first dive in?
i'd drown in a thousand currents to stay here, by you
to hold the hand of hope
to gaze into the truth
walking alone on the path of dreams
where maybe in the end we'll meet..
I am gravely sorry
That you hold pain within you.
We share love,
Whether you choose to accept it
In your reality or not.
I am empathetic towards your pain.
I am not a psychiatrist.
I am not a psychologist.
I do not know how to control your delusions,
Only you know how to do that.
I do know this.
When you can clearly see,
That keeping your mouth shut,
Instead of opening it,
Is hurting far more people
Than it is helping...
...it's time to open your damn mouth.
05/19/2013 10:04 AM ©
so enticed by your own suffering..
it keeps coming back around..
just when you think you're standing up, you get pushed down.
you wonder, but why bother..
I know what that feels like...
to be swallowing dirt, with your face planted into the ground..
your mind is in constant crucifixion..
you can't look at the clouds, & know the sun is behind it..
the hands of time move in circles...
quality is not quantity..
tomorrow is not today.
if this storm hovers over me,
if it fucking pours down on me,
for all eternity..
raindrops will glisten through my eyes..
you'll see I never tried to hide..
because the rain can bring out our true colors,
when given the chance to pass..
I will walk along a street of rainbows,
while the past burns, & falls to ash..
my heart says not to turn, & walk away..
but so badly it yearns to fly, & just escape..
oh, Sweet Euphoria..
Over these lines on pages
I see a heart slowly breaking
And all that runs through my head
Is “Please...let me help you get ahead”
Watching your misery through pen
Bleeding through ink and not in red
The havoc that is taking
I wish I could chase away
Only able to watch the pain
Like a shooting star streaking through rain
My body seeping up the remnants it feels through the stresses
If only I could call your names
If I could just ease the darkness that quakes
And whisper sweet nothings in its face...
If only you knew that the breaks in the lines were my heart beats
To encourage you to keep breathing
With every dagger that strikes
So too does my love burn bright
This hidden desire to be a weapon
To help you defend and remember
But here I watch on and pray
Keeping these secret hopes locked away
And suppress the cries to strip that which keeps you majestic...
I don't want this feeling,
this dragged down,
sad and lonely,
constantly frowning feeling.
I can't seem to smile,
can't seem to wrap my head around one small thought,
I just can't.
I try with words of encouragement,
yet those words seem so small to me,
as if they mean nothing to me.
But I know what it is,
or at least I think I know what it is.
I yearn for love,
therefor I yearn for companionship.
I want the feel
of the touch of someone's hand on mine.
I want to see a smile
and know that it was because you thought of me.
I want to know that before you sleep
I am the last thought on your mind,
and when you wake,
I am your first thought of the day.
I want you,
I want love,
and I want it from you.
Listening to these random songs of love and sadness
Wanting you home, here in my arms instead of my dreams
No more time and distance between us would light me on fire
There is no other wishes or desires I want now
Other than to have you in my life
To the one that comes to me in my dreams
Come and kidnap me away from heartache
Come destroy the dreams of hurt
Caress me as you have done before and keep me
Happy enough to stitch false smile to the world...
as I fade back to Goth...
The lonesome leaks as tears from the eyes, while I burn for our touch.
The sweet ecstasy of our lips caressing, meeting in a passionate kiss of great depths.
The longing for you is epic enough to bog the mind with sorrow.
The ache of missing us blurs sleep and weakens the days until night steals me away.
Into dreams of us.
Together, doing what we do best. Love and longing dancing like orchids in the desolate breeze.
All that I am, all that I can be, all that I will be- is for you and all that is left of the tired Spirit, I give to you.
The fading embers of what use to be my fire, dying and asking you to burn us deep into a new life.
Tonight, I long for you as I always will until we are together.
Dancing as orchids in a warm breeze of summer.