If absence makes the heart grow fonder,
Then I'll wait for you just a bit longer...
My heart aches everynight I cry myself to sleep, When I have the thought that you aren't mine to keep.
My heart aches every morning my notifications are baron, and so are my arms. All I can do is keep caring for your attitude and your charms.
Everytime I hear a bird coo, or when I even put on my shoe, all I can think of is how
My Heart Aches For You.
In an unbroken silence
Stalled in time
Caught in your own net
With your heart struck
And stolen
Keeping the same tune
Just air
And wind
A sobbing breath
Sky blown
Through forgotten reeds
Choking on the truth of it
Play the game
Chess is of the mind
And you're all heart
What now that it's gone
Chess is of the mind
And you were never
Good at it
I opened my eyes another day seeing only
the same endless ocean. This beautiful,
disheartening endless ocean.
A ship with the possibilities to be seen for
many miles. Yet, the oceans waves taunt me
with its excessive, dramatic waves.
Concealing me from the eyes of others.
This ocean; my best friend, my enemy. The
reason I have discovered the woes of
isolation.
Daily I wake up with a heart's desire to see
land, to move onward in my life's journey.
The oceans jealousy believes its memories
will be lost, but never. I vow! Caring
nothing for my hearts desire, yet it
mocks me with possibilities. Possibilities
that I might one day feel and experience what is now only memories.
my months spent crying, pleading, full of
hateful anger changed nothing. As I awoke
my eyes each morning was locked on the
same blue ocean floor. Deep waves, cool
breezes, moving deep sea passer-bys of the unknown.
I potentially die from the thought of
marriage to this mountain of beautiful
misery.
Years of plotting my escape proved to b
e act of a dreamer, not a doer.
My heart has grown numb and in my numbness, its torture lacks the effect it once had. I scream to all, my voice stripped and dry, barely heard by even the wind.
the silence of my unheard words replaced with the crashes of ocean waves; I will never submit.
Even while my knees have bent and come closer and closer to the panels of stained wood.
I seemingly lose the courage to keep with my
vow to never submit, yet my vow to leave
this prison of cumbersome water has
engulfed me in disillusion.
In my lucid thoughts, I mumble of its
devilish games. The games that I will never willingly accept.
I listen to its illustrious melody. I am its mistress, a
the battle that seems impossible.
I am lost...
I am weak...
I will FIGHT till death approaches me.
I had it all
I felt it all
I spoke it all
I gave it all
Love Happiness Believe Joy
I had it I felt it I spoke it I gave it
But now it all seems like broken dreams that hornets me
tormenting me leaving my thoughts cold as if, as if
I lost my soul leaving this heart this heart of mine torn.
Gap's in my soul filed with
Omens of impeding disaster
Nibbling at the distraction of my life
Enchanting my heart with death
GONE
April.2.2005
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
How do I go on
When someone dear to me was wrongfully taken
How do I deal with the fact she is gone
God is putting us through hell
The hurt we can't explain
This pain put upon us was mistaken
The way we feel with her loss
We don't know how to tell
The memory of her still fresh in our minds
To bring her back for my mother I'd pay any cost
Now only above is a lasting storm a lasting rain
I'd do whatever it takes to find
A way to put her memory to rest
And help my mother cope and be strong
And make my mom remember all is for the best
Make her understand
That she's done nothing wrong
But how do you help someone go on
How do we go on with our lives
When she's lost most of all
When she's lost her only angel..her mother
One who she can no longer call
Even our God
Our one above
Our holy father
Can't help her up after she may fall
She can no longer tell her mom "I love you"
Or celebrate any holiday
Because she is in heaven surrounded by blue
She has no way to talk with her mother
No way to say
The things she holds in her heart
The way my mom really does feel
Now that her mother has part
No one who tries can heal
Only her mother had that power
From the start
But now she's above
With God and his angels in the sky
We can no longer experience her love
Just answer me this
At a young age of 75
Why did she have to die
Making memories with her mother she will always miss
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November.3.2013 7:20pm
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
It seems like you're slipping away
This thought could be wrong
I just want you to stay
Our love to be strong
I don't want it to be just about sex
Or who could tease more
I just want to hold you till next
I want you to adore
You don't love me like you use to
Like the first day we really met
Then it's like you knew
You had our life set
Now it seems like you don't give
You don't hold me as much
Without you I won't live
All the time I want to feel your touch
Baby I love you too much to let go
So I hold on
I think you don't know
I hope when you figure it out it's not long
You are the only one for me
There is no way I would leave
Can't you see
What can I do to make you believe
I can't sleep at night
Knowing what I know
How can I make you understand
Your love I just want you to really show
If you're not here where is my heart
Suppose to land
I gave you my heart
It seems like you don't care
But everything is falling apart
Why are you so afraid to share
Your thoughts and dreams
Together with you would make me
So filled with joy
Together we would make a wonderful team
Someday in the future I'd like to have your boy
There is one source of love
And you and I can cherish
The blue sky above
If you tell me bye my heart wil parish
It's like you don't love me
Like you use to
Inside my heart bleeds
I wish you knew
That my heart..you is all it needs
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June.23.2010
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
It wasn't your time to go
I don't care what others say
You were too young This they must know
You still had many days
That belonged to you
To spend with family and friends
It's still not fair
Yeah I might not known you for very long
But you left a stain on my life
Enough to touch my heart
Enough to make me care
I could see your one of a kind
I've seen that from the start
You're your own person
You I'll remember as an awesome soul
You had the purest of hearts
Worth more then gold
Here on earth you still belong
I'm so sad you had to part
God must have other plans in store
He took you from the world down below
His request we must not ignore
So to the heavens above you must go
The angels brought you up through the clouds
To start a new
To be with the ones who went before you
The ones that you knew
And help them with those left behind
To look over and protect
To keep from harm
In everything you will reflect
Always reminding us of your charm
You will be greatly missed
Someone as cool as you in your own ways
I'll never find again
Your friendship was a gift
We will be in pain for awhile
Some will cry themselves to sleep
But this is a must we have to walk this mile
The pain will be steep
To feel the heartace to cry "why him"
Soon the pain will partially go away
But your memory won't be forgotten
You will always be in our hearts
And minds everyday
God taking you this early some may think is rotten
But keep in mind you're really not gone
You are here with us in every way
From a new born smile
To the warmth of the sun
Even the stars at night
That one shooting star
That's you holding on tight
Waving at us and saying hi
Letting us know your not that far
But we know soon enough we must say good-bye
But not forever and we will keep you in our heart
For we will be seeing you again
So for now we must move on with love
We must go
Not soon....We won't know when
We will meet again
When God wants us to
To you our love we will always send
For the short time we knew you
I am happy to have gotten the chance to know
A man of your kindness
In time my heart will beable to mend
And in my heart your memory will always show
Your memory will live on
It will never disappear only forever grow
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