We exist in ennui
Lost in formulaic riddles and obstructed prose
The mind becomes a moonless night
So many thoughts and none that shine
Reflections of deflections
Loathing and Loving
And somewhere in between
Complex simplicity
We’re always wrong but we never see
We exist in ennui
Lost in formulaic riddles and obstructed prose
The mind becomes a moonless night
So many thoughts and none that shine
Filtered out and filtered new
On the outside, you can be pretty too
Stagnant and free from form
Endless trees that bear no fruit
So, you fought, so you won
But here we are again and again
Aimless and listless
Just around the corner’s edge
To the cornea's path
Blind to the smiles
That cover blind arrogance
Blind to the self-induced madness
Suffocating on the illusion of bliss
We’re always wrong but we'll never see
Hanging low, diseased and rotting
Endless shifts of celebrated nullity
We are the saviors of nothing
"It's a slow death without reason
Prolonged by human weakness"
I don't remember when
We were not divided by incompetance
So much beauty in this world destroyed
Abused, forgotten and left by the wayside
I've had hope that the future is brighter
But hope is my cognitive death
If religion and philosophy can't heal
Is there anything left?
We are grasping for a tranquility that rides the cusp of a failing species
In the mind's eye we see ourselves as heavenly, but in reality we are cosmological fiends
Burn it all down
Burn it all away
and like Rome we will fall
and like Rome we will stay
The Ultimate Response or,
Death .....
Has a special,
Prescient .
For men at war.
It can humble....
Most.
But it does ,
kill a lot.
A, final reminder.
Giajl © Jim Love
When in doubt, take a knife
Slice it across the vein along the wrist
Don't go soft, make it count
Make that shit bleed
Watch as it pours over the skin
Do you feel it?
Do you feel any different?
Probably not!
Feeling that coldness along your cheeks
That's still not enough
The tiled floor is within reach
Do you feel it?
Do you feel different?
Probably not!
The knife is still within your hand
Slide it along both your thighs
Make it bleed
Come on now
Don't be a baby
You want it to go away
You know how to do it
Not once, not twice, three times is nice
You're beginning to feel it now
All that pain is starting to ease
The wall is crumbling
The salt pouring along your lips
Yes, let it all out
If this isn't enough and you've had enough
Let the cold water cover the skin
Relax and lay back
Let it all out
Take your last breath cause it's time
Now you are going cold
Do you feel any better?
I'm sure you do
No more pain
No more complaints and disappointments
No more worries
Now just hope you end up where you want to go
There are so many ways to die
Maybe it will be on a hot sunny day
Maybe it will be when I'm weathered and grey
Maybe it will be from a car accident
That I didn't see coming from a mile away
Or maybe it will come for me in my sleep
Maybe it will leave me lost in a dream
Maybe it will be from sickness and disease
That will take me down, bring me to my knees
And I may never know just how it all goes down
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
Maybe it will happen in the freezing night
Maybe it will derive from a homicide
Maybe there won't be any signs of a fight
And it will go down by way of suicide
And I may never know just how it all plays out
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
And no one really knows how their story fades out
It's like a bullet to the head/ A knife right through the chest
There are just so many ways to die
It's like a noose around your neck/ A fatal heart attack
There are just so many ways to die
So many ways to die
11/23/21
i know, i know
you’ll see me soon
and you’d better greet me with a lovely tune
for your absence has left quite the hole
so it’s only fair that you pay us back in full
i want a joke for every tear i shed,
a brilliant smile as solace for words unsaid
or even one last look at you could suffice instead
i may be asking a lot but it’s only because
you’ve officially become my friend who once was
With this letter I say goodbye,
As the daylight fades to night,
Tears roll down my cheeks,
Pen trembles in my hand,
My lungs gasping for air,
The monsters under my bed,
The voices in my head,
Hypnotised by the shiny metal,
I feel numb and dead inside,
Totally zombified but without purpose,
Lies and lies that have been said,
Pumped full of chaos,
Traumatised by the outside,
For as long as I can remember,
I have wanted to die,
Feeding off my broken heart and mind,
Despair swirld round like smoke,
Emptiness becoming normal,
Fill my veins with formaldehyde,
The day has finally come,
The day my heart died.
These words I write cannot contain
The anger, the guilt, nor the pain
Of losing someone you hold most dear
You went to her house for advice
You just complained, yelled and got frustrated
But she just listened, hearing every word
And now she's gone, gone, gone
You think about her constantly
She never leaves your heart, mind, or soul
Her advice was always solid
Her words blunt and meaningful
But now you can't hear them
She is just gone, gone, gone
We move on, hoping to hear her call our name
But she can't anymore
We hope to feel her grasp
But she is out of reach
Just remember where she resides now
In the darkest part of your heart
Waiting for you to ask again
When you find the words
When you heal
She's not here
She's not there
But she is everywhere
She. Is. Home.
She. Is. Happy.
She. Is. Always. Watching.
Waiting
Hoping
Always loving was her speech
She told you how it was out of love
She was there when you were a baby
She was there your whole life
NOW HOLD HER CLOSE AS YOU SAY GOODBYE FOR THE LAST TIME!!
YOU'LL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN!!
THE PHOTOS DO HER NO JUSTICE!!
DON'T SHED TEARS FOR HER!!!
REMEMBER HER!!
The death of a loved one
Is an unending sadness
But never give up
They will watch you
Help you
Save you
Never give up!
At a distance the photograph of the bombing
of Gaza portrays only streaks of light.
It is those who are bombed who smell the blood,
hear the screams, and see the panic as dead
children are pulled from the rubble. The victors have bulldozers, tanks, drones, the homes of those they've evicted. The poor have slingshots, but like ancient David they will prevail against this modern
Goliath. It is time for the UN to mediate and enforce a peace treaty.
SHANTISWARUPLAARA
Sanskrit for a human being fashioned of peace
Good old Mother Death
For at the ends of our troubles
We can run into her arms
Sleep the endless sleep
And dream of better things
These harlequin masks I've worn for so long
They won't come off of my face
Every day, with different people
A separate reflection looks back at me
I do so many things
That I don't want to do
“Oh be careful little eyes,
Oh be careful little ears”
For what we've experienced
Will never leave us
Why do I want people around me
When all I do is push them away
Why do I build myself up
Only by tearing others down?