Verse 1:
D A D
There was a time when I was truly humble
D A D
but lately all I can do is stumble
D
Though I put on my Sunday best
A G D
and I act all good and righteous
G
Yeah, I can put on quite a show,
D A
But what my audience don't know
Chorus:
A
Underneath it all,
D
I still fall.
A
Underneath it all,
D
I still sin.
A
'Cause underneath it all,
E D
it's still me deep within
A
and underneath it all,
D7
I'm still human.
Verse 2:
I failed You again, ooh I failed You again
I can't stop wallowing in my sin.
The very things I don't want to do
trip me up, and keep me from You.
And I just can't seem to do that
which my heart desires me to do, but
(Repeat Chorus)
Verse 3:
You came into my life, came into my heart
and set me apart, You set me apart,
so why do I keep failing You?
The very things I don't want to do
I find myself doing over and over again
I just can't stop wallowing in my sin.
(Repeat Chorus, then Bridge)
Bridge:
A
But underneath it all,
D7 D
my heart cries out to You,
A D
Father forgive me
(Repeat Chorus 2 Xs)
You don’t need to be blamed for anything
Your mother needs to be the one failing
I’ve come here to meet you across the line
It’s up to you to leave the rest behind.
-And when you get close enough to see me
your back starts sweating ever so sweetly
The brightness of your smile lights up my face
You always save me from that lonely place. -(Pre-chorus)
-Don’t shake me cause I’m thinking of you.
Don’t wake me up, I'm dreaming of you.
Don’t take my eyes, I’m seeing in you.
Don’t break me down, I'll hold onto you. -(Chorus)
You don’t need to be thrown in the spotlight
Your father shouldn't tell you to act right
I’ve come here just to whisper in your ear
You shouldn’t fear because you know I’m near
-Pre-chorus-
-Chorus-
-Now they’re shaking me, waking me, taking me, and breaking me down
But I’m still thinking and dreaming and seeing and holding you down- (2x)
So don’t shake me, I'm thinking of you
don’t wake me up, I'm dreaming of you
don’t take me now , I'm seeing in you
don’t break me down, I'm holding you down
For I’m still thinking and dreaming and seeing and holding you down
I’m still thinking and dreaming and seeing and I’m still holding you down
Vulnerable. Still in fog
Nothing was mine. None was god.
We had become stones.
The light sits on the
wall, to see the ash coated world,
living in black holes.
See, where we have come
Face masks will help to hide the defeat.
The cauldron was made ready.
An unknown soldier stood
in dark to welcome the light. This was
not you, a show of power.
Intense pain is on the move
I put away my thinking for good.
I become only an observer.
We were at the edge of space
in sequenced embers. God has come
between us in the azure.
Please don't cry little one
Daddy will make your tears fade away
Don't be sad precious one
Daddy will make your world bright today
Don't be afraid my son
Sometimes you will fall and that's okay
Just don't give up and run
Sometimes all that you can do is pray
Trust in yourself and you can do anything
Look in yourself to find what you are missing
Free your mind and you'll start to see
All you have to do is believe
Don't get mad little one
Daddy will help you find your way
Don't lose hope my sweet one
Even when this world seems cold and grey
Trust in yourself and you can do anything
Look in yourself to find what you are missing
Free your mind and you'll start to see
What you need to do is believe
All that you can do is pray
When this world seems cold and grey
Trust in yourself and you can do anything
Look in yourself to find what you are missing
Free your mind and you'll surely see
All you had to do was believe
Call it destiny, call it fate somehow
But I finally know my purpose now
Is it my calling? No way of knowing
Test faith by falling, scars are still showing
You'll never know until you try
You have to try before you die
Everyone gets a chance to shine
For a small moment in life
Some are left waiting a lifetime
I was only thirty nine
I'm two decades in, but nowhere near out
My back to the wind, and I'm thinking how
This is my calling, finally showing
Not scared of falling, I just keep growing
You'll never know until you try
You've got to try before you die
Everyone gets a chance to shine
For a small moment in life
Some are left waiting a lifetime
I was only thirty nine
6/10/23
The love we once had has been killed and left to rot in the ground
It doesn't hurt anymore when I see you are not around
It's easier to keep the pain inside than to Let it out
You blame me, but you should take a look in the mirror now
Maybe it's better this way
Maybe it's how things were supposed to turn out
Maybe I should
Drive the nail in the coffin
Pull the pin on the grenade
Maybe I should
Stand back while you keep falling
Become the monster you hate
Maybe it's better this way
The bond we once shared has become frayed and hanging by a string
It doesn't hurt anymore since I don't feel a fucking thing
It's easier to keep my words inside, don't say anything
You shame me, but when you look in the mirror it's unforgiving
Maybe it's better this way
Maybe it's how things were supposed to turn out
Maybe I should
Drive the nail in the coffin
Pull the pin on the grenade
Maybe I should
Sit back as you keep falling
Become the one thing you hate
Maybe it's better this way
It's better this way
It's better this way
Now
I know I should
Drive the nail in the coffin
Pull the pin on the grenade
Stand back while you keep falling
Become the monster you hate
Become the one thing you hate
I am the one thing you hate now
Trust me, It's better this way
6/8/23
The whole world was in
your tears. I must read it. Lest
you can commit suicide.
The innocence will not
break. Moral sense will not rise. I want
to bring the leopards of love.
Give me a snow rose
It has blood spots. My fever is going up
to take a dip in moon's lake.
Collecting the chips,
Reading. The Republic, I fear my.
fear in daylight. You wear my cloaks.
Perhaps you may not meet
the end. The travelogue has unlimited
halts. I will surrender to the moon.
Life demands too much.
You want to undress the tree of Ficus
Religiosa. New Buddha will not come back.