the things I will do for the past are telling
darker than darkness
I linger like things not said–
once I wrote that I wanted to know you
and now through knowing you
you are the only puzzle I will never solve–
finding the corners but
never all of them–
just searching for the dead ends,
what I think will close me in
the words I will use do not make a heaven of your body
they do not make me a martyr
they keep me in this empty space
they do not tell me I am as beautiful as I can be but
they have never told me you are not trying
the things I will do for the truth
are making me split like a parody
fight like inside my head
and all this character wants
is just to make her mine again
my body is another way to stretch my words until they break
it is something I don’t want to form until I speak it
you are everything I will lose
the end and the beginning and
the things I will do for love are sinful
scrabbling for grip
you are the only enemy I will never fight
just stand there in the ring
We follow uncertain concatenation
on endless encounters through
life's joyful joylessness entwined;
because we are hugely hopeful
humankind uplifted within earth's
deep dimensions darkened.
Benumbing brilliance lights our
wasteful way through furious
fading fields on promised green
pastures and restorative roots;
for we are on these unbound
earthly encounters through
deleterious deep dimensions.
Through bleeding blood, we thrive
on senseless sensibilities seeking
to keep painful painlessness pure
as life's joyful joylessness jitters
us into crass circles on bloody
bloodlessness because humankind
drained us in deep dimensions.
[c] Ugonna Wachuku: 3 April 2022: Mexico: Earth.
https://postpoems.org/authors/ugonna/portfolio
Simple afternoons with you are freeing
Softly, quietly I look up to see two
Squirrels screaming at me
The dichotomy between the serene breeze
And the tiny furry beasts puts a smile on my face
The worries of the world fade into Nothingness
The warm caress of the dying sun
Lifts today's burdens like an old friend with his hand held out
Seeking...Greeting
Lifting...Comforting
Am I the same as you?
We exist in this moment together
But who am I and who are you?
The wall comes crumbling down
I gasp... you turn your rosy cheeks to face me
We see eye to eye but through different lenses
My green to your brown
My chaos to your calm
Two sides of the same coin
And yet when I turn to face the trees
I see through the faded leaves and the bare bones of earthen bark
I see in the extended arms of the oak what I can't always see in myself: Hope
The screaming squirrels have given up
Sometimes I feel the same
The quiet returns
The light is receding
I turn to you once more
I return to the here
I return to us and our small Haven;
In the garden of two now silent Squirrels
Stay young, love
as bright as we can be
You fill me up and
I keep finding treasure chests,
shaking for someone to hold on to
before you come home
love,
come home
They said I’ll know it when I see it
well– something in our synergy
just has me seeing you
I don’t know if that means
laughter or tears but
I wish for both
a well loved couch all ours
and just not enough space to bump into each other the right amount
You fill me up and
I keep finding treasure chests,
shaking for someone to hold on to
before you come home
Love,
come home
I will love you as you are and as you want to be.
I
wait for every sunrise,
think
how has this not already been named
poetry
I
jump start
when your shadow flirts with my skin
I
spend too much time
drowning in my own head
so saltwater kisses
feel like liberation
I
call risks the worst option
as if I don’t take them every step anyway
and yes I am supposed to be your wings
but I have never been cleared for takeoff
and yes I am supposed to be your savior
but I can’t get off the ground
I
abandon ship
at a glimpse of sunset
I
hold your hand through
the whole world
we dance in
every biome
every skipped rock
worrying about how my skin feels
and forget to take
all the pictures
I
don’t want to call this
a swan song
but I keep hearing
the damn birdcalls
I
make a patchwork out of all the what ifs and if onlys and could have beens
and throw it over us and maybe
I bet
then we will be enough
if I am no one’s favorite song
how do I keep spinning
back to you
cause I’ve been dying to tell you we made it
now I’m just fighting all my sorries
just
please let me sit with you
while I’m crying at commercials
I want to fit to you like
the best armchair
you don’t even have to notice I’m in the room
but when I hold you again
it is the most familiar
and now even as I’m free to leave
I want to notice notice
every minute of this home
so it is something I can hold without disintegrating
spill through the walls when I am dirt
coat the holes when I am crying
I will keep holding you through the scary parts
I am no painkiller but
I will kiss you through the pain
High and mighty I prowl.
Raining down on me is a legendary whim.
I am on to the stagnant lifestyle,
watching it like a hawk.
There is no place like enamored.
Home is where your heart is.
My pristine heart;
Sparkles and is surrounded by glims.
Verse 1:
I carefully craft an image of you
In my mind.
But, sometimes, the reality does not match
The illusion in our dreams.
This is not how it should end
But, how it should begin.
Tell me: where do we go from here?
Chorus:
I am getting over you.
Though, the pace was slow.
I never needed to test my feelings for you.
But, you, you felt the need to test the waters.
Now, I’m left with nothing but our memories.
You got me in unbound memories.
You shattered my soul and spirit.
Verse 2:
Though, I don’t need to know your sins.
You will be a scarlet letter for the world to see.
Your past continues to haunt you.
Christ cannot save you from your sins.
You confessed your sins to me.
You dragged me along yet
Always looked for someone better.
Bridge:
If only you could see
That I know your story
Better than anyone,
We could become each other’s everything.
Though, I don’t know what lies ahead,
I’ll follow you wherever you will go.
Our lives are caged in together.
These words I write cannot contain
The anger, the guilt, nor the pain
Of losing someone you hold most dear
You went to her house for advice
You just complained, yelled and got frustrated
But she just listened, hearing every word
And now she's gone, gone, gone
You think about her constantly
She never leaves your heart, mind, or soul
Her advice was always solid
Her words blunt and meaningful
But now you can't hear them
She is just gone, gone, gone
We move on, hoping to hear her call our name
But she can't anymore
We hope to feel her grasp
But she is out of reach
Just remember where she resides now
In the darkest part of your heart
Waiting for you to ask again
When you find the words
When you heal
She's not here
She's not there
But she is everywhere
She. Is. Home.
She. Is. Happy.
She. Is. Always. Watching.
Waiting
Hoping
Always loving was her speech
She told you how it was out of love
She was there when you were a baby
She was there your whole life
NOW HOLD HER CLOSE AS YOU SAY GOODBYE FOR THE LAST TIME!!
YOU'LL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN!!
THE PHOTOS DO HER NO JUSTICE!!
DON'T SHED TEARS FOR HER!!!
REMEMBER HER!!
The death of a loved one
Is an unending sadness
But never give up
They will watch you
Help you
Save you
Never give up!