ONCE THERE WAS A BOX
WITH NOTHING INSIDE
IT WAS FULL OF THOUGHTS
SO EASY TO HIDE
DID YOU EVER HAVE A FRIEND THAT COULD READ YOUR MIND
THOSE TYPES OF FRIENDS ARE FEW AND FAR BEHIND
WE SURE HAD A LOT OF GOOD TIMES
I REALLY MISS THAT OLD FRIEND OF MINE
WARM SPRING DAYS WITH A GENTLE BREEZE
REALLY MAKE YOU FEEL AT EASE
FEELING THE WARMTH OF THE SUN'S RAYS
REALLY MAKES YOU FEEL OK
BAREFOOT ON A SANDY SHORE
WAVES RUSH IN YOU WANT SOME MORE
SOUNDS OF BIRDS FLYING BY
FLUFFY CLOUDS IN THE SKY
SUNSETS ALWAYS BREATHTAKING
SO GREATFUL FOR TIMES LIKE THESE
WHETHER THEY ARE IN MY MIND
OR HAPPENING IN REAL TIME
THE SKY IS CRYING AGAIN
WONDER WHAT MADE IT SO SAD
THE CLOUDS ARE DARK AND GLOOMY
WHAT MADE THEM FEEL SO BAD
THE THUNDER RUMBLES AND ROARS
THE LIGHTNING STRIKES LIKE IT'S MAD
THE WIND BLOWS OUT OF CONTROL
STORMY WEATHER WILL BE HAD
READ BETWEEN THE LINES
SEE WHAT YOU CAN FIND
LISTEN TO YOUR MIND
EVERYTHING IS FINE
WHEN IS THE LAST TIMEYOU
PLAYED A GAME
WALKED IN THE RAIN
USED YOUR BRAIN
TRIED TO EXPLAIN
HAD SOME FUN
SAT IN THE SUN
USED A PUN
WENT FOR A RUN
DO YOU HAVE ANY CLUE
1. A doll
A beautiful born baby
Was treated like a doll
“I’m not a doll”
Was a blazing concealed voice
of a numb face
For my smallness
and their determination
I surrendered to their ignorance
till I learned to speak
2- Birth
A crawling new born
checking her new world.
Chains were broken.
The uterus walls expanded
wider space
new joys
I learned to walk
I learned to speak
I saw life
for the first time:
joyful,
luxurious,
intervened with sadness
discoveries
contradictions
misunderstandings
why is dark dark?
how to connect it to light?
My heart deeply sought
The sky responded
3- The Child
The new born
grew into a child
flared with knowing
enthusiastically drunk
with a manual in hands
dashing with knowledge
avid for more
and sharing:
“Look! Life is beautiful!
Give up your sorrow,
enjoy,
ignorant is the unhappy
let me show you.
A little thing I am
who knows a little that repairs:
connecting the light strengthens it;
light conquers darkness
and may transform it into light
and the darkest,
shall be avoided!”
Knowledgeable,
I thought I was.
I applied the instructions
the world got narrower
the light got weaker
Suffocation!
How could the instructions get me here?
The so called sacred!
With my little experience
and blind obedience,
I believed them.
I saw with their eyes
how I gave up being
for the sake of a mirage
that I created!
I started seeking the truth
and the essence of life
do instructions exist?
What’s sacred?
4- Adolescence
An unlimited world
Everything is permitted
but a little
that I decide
with my personality,
my mind,
my responsibility,
….. all referring to me.
An exciting world
of beauty and danger
to be responsible
towards myself,
my society
and my Creator.
My responsibility was limited.
Today I set the borders!
Stepping into the world
with ignorance and pain
and immersive joy!
Compensations,
learning,
discoveries,
life… for the first time.
My ignorance jolted me
yet with my energy
and determination,
I moved on.
Two steps and I was struck
but love and support held me
two more steps,
another strike
love and support still existed
three steps and a strike
if it wasn’t for love,
I would’ve fallen apart.
One step, two and three,
a strike, a second and a third
the result was…
5- Reformation
From a doll to late birth,
to childhood then adolescence,
a journey of malformation,
confusion and disarray.
Stuck between
an unclear present,
a future yet to form the present
and a past hindering the future.
I am no more myself
I am no foreign to me
but I don’t get me!
I hardly believe what I am
and dare not imagine
who I will be!
I don’t see myself as I used to
nor do I see others as I used to.
Who are they?
Why are they seeing me like this?
Like a lost-memory patient
who knows not
how everybody recognizes him
while he does not!
Within my past life,
I wasn’t me!
I confused self monitoring
with self awareness!
Then I learned to dive
and I started to see my reality:
confused,
odd,
deformed,
beautiful,
harsh,
thinker,
writer,
influential,
wise,
naïve.
What a weirdo!
All words describing one being!
One day I’m confused and deformed,
harsh and hurtful.
or valueless,
meaningless.
Another day I’m a thinker,
influential,
writer and wise.
Other days:
lost between both statuses!
How could I be
that wise, revolt and sound?
insignificant and unfit?
broken, wounded and small
strong, determined and bearing
a flame of enthusiasm that no one can impede
to heaviness
motionless.
Experts are required,
experts, friends and love,
then strength and balance;
faith and courage;
courage and faith
to renovate a structure
with a shaky base
and cracked walls.
The process requires surgeries
without analgesics
full consciousness
and full pain
to pull out naivety and fear
to motivate comprehension and awareness
treating fractures and distortions
and what is responsible of
seeing things as they are!
Will the surgeries work?
Will I be back to life?
With certainty, hope and eagerness
I’m all set with a lancet in my hand!
6- Rebirth
My bandage was removed
I see now
what I could not see before
yet has always been there
I feel refreshed,
proud and light.
My arms and legs are moveable,
the pain vanished.
I cheerily jumped
pushed the door
smacking who was behind it
I apologized
a silly apology!
Dancing in the hall
I saw a stretched arm to join me
In a magnificent dance
then they escaped
on my own
I will proceed my dance
In my room,
arranging piles:
this, I will get rid of
that, I will keep
and these are
interesting exciting blank pages.
This corner…
requires ages to organize.
As if pain never existed,
I’ve become a bird
Whose nest is the horizon
A bird?! Me?!
The world responds to my touch
like a magician!
No tyranny!
Each of us is a magician
The path to reach him is dreadful
The most beautiful dreadfulness!
LOVE LETTERS IN THE SAND
DISAPPEAR AT WILL
NOT QUITE WHAT WAS PLANNED
TAKES AWAY THE THRILL
ITS YOUR BODY ITS YOUR CHOICE
SPEAK UP NOW YOU HAVE A VOICE
ITS YOUR LIFE THATS ON THE LINE
MAKE SURE YOU KEEP THIS IN MIND
UP TO YOU TO FIGURE OUT
DO SOME RESEARCH CLEAR YOUR DOUBT
DONT BE BRAINWASHED USE YOUR HEAD
UP TO YOU ENOUGHS BEEN SAID