I've never seen an angel bleed
Till I stood with knife in hand
I've never seen a devil cry
Till I looked once through it's eyes
You were my drug
Long before I acclimated
Long before withdrawal
I needed you to survive
I can feel your eyes on my back
Can't you hear me?
I'm silent on the outside
But screaming on the inside
I'm soul-lost
I can't find who I am anymore
Maybe I'll be fine
Perhaps I will survive
But I just don't know if
I can outlast your memory
If I lose myself in drugs and dreams
Or fly away to places and things
To fill the gap you left behind
Consuming body, soul, and mind
But there is no need
To conjure dreams
When life comes
In such radiant colors
They say Pandora is to blame
Her curiosity brought us pain
And fear of darkness in the night
But there was hope in candle-light
From the dark, a light will shine
Before the day, the night has gone
And now we know it burns so fine
That is why it's called, breaking dawn.
And maybe, just maybe
That which dies gives birth to something new
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'Tis not that simple
to understand why we cry
There is no single reason
why we also smile
My sense of distinguishing
between the the two
extremes have become
a mirage
And there were only a few
Who really could reason well
For I have not known love
As if it's as intimately—as you
My eyes seek you, to examine you, feeling you.
Though fully clothed, I know your body completely.
My voice softens, hoping to hypnotise and entice.
My touch, gently caresses you like a flickering flame.
Ever present the danger of your passion erupting.
I tempt you, even though you don't desire me.
You know I can make you feel ecstasy, absent to you
Yet something your young curious body longs for.
That desire alone so strong, yet still you hold back.
Would you give in if I push, can you keep saying no.
Part I
1) With a ‘to’ and a ‘fro’ in her throat,
something she did note,
as on a piece of paper, she wrote
"I can't like you, for you don't know -
I got to go away - to which I can't say No."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
2) With her legs beside me, so stiff
and -to save me- her hands with great mischief,
she conveys to the punishment chief -
"Oh Ma'am? How can he be guilty?
As this is his first moment to my proximity!"
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
3) With all her teeth and gums out
and her tiny eyes so stout,
she beckons me with a shout -
"Go! I won't talk anymore to you.
How much I am hurt, you never knew."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
4) With real tears in her eyes
and five of her fingers glued to rice,
maybe yes, twice - she cries -
"How would you know how much I moan!
For, never you, I am disturbed alone."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
5) With a big grin at my face,
but with a big cry, the very next phase,
at my back this time, she says -
"He wouldn't have really scolded me,
If, even little, he had ever read me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
6) With a rise in all her gaze over the book,
when asked for her verses, she gave me an eerie look.
Soon, she wrote for me; Almost a month it took! -
"Though difficult, try to remember me
for, perhaps many for you, though you're alone for me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
From a girl, only another girl keeps one away,
but not from past nor future, for there're many more girls, I say.
An event with a girl can give a great kick start
that can lead anyone, till many suns set.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of many incidents I could not forget!
Part II
7) With drops falling down as she bends
her neck, in some reunion -she attends
after a year- she tells our friends -
“Long back, He stopped talking to me.
Neither a hello nor a glance – as if I’m his enemy.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
8) With a smile -she leaves the lab- too fake one
and with swollen eyes -returns in- pointing none.
Then, a message leaves her, following the sun -
“A friend can be anything, but not a sister!
So, please don’t ever call me so, you mister!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
9) With good red expressions – contorted,
while issues were being sorted
out about my interest in her, her words parted –
“Oh, now please stop it! I want no fight.
I understand it and it’s completely alright!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
10) With her ideas so optimistic,
though actions far realistic,
she typed something very mystic -
“Had you worked, excellence of now would have been average
Anyways, any failure to be understood needs courage.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
11) With her face full of joy and hope
and beliefs no less than some pope,
she always replies, to my theory of mortality, with nope -
“The word End, with someone can also be Never,
for the person may know words like Forever.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
12) With a look so cheerless, that can shrink
one’s heart -though sometimes so cheerful that can kink
it’s beat- she said or typed - I think -
“Really miss you as I sometimes also saw my ex in you.
You played big part in my life, though days were very few.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
Lies apart, any girl can make your day,
no matter whether you are a guy, girl or a gay
This is a small tribute to a small part
of all the girls I met.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of the incidents I could never forget!
I am gravely sorry
That you hold pain within you.
We share love,
Whether you choose to accept it
In your reality or not.
I am empathetic towards your pain.
I am not a psychiatrist.
I am not a psychologist.
I do not know how to control your delusions,
Only you know how to do that.
I do know this.
When you can clearly see,
That keeping your mouth shut,
Instead of opening it,
Is hurting far more people
Than it is helping...
...it's time to open your damn mouth.
05/19/2013 10:04 AM ©
Confessions
Confessions of a love-drunk teen,
Here's where mine begin:
Your smile makes it impossible
For me to ever win.
A single scent of coffee
Reminds me of Tuesday nights;
You are embedded in my mind
With every sound or sight.
Confessions of a sad brunette,
Here are all I keep:
To order a caramel brûlée
Has become the highlight of my week.
To watch you do the simplest tasks
Like tidy, sweep, or brew
Can stir up dormant feelings;
It's existence, I never knew.
Confessions of a desperate girl,
Here's where mine arise:
I can't avoid the images
Of your eyes when I shut mine.
Hours feel almost infinite,
And never wish to pass.
Each second cruelly reminds me
When it was I've seen you last.
Confessions from my heart to yours,
Swear to say it not:
The way I feel when I see you
Reminds me of what I forgot.
I lost the sense of longing
Which I felt too far ago;
I've obliterated butterflies
That used to keep my dreams afloat.
But now I recall happiness,
Alongside joy and glee.
How peculiar that you'd make
A mad fool out of me.
The absurdity in wanting you
Is as insane as it can sound.
Do I care? I laugh at the thought
That their words could tear me down.
If we were on another level we could be together, on another plane where no one can interfere.
We could disappear & you would be mine. I would make you mine if I could, but we only exist here.
It would be perfect woven patterns of beautiful dreams, something not so surreal.
I yearn to be with you and my heart is burning with desire, where are you?
I walk around like a lemming following anyone around that will lead me to you.
I dare not even turn the music on while I search, the sound is too painful.
When I look into your mesmerizing blue eyes it’s like being dropped into freezing water and all I see are the explosions of our undying love sparkling throughout.
Just the thought of seeing your face again gives me the strength of 1000 men, courage of a lion, riches that have no price tags.
It's unbelievable what I would do just to hold you again, to smell you, kiss you.
Being without you it's like being in a bad dream, I am so small and the world around me is immense.
It's like being under the water and looking out trapped inside.
It contradicts the freezing water and now I'm burning but the desire is gone because you stole it bitch.
An angel's feather falls gracefully from the heavens,
Glowing, in the heaven's ray which guides her path.
She floats preciously, endlessly...
A celestial rook is diligent in his charge.
Crowded masses desperate for a look,
a gentle whisper from her lips...
He prevents the protrusion of her path.
His true purpose unbeknownst to all,
His own desire for a kiss.
Whenever we talk, she takes my breath away.
And that heart I am missing just might be in her pocket.
I find I just cannot form the words I want to say.
This feeling, no, I cannot knock it.
That heart I am missing just might be in her pocket.
I truly hope it is, because there is no one else.
This feeling, no, I cannot knock it.
There is no one else I'd want mastering my pulse.
I truly hope she is, because there is no one else.
I truly hope she is feeling the same way about me.
There is no one else I'd want mastering my pulse.
It's wrapped in her arms, that I want to be.
I truly hope she is feeling the same way about me.
I find I just cannot form the words I want to say.
It's wrapped in her arms, that I want to be.
Whenever we talk, she takes my breath away.