truth
DON'T GIVE ANY POWER TO FEAR
DON'T GIVE ANY POWER TO FEAR
IT'S BEST IF YOU IGNORE IT
TRUST INSTEAD THE TRUTH IS HERE
IT'S BEST IF YOU EXPLORE IT
Never Thought There'd be You
I got to the point in my life from waiting for you...
To thinking there'd never be a you...
Not long after what had felt like my world began to crumble...
A new home that actually feels like a home came and begin to build into my life.
Loss occured along the way but not because of us.
A stroke who took my grandmother from us, heart failure that took my grandfather from us, and covid-19 who took away my adoptive Father...
Inside I'm still screaming...
I miss my kids too I grieve too for what isn't gone...
My heart understood yours...
You stood by me through it all when everyone else left for less.
I adore that you find me worth it, when I don't.
I love you so much! Xoxo!
Life without you wasn't really living I kept waiting to die.
Disappointed every time I'd open my eyes...
Until the day the I saw you...
Then they had a reason to want to open every day.
You're perfect just as you are.
I adore you...
My perfect 10.
My everything...
I was dead until you...
Sometimes I wish I'd met you sooner but I remember who I was too...
I think I needed to be this version of myself first to be perfect for you and that's why it took this long...
I have never love anyone or anything more.
I don't know how I lived without you but I never want to again.
You are more then the light in my life, you're my reason why...
Why I get up again, and again, and again.
Never Thought There'd be a You...
You're the whole a was looking for...
No, never thought there'd be a you...
I'm Not Crying
Your single mother and cousins applauded you because they had faith I was the one.
It felt amazing to be this close to a family that I never met in the flesh.
Seeing them in the form of a discarded diary should have sounded an alarm in my head.
Your voice was so solemn and so soothing that it was like tasting a honeysuckle lollipop.
It was the best flavor I’ve ever had until I told you about the pauper I am providing for.
Then the flies showed up and I spent the next two months swatting them away.
One day, I licked the lollipop for the first time since then and tasted manure in the center.
I wondered why something so sweet could taste so repulsive.
But to my surprise, I was struck by the thought that I should have known.
You found yourself a guy you couldn’t wrap around your finger.
I didn’t see it until I was being bled dry and I could barely stay awake.
I had nothing to offer you when you claimed I did.
So why were you angry?
Why were you cranky?
I thought you were dandy
When you abstained from hanky panky.
All this time, you were still the hurt little boy that was raised in the Pope’s lyceum.
And turned into a lamprey the second I couldn’t give him anything to eat.
If you’re alone and free, I’ve already forgotten about you.
If you deserve better than me, you took the easy way out
By cheating on your test in life and got caught by the pauper.
You whimpered in fear of getting expelled and I was prepared for it.
The lamprey within broke free when I couldn’t look at you as the same person I loved before.
You fruitlessly faked your regret and pinned the blame on my ass to get out of jail free.
I’m not crying not because I didn’t care about you.
It was because I have the ending from that film memorized by heart.
It’s crazy, isn’t it? I know. I’ve watched it several times in French as a student.
I know my worth. I’m smiling in public while the sun is up
And brightening up the night when it goes down.
Thank you for putting words in my mouth when you were at your lowest.
Can you remind me again what major you’re pursuing?
Because you behaved like a patient in a case study at Arkham to me.
Wake up and smell the roses, my sweet summer child.
If you can’t stand to be where the bald eagles take flight,
Then park yourself on a bench and feed the pigeons.
Arete
Hope is a candle in a sea of darkness, eagerly awaiting the sun.
Trust is a drop of the purest water, in an ocean full of desert sand.
Loyalty is the assurance of your own two feet, that you will stand.
Love is a bubbling geyser; filling, and rushing to overflowing.
Empathy is a mother's love, from someone that you don't know.
Peace is an ocean of glass-like water, that ripples of war cannot move.
Honesty is a pure wine, with no dregs to ruin the taste.
... i could go on
Only the truth is possible.
Lies will just break down
even though believable
in their prettiest gown
Subjective though it maybe
denial is not the answer
makes you see things bitterly
spreading like a cancer
Facts are real and so am i
Why the argument
There easy to indentify
from careful experiment
facts are all unchanging
interpretation is key
It's the theory that's exchanging
It's owned actuality.
There is room for dreaming
from the very top
possibilities start appearing
in your workshop.
so if the evidence is rather thin
if your logic needs to leap
it probably comes from within
delusions you may reap.
so keep it real and take a hold
of things not in doubt
don't let your self be cajoled
by the loudest shout.
Breakup
Falsehoods and lies
Truth in disguise
Whispers comprise
A doubt in my heart
Blinding my eyes
Sorrow and sighs
Darkness will rise
My world falls apart
A Broken Glass
A broken glass
pointed angles all over
giving off its light dimly
Waiting for a trigger.
The broken glass may be a piece of Diamond
Creating Aura from its universe
Strength from its nucleus
Fragility in shadow
Silence in clearness
Words in color
Beauty in balance
Passion in calm
Reflection from darkness
See all these sincerities appear on his surface
just exists for someone to find
Sometimes Enlightenment is all.
....
Heated tongues had no temperance to spare
Betrayal is a fickle master cloaked in innocence
Eyes held truths with no regards to context
Illusions were never more real than when piercing
The heart left to bleed pounding desperately on the floor
Under the foot of merciless pain
How do you explain the inexplicable?
Some things just end while others start
The resoning was perfectly logical
But damned if anyone could see it
Because faith seemed a too bigger thing
To hold through this broken prism
Off they went onto seperate trajectories
Only to find the truth revealed in years of wastedness
It was only when they travelled around it in oposite motions
They could see they belonged together
Far too late, as other sattlites they collected were now in the way
And faith seemed once again bigger to hope for
And not a thing was learnt.
....
Heated tongues had no temperance to spare
Betrayal is a fickle master cloaked in innocence
Eyes held truths with no regards to context
Illusions were never more real that when piercing
The heart left to bleed poundind desperately on tge floor
Under the foot of merciless pain
How do you explain the inexplicable?
Some things just end while others start
The resoning was perfectly logical
But damned if anyone could see it
Off they went onto seperate trjectories
Only to find tge truth revealed in 20 years of wastedness
Because faith seemed a too bigger thing
To hold through this broken prism
It was only when they travelled around it in oposite motions
They could see they belong together
Far too late as other sattlites were in the way
And faith seemed once again bigger to hope for
And not a thing was learnt.
Agamemnon
Arrows falling from the sky,
these cowards hiding behind their wall,
But we are determined to break through
one way or another
Many have already sacrificed their lives on this plain,
but as they say in chess "the pawns must go first"
There is too much at stake for us just to go home
too much sweat and blood has already been shed
To the last man we will fight,
and to the last man we will die.
We wear this armor with our utmost pride,
this disrespect will not stand
Agamemnons wrath will be quenched
until Troy falls his revenge will be incomplete