I yearn to love, a love with a passion
Joining hearts, a fatal attraction
To be fondled by your words alone, holding on to promises by your lips
To savor the sweetness and emotion that drips
Let us hold together, let our eyes slowly find and meet
Let all time stop, with nothing but our heartbeats
A graveyard of dead trees
Fallen leaves of vast red and orange seas
Squirrels scurry before winter strikes
As children play while others pass on bikes
A harmony of the trees an the wind come together and sing
As a bird chirps then stops to clean it's wing
Children shrieking and screaming as they play
Angry armies of cars roar past, then fly away
Memories start of when I was a kid
Only broken away by time an what it did
Sitting still only in question
Of who I am and to what is my impression
I laughed . . . I played here
I was happy unknown of fear
But then reality again breaks memory's connection
Only to be lost again, still unknown of my reflection
laying drenched in hopeless tears, & fear is a blanket over us.
I feel like there is a rope around my stomach,
wrapping around my esophagus,
all the way up into my throat..
it tightens without warning.
sometimes I can't remember who I am..
spitting up blood. can't stand...
on my knees, looking up to you..
why did you turn & walk away..?
guess I wasn't thinking ahead far enough..
lost love, tough luck.
if I had a cut for each time I regret not giving more then I felt I could..
these sheets would be completely stained red..
but I guess we all screwed up.
over time, i'll be able to cut the line...
i'll be able to tie together the ends of these loose knots..
closure will come to me, whether awake or asleep..
it will crawl down my throat, & rip out that fucking rope!
no more blood, just bile..
the impurities enter & leave as I encounter endless trials..
vortex of hesitation, it never pulls you in, but continues to drain you of all it can..
spinning around in the middle of no where,
no gravity, no constriction..
maybe this is why i'm choking & crying out for oxygen..
the eyes are so beautiful...
people abuse their lips too often..
ugly words.. distraught faces.
passing through dark voids..
black spaces..
footprints in cement..
writing in sand..
mistakes made, but by the time I realize..
it always seems just too late.
maybe we don't deserve a second chance..
sometimes I feel like that's all I need.
guess i'll have to deal.
in my mind, i've kneeled to you & cried.
in this heart, my yearning towards you will not subside so easily.
my soul is screaming..
there's a spirit looking down..
such disappointment,
destroying me.
false reality you try & pull her into..
worn limbs, shattered smiles, heavy eyes.
the pain is swelling..
so fake, you keep on, like a robot, with no cause...
fuck these man-made laws.
I don't need your restriction to enjoy myself.
these rules crash down, fallen stones on the ground..
I will blow away with the leaves, for I am not stablized as the trees.
some night, near or distant, I will fly up & greet the moon..
when I get there, i'll ask, "is it still too soon...?"