The ink of our stories continues flowing even as we approach life’s most difficult crossroads. Photo by CHUTTERSNAP on Unsplash
Ink Unspooled at the Threshold
“Non omnis moriar.”
– Horace
Opening: Fractured Self
Who’s left, when the mirror spits back static-
A stutter of faces, a flicker, a fizz-
I am the echo in the stairwell,
A moth in the socket,
Spinning, spinning,
My mind a carousel of keys,
Jangling, clanging,
No lock to fit.
World’s Indifference
Listen-
The world grinds on,
A cold machine,
Its gears gnash,
Its eyes glass-green.
I’ve shouted into inboxes,
Tapping, tapping,
My pleas ricochet,
A hail on tin,
No answer in the static,
Only the hush of “no,”
And the hush is a hammer.
Farewell to Students
To you, my bright ones-
You, with your notebooks and nervous laughter,
You, who grew in the dark,
I leave the marrow of my meaning:
Let knowledge outpace the wolves.
Let your questions crack the shell
Of every easy answer.
Remember:
The world is not just,
But you can be.
Let your hope be a howl,
Let your laughter be a shield.
Farewell to Animals
Soft noses, feathered hush,
Paws in the hallway,
Heartbeat hush-
I’ve left the list, the food, the names,
The number for the vet,
A blanket folded,
A window cracked for sun.
Forgive me,
Forgive me-
Oh please - forgive me-
I have run out of doors.
Desperation and Decision
I have begged, I have borrowed,
I have bartered my sleep,
I have mapped every alley,
I have counted the sheep-
But the night keeps on gnashing,
And the dawn never breaks.
I am spent, I am scattered,
I am the last note the violin makes
Before the string snaps.
The Choice
So-
Snap.
The clock ticks,
The ink drips,
A hush falls,
A hush,
A hush.
Hope for Survivors
But I dream-
You, curled in a shaft of light,
You, laughing, learning,
You, safe in the hush of a home.
Let my leaving be a door,
Not a wall.
Let my words be a bridge,
Not a stone.
In the hush,
May you hear my hope.
Legacy
Ink unspooled,
Voice unspun.
I am the whisper in the rafters,
The pawprint in the dust,
The lesson half-remembered,
The love that lingers,
Even when the door shuts.
Closing: Release
So let these lines be lanterns-
Flicker, flutter,
Guide you through the gutter-murk,
Let them stutter,
Let them sing-
I am gone,
But in the hush,
A bell rings.
JUST A MEMORY OF MY FILM EXTRA DAZE POPPED INTO MY HEAD AND MADE ME LAUGH...REGINACAST PICKED ME TO BE A FEATURED EXTRA ON THE WATCHER. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A HOMELESS PERSON SO I FOUND AN OLD WORN WINTER COAT WITH A TORN POCKET AND DIDN'T WASH MY HAIR FOR A FEW DAYS AHEAD OF TIME AND DIDN'T BRUSH IT THAT MORNING. I BROUGHT A PAPER BAG FOR A WINE BOTTLE BUT PUT A WATER BOTTLE INSIDE OF IT JUST TO LOOK LIKE A WINO...THE WARDROBE GUY WAS IMPRESSED I BROUGHT MY OWN PROP AND SAID I WAS BRAVE TO GO ON CAMERA THE WAY I LOOKED WITH GREASY HAIR NOT BRUSHED AND STUFF. ENDED UP JUST WALKING DOWN THE STREET WITH MY PSEUDO WINE BOTTLE. THEY PUT ME IN FRONT OF JAMES SPADER WALKING DOWN THE STREET IN FRONT OF HIM AND ANOTHER ACTOR BUT I DIDN'T END UP IN THE SCENE...IN BETWEEN TAKES A HOMELESS GUY CAME UP TO ME AND ASKED ME IF I KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND I SAID I THINK THEY'RE FILMING A MOVIE OR SOMETHING....A CREW GUY CAME UP BEHIND ME AND GRABBED ME BY THE SHOULDERS AND PULLED ME AWAY AND SAID SHE'S WITH US....I LOOKED AT THE GUY AND SHRUGGED MY SHOULDERS...I GUESS I WAS IN CHARACTER CUZ HE THOUGHT I WAS A HOMELESS PERSON...HA HA....LATER ON I CHANGED MY COAT AND BRUSHED MY HAIR BACK AND PUT IT INTO A PONY TAIL AND WAS SITTING IN A RESTAURANT WITH A PLATE OF GREASY FOOD IN FRONT OF ME. JAMES SPADER WALKED OVER TO ME AND SAID THAT LOOKED YUMMY AND I LAUGHED...I WAS LIKE O, YA, WANT SOME...HA HA...DON'T KNOW WHY THAT MEMORY POPPED INTO MY HEAD JUST THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE IT.
i am trying to separate
to tear the skin from the you
but the skin is music
and every song is a conjuring
i can’t listen to the ghosts or with them
but i am always drawn back
i can’t sing into their mouths
mouths without teeth that will swallow me whole
turn me into a pipeline
bedridden with all these psychedelic blankets
i yell out the window enough to be kurt cobain’s muse
sew banshees into my nailbeds
can’t tell if i want
modest animals or feral humans
interpolate the beat until i have made it something else
a song i have never heard
i yell out the ending to another story.
but is it an ending
or just a ceasefire.
Dear Chester,
The first time I heard you left
It put a huge void in my soul
Knowing I'd never hear your words again
Made me break down and lose control
And although you didn't know me
You inspired and you showed me
The side of you that's a part of me
The pain I felt in your melody
But your memory will never fade
You'll be remembered just the same
Hmm, and no one else can take your place
And you should know this world won't be the same
Dear Chester,
I was a kid at your stage
But I have grown so much since then
And I still recall the crowd and the cheers
That amazing experience
And although you didn't know me
You inspired and you showed me
The side of you that's a part of me
The pain I felt in your melody
But your memory will never fade
You'll be remembered just the same
Hmm, and no one else can take your place
And you should know this world won't be the same
And your energy
Resonates with me
Set your spirit free
Set your spirit free
Set your spirit free
Set your spirit free
But your memory will never fade (set your spirit free)
You'll be remembered just the same (set your spirit free)
Hmm, and no one else can take your place (set your spirit free)
You should know that this world won't be the same
Dear Chester,
Dear Chester