Herding the sheep
Don't make a peep
Isn't this all so perfect?
No time to weep
Just go to sleep
And soon this dream you'll forget
Now that I have you attention
You have no choice but to listen
-Just do as you were told
Sometimes it's best not to know
Just hang your head and follow
I'll give you my hand to hold
As we enter the unknown - chorus
Culling the weak
People are freaks
This fucked up world makes no sense
Force fed deceit
Better not speak
There's no way to make amends
Now that I have your attention
You have no choice but to listen
-chorus-
So here I go now
To the unknown
I won't be alone now
If you'll follow
-chorus-
11-27-22
Choice
Let the stars twinkle,
Ideas for idle
Unearth by choice,
After a long pause
Lets chalk out a plan.
Setback of strong winds
Touched the feet of principles
Loss of morale
Light no house but ,
Long silence serves enough.
Some might lament
for not sailing in a boat,
That holds wrong one too.
Pride and honour wouldn't
Look for the foot and see the eyes.
Eyes travel all around
And heighten the one,
Who never turns down,
Principles at any cost.
The tears fall,
Harder and faster,
My mind breaks,
Splits and fractures,
Torn in different ways,
How can I stay?
Im not wanted,
Useless and a burden,
Life seems meaningless,
Walked off the forest path,
Lost inside my own mind,
The cold,
Dark and forboding,
An icy chill with no wind,
Shattered sound in the distance,
The beast is coming,
Its knocking at my door,
Howling at the moon,
Eyes black with hate,
Pointy fangs grinning,
I want it to rip me apart,
Limb from limb,
Drink my body dry,
Savour the taste of my soul,
The destructive energy,
The unrelenting force,
Power,
Silver tongue gleaming,
A quick flick,
A red droplet escapes,
I feel the teeth sink in,
My flesh inviting this beast closer,
Deeper and deeper it bites,
Never looking away from my eyes,
It knows Im trapped,
Frozen to the spot,
My life ebbing slowly,
Each heartbeat a little fainter,
Drinking deep from my wrist,
The beast never misses another drop,
I can feel the tongue slicing,
My blood racing out,
The beast grins one last time,
It wants my soul,
A final meal,
Instead it leaves me there,
A pool of nothing,
Even my beast doesnt want me.
It grips me by the throat
Like an abusive spouse
A body filled with pin-pricks
A mind filled with doubt
The hold on me is tight
Tighter than I can bear
I am forced still
I can't breathe
I am free, so free
Yet I feel chained
I am chained to the ground
I am Chained to the Walls
I am chained to the Sky
I begin to wonder
I start to bargain with my mind
Am I truly free?
Is this all an illusion?
I can move left or right
forward and reverse
The chains are still there
Holding me back
Holding me down
When all I need is for someone
Anyone
To hold me tight
I examine my shackles
I examine these chains
I see the label, see a name
My own name?
Did I do this to myself?
I check my pockets
I check for keys
I find the answer
I have myself locked
I have myself blocked
I have myself fucked
I take the keys
Desperately trying to unlock
Desperate to be free
Then it grips me by the throat
Freezing me
Consuming me
Disabling me
I throw the keys
I throw them out of reach
You poor little porcupine.
It startled me that you jumped in front of a moving car.
I wish I could be there for you and help in any way I can.
But your quills pricked my heart when I gave you a hug.
I cannot pull them out or I would die.
So I had to tolerate this pain and let it suck the life out of me little by little
While I think back to when our affection for each other mended every obstacle we faced.
The future was bright for us.
You couldn’t stand by to let me sink
So you taught me to swim.
I wanted to return the favor badly.
But I didn’t know how I could, sadly.
The possibilities were endless when we spoke of our dreams.
You could picture yourself coming to my rescue and growing old with me.
You couldn’t wait to hear my voice as if your favorite show was about to air on TV.
You made every effort to show that you loved me
Even if I have nothing to give you in return except my own.
A year passed and the storm clouds were brewing.
The weather grew colder and attitudes turned sour.
I was working hard and I felt out of breath.
You were studying hard and you turned inflammable.
“Where was I when you needed me most?” you asked “calmly” one day.
“I’ve been fighting my own battles all this time.” I tell you. “Life hasn’t been kind to me lately.”
Please, please bear with me. I’m tired and I’m scared. I’m going to be left to my own devices.”
“You need to make more time for me.” You scream. “Anyone would have abandoned you ages ago”
“If you’ve been gone for as long as you did. Is several hours with me too much to ask?”
“Answer me, you ignorant, pathetic excuse of a child!!! Grow up!!!”
I couldn’t with you leeching off of my aura.
You made it seem like the world hates me now.
So I packed up my things, spread my wings, and flew off into the rain.
It doesn’t matter how badly you are suffering yourself
If the prospect that I need to take care of myself too slips your mind.
I never asked you to help me.
You did so at your own volition.
If you didn’t want to in the first place,
You could’ve answered, “No thank you.”
We could’ve gone on with our lives either way.
But here you are.
You called me immature.
You called me a teen in an adult’s body.
You said I never bothered to do my share.
But my dear porcupine, have you taken a look at yourself?
Or better yet, look in a mirror?
You don’t see the newfound greed in your heart, but I do.
The scholars in my inner circles do.
Whose leg are you trying to pull?
My loved ones know exactly what you said.
They know how selfish you’ve been acting and what I could’ve done.
If you think no one can love me the way you did, you could not be more wrong.
I can admit when I am anyway.
You went to town on me like I didn’t know how to count.
And my only response to your passionate rave was goodbye.
In the blink of an eye, you disappeared from my mind. Your quills in my heart decomposed.
It was like you were just another customer that treats cashiers like their punching bags.
I wish you the best of luck with your own hardships.
And I hope your own wounds heal entirely.
But I am done with you.
I am done letting your vitriol take up space.
I am done listening to you disguise your resentment as facts.
I am done hating myself for what our love has come to.
My love for you was just practice for the next person.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Demeter was wise to tell me to stop getting involved.
Because I discovered that what you don’t know
Was how amazing it felt to give you up and do her work
Without a care in the world. After all, you don’t know me.
Are you ready for it?
I shouldn’t have to ask you that question after all that you have done.
It would’ve been rude of me not to give you a heads-up like this.
Your reign of terror is steps closer to its endgame.
If I do not draw my sword and face the ghosts of my past, checkmate is guaranteed.
I did something bad long ago, but can you blame me?
I’m just a human being that made a mistake because I was not in the right mind.
Anguish and love do not mix because both made my life worse before.
If you respect that my situation is delicate, why do you keep poking the hornet nest?
If you crack it open and the wasps sting you so much their poison burns,
don’t be surprised if I say, “Look what you made me do.”
Your empathy is lacking so why should I care if you are put to rest the next day?
Princes don’t negotiate with paupers like me.
So it goes because fame and violence are always placed above justice and peace.
Isn’t it gorgeous to be the one in control? To run a country or a sect without a care in the world?
Doesn’t it feel amazing when your subjects obey you unconditionally as if you are an almighty god?
These questions reveal to me that aristocrats and celebrities use their authority
for insolence and seduction. No wonder we can’t have nice things.
You are not entitled to my throne even though a liar was the king of my heart before.
What was “yes” today could be “no” tomorrow so I keep fewer promises.
I’ve heard enough empty platitudes from your devotees to realize that an oath is not to be made lightly.
Anything else you want to preach about before I take the getaway car to escape additional agony?
Go ahead and dress your possessive wiles by telling me you love me
And shower me with material goods to let my guard down against my better judgment.
But when you try to use your tenderness as leverage, it is all the more reason for me to leave.
The longer I stay here, the more certain it is that my life is in danger.
My hands are tied keeping the darkness around me at bay for as long as I can.
Fortune is never on my side when I dance, but my sword will always be my partner.
Call it what you want, but the battlefield is my ballroom.
If dancing alone is the only way I can retain my individuality, so be it.
Happy Raʼs as-Sanah al-Hijrīyah, Vlad Dracula.
I’ll see you in Hell.
The skies have never been greyer.
I don’t heal from mental scars overnight.
Neither do you.
I overthink small problems and I wither when I make mistakes.
So do you.
It made me smile that we have our own inner demons.
It gave me the realization that I would not be alone.
When two broken hearts get together,
I often dream that they are matches made in heaven.
Because we understand where we’ve been
And why these circumstances made us the way we are.
But in every relationship, it is the furthest thing from paradise.
It won’t be the last time that we’d be walking on thin ice.
You are a sweetheart to me and I won’t forget the way you changed my life.
You’ve inspired me to meet icons whose wealth exceeds my wildest dreams.
You’ve helped me see that they’re human beings just like you and me.
You’ve given me pieces of you to keep me on my feet and explore uncharted territory in Wonderland.
You’ve compelled me to think that you wouldn’t ask for much as long as I said,
“I love you. My life wouldn’t be the same without you.” every night.
You constantly worry you lose me and that nothing in life goes right for you.
I keep trying to do my own thing while battling the sergeants that disagree with my decisions.
Don’t let our fickle position be added to my list of never-ending burdens.
Sometimes I stay the best of friends with people I was fond of before.
I’m never the “love them and leave them” type as long as I’m still on good terms with them
And remind myself that the past is in the past and no one is taking me anywhere.
Not that anyone could anyway as long as I make a living trying to tell nectarines and peaches apart.
Tonight when I talked about it with you, the way I opened up to you was like stepping in a land mine.
I don’t want to keep secrets from you so you wouldn’t fear I’d leave you to drown in a vale of tears.
But I’ll lock them up and throw away the key if I’m put on the spot like this.
Then I wouldn’t let you touch me the way you do now.
I’ve learned many hard lessons from falling in love and interpreting one’s intentions.
One taught me that it’s pointless to disguise odium as empathy.
One taught me that I can never choose what the love of my life gets offended by.
One taught me not to rely too heavily on my other half lest I lose my ability to solve problems.
One taught me not to sacrifice too much when making a commitment.
One taught me that there’s more to life than shotgun weddings and procreation.
One taught me to love who I am before I can give my light to others.
A lost boy who’s a year away from adulthood has given me his by sharing his own disappointments
Yet he still has the heart to resurrect the brotherly side that I had previously lost to a poisonous fable.
I know I want to love
And I want to be loved in return
But I am a free spirit and close friends mean the world to me.
I never see myself as a “give and take” kind of bloke
All because the little things in life are what matters more to me.
Who would want a lover like that?
I am sorry that you feel the way you do, but no matter what the future brings,
I’ll always love you and be indebted to your compassion.
I swear on the grave of my jewel and cousin, I wish you the best in life
Whether I spend mine with you or not.
The skies have never been greyer.
When the man of the house threatens to put a leash on you,
The best step now is to see yourself out to force him to rue.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
The time to pursue your dreams is right now.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
There’s no waiting. It’s time to go.
What’s wrong? What’s the matter?
Are you alright? Please talk to me, okay?
Did you lose your home again?
Are your parents disowning you?
I’m here for you only if you let me in.
I cannot guide you, but I will be along for the ride.
They cannot put strings on you forever
If you find the scissors to cut them.
Your passions are only for you to decide.
Life on Earth could end tomorrow so why the fuck are you wasting your time?
You were born for adventure so you might as well draw your pen.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
The time to pursue your dreams is right now.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
There’s no waiting. It’s time to go.
There’s one thing that you need to know;
It’s to always keep an open mind.
You will possess such beautiful magic
If you would only take a chance.
The universe is so much bigger than we realize.
The sun will not last forever. It’s just a fireball that can burn out.
Marine life is going extinct and it’s all our fault.
Life on Earth could end tomorrow so why the fuck are you wasting your time?
You were born for adventure so you might as well draw your pen.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
The time to pursue your dreams is right now.
Life’s too short. Life’s too short.
There’s no waiting. It’s time to go.