"Don't get so frustrated,
it's only a book,
or a few words
that you threw,
hoping they might stick.
Sound familiar?
Surreal,
especially if you've stuck with it.
Life can be funny like that,
in fact, it is,
that the same things
seem to alwaus happen
to people who may wish
it wasn't the case;
assuming it's negative.
Once you give it a second
to process,
it's wild to think
the same exact advice
you give
is the opposite
of how you live
your own life.
Some advice...
Twice now I've had to step in.
To stop the golden desires
of sundrops on skin,
forbidden,
when there has already been seeds sown,
a tree has been growing,
and now there's doubt,
the axe lays on its side
nearby. Nearly every time,
it can hurt to cry,
but not if infidelity
is the reason why. At least,
let's hope
that's not the case.
I'd hate to see the fallout,
it'd be all over the place."
If you don't get it back,
Nothing will happen;
Nothing gets solved.
You sent me a hearbreaking love song,
Had me in tears.
Had to be strong.
You and I are in the wrong era;
Never cried like that before.
I will love you forever.
When I say the magic word,
all of this can end.
Sassafras.
After the news I heard today,
I know exactly where we stand.
Sassafras.
You won't even see it coming,
It'll be a quick blow to the head.
Sassafras.
Was all this pain really worth it,
when you tried to lay in her bed?
Sassafras.
Even though I hate the bitch,
I'm glad she stood her ground.
Sassafras.
I wish I could have seen your face
when she "sadly" turned you down.
Sassafras.
Now everyone is talking
you're the joke of the town
Sassafras.
Where are you going to turn
now that no one is around?
Sassafras.
None of this is my fault,
but I should have seen the signs.
Sassafras.
Should have looked a little closer,
should have read between the lines.
Sassafras.
I thought we were in love
when I looked into your eyes.
Sassafras.
But now I know it's true,
that even love is blind.
Sassafras.
I'm done.
That's all I'm gonna say
cause that's all that I can think
I'm Done
I wouldn't cook, you couldn't cook, But i did so much
Not a perfect little wifey to a less perfect Man..
Boy?
Please, Miss me with the guilt trip.
I did everything til i couldn't do anymore.
Once you got comfortable your heart walked out the door.
I cheated, admitted it, no questions asked
you could've left then...probably should've left then
but you made the choice to stay.
You said you were all in but you let time waste away.
You wanted a wife without the title, A mother without the teet.
Still yet you weren't ready to sweep a woman off of her feet.
Anger consumed you and your negativity consumed me
I set you free, but couldn't be free.
No not until you found someone to replace me.
The ball and change disappeared as soon as she appeared.
My mind now convinced i left a good thing.
Obsessed, why her?
why not me?
packed your negativity and threw it away, L.et her tell you we couldn't be friends.
for some strange reason i couldn't let you go.
got you back and just like that your negativity returned
Reminding me of my lesson learned.
I had to call it quits again.
I was here but you were there mentally so there was no physical relationship between us.
between fus after fus after bloody throat yelling.
I quit. Again. For the second time.
Your actions showed me.. you didn't want me because after i quit you did WHAT AND WHO you wanted.
so i move on but i remain stuck.
Tried dating had no luck.
You asked me til i asked you.
Our solo selves then became two...
Again.
This time it was going to work.
I got you here got you to work.
Got us together
but this time we would keep our minds together so our bodies wouldn't stray.
Your negativity began to show day after day.
The dumb things i did before annoyed you after.
Rolled eyes and shaken heads replaced your laughter.
I'm a joke now but not a funny one.
No longer together but co existing.
I was seeing what i was missing but i wanted that with you.
you frown.
Always a damn frown, yell, or cold shoulder.
No more i said, and no more i say.
Standing my ground made a vow to stay.
Sex came around, thought you came around.
But nope, the physical was still inferior to your mental.
"i'm trying to like you" truer words never spoken.
Trying to reinforece a bond thats been broken.
I QUIT.
Posted a private status as a last resort
still the cold shoulder
but a bonus "unfriend" to go with it
Everytime i say what i want you dismiss it.
Damn I can't even care anymore.
it hurts me to care anymore.
You got what you need so fuck what i want.
i'm Lonely as hell yet you're right there.
YOU DON'T CARE.
You're mad, well dammit I'M MAD
But just go ahead, blankly stare at the computer screen acting as if you don't hear me.
Don't even come near me.
But before you get what you want , you will have to aknowledge me.
Won't ask for an apology.
but you will ask for whatever you need from me because from now on...
I'm done trying
Part I
1) With a ‘to’ and a ‘fro’ in her throat,
something she did note,
as on a piece of paper, she wrote
"I can't like you, for you don't know -
I got to go away - to which I can't say No."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
2) With her legs beside me, so stiff
and -to save me- her hands with great mischief,
she conveys to the punishment chief -
"Oh Ma'am? How can he be guilty?
As this is his first moment to my proximity!"
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
3) With all her teeth and gums out
and her tiny eyes so stout,
she beckons me with a shout -
"Go! I won't talk anymore to you.
How much I am hurt, you never knew."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
4) With real tears in her eyes
and five of her fingers glued to rice,
maybe yes, twice - she cries -
"How would you know how much I moan!
For, never you, I am disturbed alone."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
5) With a big grin at my face,
but with a big cry, the very next phase,
at my back this time, she says -
"He wouldn't have really scolded me,
If, even little, he had ever read me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
6) With a rise in all her gaze over the book,
when asked for her verses, she gave me an eerie look.
Soon, she wrote for me; Almost a month it took! -
"Though difficult, try to remember me
for, perhaps many for you, though you're alone for me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
From a girl, only another girl keeps one away,
but not from past nor future, for there're many more girls, I say.
An event with a girl can give a great kick start
that can lead anyone, till many suns set.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of many incidents I could not forget!
Part II
7) With drops falling down as she bends
her neck, in some reunion -she attends
after a year- she tells our friends -
“Long back, He stopped talking to me.
Neither a hello nor a glance – as if I’m his enemy.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
8) With a smile -she leaves the lab- too fake one
and with swollen eyes -returns in- pointing none.
Then, a message leaves her, following the sun -
“A friend can be anything, but not a sister!
So, please don’t ever call me so, you mister!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
9) With good red expressions – contorted,
while issues were being sorted
out about my interest in her, her words parted –
“Oh, now please stop it! I want no fight.
I understand it and it’s completely alright!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
10) With her ideas so optimistic,
though actions far realistic,
she typed something very mystic -
“Had you worked, excellence of now would have been average
Anyways, any failure to be understood needs courage.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
11) With her face full of joy and hope
and beliefs no less than some pope,
she always replies, to my theory of mortality, with nope -
“The word End, with someone can also be Never,
for the person may know words like Forever.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
12) With a look so cheerless, that can shrink
one’s heart -though sometimes so cheerful that can kink
it’s beat- she said or typed - I think -
“Really miss you as I sometimes also saw my ex in you.
You played big part in my life, though days were very few.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
Lies apart, any girl can make your day,
no matter whether you are a guy, girl or a gay
This is a small tribute to a small part
of all the girls I met.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of the incidents I could never forget!
I need the courage
And the force within
To set my mind to encourage
My inner evil sin
It's not soon time
But one day it will
This inner feeling of mine
To make me finally still
The method is concealed
Deep in my thoughts
Protected by a shield
Maybe theres use of watts¸
Or will I have to climb
To give me a leap of faith
And calm this life time
So I can finally see my wraith
Everybody wants a piece of something
Everyone wants a piece of love
Time will freeze for just a moment
Ill lay my eyes on her, and she’ll be gone
For a lifetime, her stare will linger in me
I feel her presence out there somewhere
Deep beneath the unforgiving sea
Come back to me, and we will flee
Run away from this world of misery
Love is stronger than you or me
it’ll be like we're stars shining in the night
Heroes making for the final fight
When you leave, ill think of the night
You mesmerized me, and set an eternal fight
Between the stars, the world, it’ll all collide
The day has come, so i ‘am gone
I’ll still remember you while i push on
e.a.