It's you
It's always been you
Stealing my dreams
Keeping me from sleep
Late at night when I am in bed
You are always in my head
Telling me I cannot do anything
Then asking me why I'm so lazy
You reach your arms out
As if to embrace me
Just to shove me down again
"Go back to sleep"
Curling up by my side
Fingers tangled in my hair
Whispering softly in my ear
"You should just die"
Tears trickle down my face
"Don't be a victim" you say
Your fingers tighen their grip
Digging your fingers in
You pull me up onto my feet
I'm hanging by the strands of my hair
Tossing me across the room
You spit venom into my face once more
"What are you even fighting for"?
Shaking, I struggle to stand
Your face turns into a crooked glare
My gaze shifts slightly towards the door
Laughing hysterically you begin to mock
"You really want to go out there"?
"You cannot run from ME"
"Wherever you go that is where I will be"
"So leave then, if you think you can handle it"
"Go on, go pretend that you matter"
My knees collapse as I crumple onto the floor
Hands on my face I begin to scream
You soften your tone and lean in close
"There there child it's okay"
"It's time you listen to what I've said"
"Those people out there are better off with you gone"
"How could they possibly love YOU after all"?
My lips tremble as I look into your eyes
I know that you are right
A smile creeps onto your face
Arms open wide again
I lean my head against your chest
As you dig your fingers into that place on my head
"You know what needs to be done"
I begin to protest but can only shake
Chuckling softly you tighten your grip
"You're much too weak but its okay"
"For now just go back to bed"
The tears fall until I'm overcome by sleep
"Baby"
It's you
It's always been you
Every day I wake up
And every day you are there
I push and pull away from your grasp
But you only tighten your hands
Fight
I must continue to fight
To push forward
To move
No matter how deep your claws dig in
I'll continue to rip them from my skin
I believe in me!
they said that i was slow and not so very bright
they never once thought that i 'd put up a fight
to them i have no chance to be happy or carefree
but no matter what they say i believe in me
in school i was put down because i didnt fit in
but i was so determined to never let them win
they were all so very cruel and never once letup
but still i carried on never once did i give-up
then i married him with his oh so angry hands
he was so very violent with all of his demands
and then one day it happened i had been set free
and no matter how you slice it i still believe in me!
Cover Girl
(Verse 1)
You're too big
You're too small
You're too short
You're too tall
These are just some of the things we're made to feel
All the makeup
We’re supposed to fit in,
Believe what we’re told,
Follow the rules,
And do the right thing.
We’re supposed to be
Cookie Cutter people,
Never acting out,
Don’t cross the line.
You make one mistake,
And everyone knows,
You’re different now,
No one wants to be with that.
Nobody believes you,
Nobody appreciates you,
Nobody favors you,
Nobody is there for you.
You should have just stayed,
And conformed,
To your shape.
I’ll come back,
As Muhammad Ali,
And raise my voice,
As a proud Bengali!
I’ll let you know,
My dream, my hope,
As Martin Luther King Jr. said,
For each fellow I’d create scope.
I’ll let you fly in glee,
Yes I mean it truly!
Pressure is ever there,
As a possessed soul,
Be it within or outside,
Fighting hard should be the goal!
If you succumb to pressure,
You turn into a dead man,
Do not let the evil ones prevail,
Strike back as fast as you can!
They have no right whatsoever,
To make your life miserable ever!
The dream
Always the same dream
A sun covered in blood
Over a field of grey
Lifeless thousands
Innocents where Death took them
Now waiting for judgement
Waiting to judge
Blackness with a red star
Shining down on the aftermath
Death has a large appetite
Its jaws bite down on all
Gnawing on their inanimate bodies
The dying are crying out against it
But their life is but a candle in a breeze
Soon to extinguish
They were but innocents
Caught in the crossfire
But not I
Too long have I fought this war
Come Hades, come quickly old friend
My time is near
And I am tired
Take me
Its such a deep, murky pit,
that drags you on under,
From the sobbed teary rains,
and your own personal thunder.
I cling desperate, to the walls,
in my life's effort to get out
Fingernails digging in,
I climb the only known route.
Escape is most essential,
for this aching, inner struggle,
As both the depression,
and the sanity, I juggle.
Brought about by pains,
of both my body and mind-
Some the result of abuses,
others have mentally assigned.
But never will I break,
and never fully, will I fall.
As always before, I'll come back,
-much stronger then them all.
For up at the perimeter's lip,
God's Hand extends outward, to me.
And His Amzing Grace, like always,
Lifts me up...and sets me free.
The connection was rough,
Big thoughts every night,
Tear drops every fight.
Is he worth it? Will it work out?
A lot of things running in her mind.
Second thoughts were being considered.
A year has passed and they’re still strong;
Thousand miles connection, is it successful?
One day they will hold each other,
Never wanting to let go.
No one knows what the future holds,
Live for the moment is what he said.
Trust and faith from one another
Can be a big improvement for their future’s sake.