relationships

Aking Kaagapay (in Tagalog language)








Aking Kaagapay

 

 

 

 

Tila siya ang babaeng parang

hangin para sa aking hininga


Dagliang ito ay mahirap makita



Magiging kasundo sa
lahat ng bagay,
para bang damit

na bumabagay


Puwede bang
isipin na si babae ay
parang isang paboritong

kanta?


Puwede rin ba na si babae ay

maging parang

mga titik sa

librong binabasa?


Kung puwede lang sana..

na ganun nga

at makakasundo
sa maraming bagay—


Matatawag si babae na

aking kaagapay—








If Only

Verse 1:

If only I had more time,

Home would not seem so far.

I’m so far from home.

Did you forget you were my home?

Cause home is whenever we’re together.

I don’t know what to say or where to begin.

I won’t trade our love for anything.

No one will love you better than me.

 

Chorus:

If only we could getaway,

Home is a feeling I’ve buried in you.

I’m alright. I’m alright.

It only hurts when lies are believed to be true.

Freedom is shattering the lies

And making way for the truth.

I’ll be your anchor. I’ll be your everything.

If only we could be together, for eternity.

 

Verse 2:

If only I could be the one to guide you home,

The ocean waves crash onto shore.

The waves wipe away the messages in sand

That I’m trying to send to you.

If only we’ll become each other’s anchor,

Home will not seem so far.

Home is a feeling we’ve buried in each other.

If only time was on our side.

 

Bridge:

Are you ready to give your love to me?

Are you ready to make me your home?

Cause I’ve been thinking lately,

That you could be the one

That could save me from the misery.

If only, right here, right now,

We could become each other’s everything.

Home is a feeling we’ve built in each other.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

One of the many songs in book 4 that I'm currently working on.

tanging ang puso ay magsumamo (in Tagalog language)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

tanging ang puso ay magsumamo

 

 

 

palagi raw matamis
ang "oo";
marami-rami
ang nagsasabing
kakilala ko

 

biglang tingin,
biglang liwanag—
mga awitin nating
nababanaag!

 

—kumusta ka
lahing bituin?
kay tanyag mong
piliin—

 

sana lang—sa
hapon na ito,
tanging ang puso
ay magsumamo

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Over You

 

Verse 1:
I carefully craft an image of you
In my mind.
But, sometimes, the reality does not match
The illusion in our dreams.
This is not how it should end
But, how it should begin.
Tell me: where do we go from here?

Chorus:

I am getting over you.
Though, the pace was slow.
I never needed to test my feelings for you.
But, you, you felt the need to test the waters.
Now, I’m left with nothing but our memories.
You got me in unbound memories.
You shattered my soul and spirit.

Verse 2:

Though, I don’t need to know your sins.
You will be a scarlet letter for the world to see.
Your past continues to haunt you.
Christ cannot save you from your sins.
You confessed your sins to me.
You dragged me along yet
Always looked for someone better.

Bridge:

If only you could see
That I know your story
Better than anyone,
We could become each other’s everything.
Though, I don’t know what lies ahead,
I’ll follow you wherever you will go.
Our lives are caged in together.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is the first song in book 2 (kindle direct publishing) that I self published on amazon kdp service about finding true love in a cruel world/society that degrades relationships to just having a good time.

I want to feel enough

I feel lost 

I don't feel like myself 

I feel unsure

I feel insecure

 

I just want to feel normal

I want to feel like I did before

 

I want to feel like I'm wanted

I want to feel like I'm worth something

 

I want to be pursued 

I want to be enough for you

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Proving me right

Conversations seem sincere

All of the unanswered questions have a response 

 

Are they true

You say them like there is meaning

 

I still feel like im being duped

 

How can you explain yourself so well

But I still feel like there is more to tell

 

Standing in front of you 

Asking for you to be truthful

I can take the pain

No need to lie

 

I'm not a child 

I'm an adult

Quick acting like I'm making things up

 

I feel like I'm loosing my mind 

All the while your actions keep proving me right

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Me

Depending on the day 

Will determine my fate

Depending on the time

will deterime if i'm alright

 

Toxic or narcissist

I can not decide 

What your doing to me 

drives me to think I am unbalanced

 

One moment i'm fine

One moment i'm left hopeless

 

The vulnerability I feel 

I despise it

 

Needing others is a joke

It's a challenge for me to depend upon you

I know how it will end

The same as the rest do

 

You tell me you love me

You show it sometimes

deep inside is a poisonious spirit 

You draw me in and keep me to stay 

I know i'm not your final destination 

I don't understand why

 

I have always stayed true to me

I have always been honest

Why do I feel that you have something to hide

Never to share never to let me in 

to help with your burden

 

I have the realization that this is my life

This is why I act just fine

But deep down inside 

I am slowly dying knowing that I will never be

what you want

what you need

what you lust for

I will always just be me

 

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See me

I feel so distraught

I feel so empty 

Why can't I express how I feel

 

I love you

I should be able to tell you anything 

I never have

Maybe I've always known this was too good to be true 

 

I give my all 

To have deceit and dishonesty 

 

Out of dispair I reach for you 

Someone to hold onto 

 

Why do I stay

Why do I feel that I was meant to feel this way

Why am I not happy 

Why does your happiness make my happiness 

 

I wish you could see me 

I wish you could feel the way I feel 

Think the way I think 

Would you still treat me the same way

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Albatross

When I look up in the sky

And I see your spirit soar

Mindful that I'm stuck down here

Thinking of before

I pray I cross your mind

As you sail among the clouds

And that you'll visit me

The next time you come around

 

I loved you with my all

But only pulled you down

I should've known my heart

Would keep you anchored on the ground

I've let you go, my dear

As you fly into the sky

I hope your fading thoughts of me

Will pass you by-and-by