How dark will it be when it dawns on us
That there is no one left who's right?
Holy recital,
Aaliyah's in the booth,
Sounds of heaven, sing sweet to me,
My dreams fade as reality becomes clear to me,
Im not alive and there is nothing even she can do for me.
So sweet,
Aaliyah is that you feeling me?
Death feels so good to me.
When boy meets girl from the other side,
Things were moving very fast.
No one could have ever imagined,
Things have gotten so serious.
Lots of secrets need to expose,
Lots of lies need to explain.
Hearts torn into pieces,
Don't know which way to go.
During that short time,
Things felt real, sadly its not.
Choose your man wisely,
That's all I have to say.
those left behind 2015
those left behind have the heavyest cry
when we have been told that they did die
first comes shock and it leaves you hollow
and your soon thinking i wanna follow
those left behind are then in denial
and they themself feel like there on trial
memories start flooding in to fill your mind
with places and things of every kind
those left behind know there in a better place
in reality its tomorow that you dont wanna face
one day you'll be able to think of them so fondly
and tell of there life to which you speak proudly
those left behind have storys to tell
of the wonderful person you knew so well
they went up to heaven by the hands of an angel
to be with god there no more pain they will handle
when we are called up there to live for all time
never more will we be among those left behind
zoeycup16
Sorrow filling my lungs
Choking on the tears
Crushing my heart
But I’ve never felt so alive
Underwater Trying Not To Drown
Cinders to ash, ash to smoke
My soul caught on the breeze
And left this empty corpse behind
Far behind and not looking back
Why can’t we go back to who we once were?
i wake up and think about the sleepers coinage and know that i have to get some more to “live” in their world.. what can i say, i like toys..
and so i reach into the closet for their prison uniform.. the noose goes on so smooth and i look in the mirror…. damn prison never looked so sexy.. sharp angles and flows of febric said as a sign to others that i was a predator among the sleepers.. a shark.. a suit..
and i stepped out into the sun.. thinking about this time away from their world.. dipping in it from time to time searching for you.. i thought of my hands that still remembered well the noose that is the sign of a world which keeps us apart..
but i do it for you.. i master their world and rise above it.. their sleepers coinage helps me buy the time and means to search for you.. to find you.. to reach you.. so i wear instead a suit of armor.. protecting my lovers heart from their jealous eyes… and wading through their words and doubts and plans and limits as i search for you.. to fly away beyond their grasp hand in hand..
but the pain of putting back on that armor.. (heavy and stiff compared to a layer of your smooth skin across mine..) without your touch was almost too much to bear.. so i am sorry for my absence..
just thought id let you know that feelings are always there coming from me to you without even a word.. for we have met and in the flow of life and thought that criss crosses this world we will meet again somewhere and so i wish you well thoughts on that journey..
Where do I go from here?
I'm so lost, so full of fear.
I'm tired of these motels, these hotels, These nightly hells,
I cant stand the back pain from sleeping in the back seat of my car,
Or living for fight to fight, each payment coming with a new scar.
What I've done with this life has taken me so far,
so far in fact that it's gone to far.
I can't help but look back and feel I've been traveling in the wrong direction.
And in what direction was my misdirection?
I'd like to think it was left.
I want to believe I've traveled so far left that there is no more left.
Everything I do from this point on has to be right.
The right direction, the right choices, the right way.
So say what you may,
But in order to understand you have to follow my life back a bit upstream.
At first I was following a dream,
But was it my dream?
It started so long ago
I don't even know.
It's as though my dreams have been stitched together with seams from another mind,
I was so young, so blind.
I followed the dreams they made for me, but left my own behind,
And I find, that lately,
I've started living to forget the memories of yesterday.
I know by tomorrow, I'll be denying today.
There's not much else I can say.
I just want to break down and let the world have it's way.
Yet I fight.
Even though I don't want to, I make myself fight until the world has no fight left in it.
No more left!
I will drain it to its very last bit.
And it's funny how I justify it;
Because when there's no more fight, all that can be left is peace.
And peace is right.
Right?
I mean, Isn't this what's right?
The right direction, the right choice, the right way?
After all, whats the worst that can happen If I follow this path?
What would happen to me if I can't stand this worlds wrath?
I'd die.
But I don't mind,
It doesn't have to end like a fairytale.
Even if I fail, I can finally rest.
Sleep in eternal blackness.
It would be so calm, so simple.
Simplicity at its best.
But I want to succeed,
I want to win this fight,
I want it to be over,
I want to be right.
Choose the right life, the right direction, the right way,
And you may think I'm crazy,
But I think I'm right.
I think This is the right direction, the right choice, the right way.
All these words, the right words to say.
This is how it shall be.
This is what will amend me.
This is right,
You'll will see.
- The Lazarus
Light turns shadow
Shadow grows darker
Brightness has left from my eyes
Light has left me
Darkness calls me
As I sink into these lies
The world has called me
And I will answer
As I fall into this void
Sleep now takes me
Life has left me
Now I lie dead and cold.
Left in hate, I argue about love, and what is the frustration about when the cause outreaches the existence of liberty and when the argument lives in hate.