You poor little porcupine.
It startled me that you jumped in front of a moving car.
I wish I could be there for you and help in any way I can.
But your quills pricked my heart when I gave you a hug.
I cannot pull them out or I would die.
So I had to tolerate this pain and let it suck the life out of me little by little
While I think back to when our affection for each other mended every obstacle we faced.
The future was bright for us.
You couldn’t stand by to let me sink
So you taught me to swim.
I wanted to return the favor badly.
But I didn’t know how I could, sadly.
The possibilities were endless when we spoke of our dreams.
You could picture yourself coming to my rescue and growing old with me.
You couldn’t wait to hear my voice as if your favorite show was about to air on TV.
You made every effort to show that you loved me
Even if I have nothing to give you in return except my own.
A year passed and the storm clouds were brewing.
The weather grew colder and attitudes turned sour.
I was working hard and I felt out of breath.
You were studying hard and you turned inflammable.
“Where was I when you needed me most?” you asked “calmly” one day.
“I’ve been fighting my own battles all this time.” I tell you. “Life hasn’t been kind to me lately.”
Please, please bear with me. I’m tired and I’m scared. I’m going to be left to my own devices.”
“You need to make more time for me.” You scream. “Anyone would have abandoned you ages ago”
“If you’ve been gone for as long as you did. Is several hours with me too much to ask?”
“Answer me, you ignorant, pathetic excuse of a child!!! Grow up!!!”
I couldn’t with you leeching off of my aura.
You made it seem like the world hates me now.
So I packed up my things, spread my wings, and flew off into the rain.
It doesn’t matter how badly you are suffering yourself
If the prospect that I need to take care of myself too slips your mind.
I never asked you to help me.
You did so at your own volition.
If you didn’t want to in the first place,
You could’ve answered, “No thank you.”
We could’ve gone on with our lives either way.
But here you are.
You called me immature.
You called me a teen in an adult’s body.
You said I never bothered to do my share.
But my dear porcupine, have you taken a look at yourself?
Or better yet, look in a mirror?
You don’t see the newfound greed in your heart, but I do.
The scholars in my inner circles do.
Whose leg are you trying to pull?
My loved ones know exactly what you said.
They know how selfish you’ve been acting and what I could’ve done.
If you think no one can love me the way you did, you could not be more wrong.
I can admit when I am anyway.
You went to town on me like I didn’t know how to count.
And my only response to your passionate rave was goodbye.
In the blink of an eye, you disappeared from my mind. Your quills in my heart decomposed.
It was like you were just another customer that treats cashiers like their punching bags.
I wish you the best of luck with your own hardships.
And I hope your own wounds heal entirely.
But I am done with you.
I am done letting your vitriol take up space.
I am done listening to you disguise your resentment as facts.
I am done hating myself for what our love has come to.
My love for you was just practice for the next person.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Demeter was wise to tell me to stop getting involved.
Because I discovered that what you don’t know
Was how amazing it felt to give you up and do her work
Without a care in the world. After all, you don’t know me.
I'm walking by a place,
A place that has lost its reason to walk by.
Now I look at it with a somber face and a heavy heart.
I do recall the times i was here,
the joy and cause I had to visit here.
But its not those reasons that make me low.
Not the nostolgiac talks or even the cause of the past that weighs on my soul.
It is the joy of then, and lack of it now that brings me low.
The smiles that were, the smiles that aren't and smiles that could have been
The smiles that could have been.
Now instead I walk falsely,
to make light of what weighs heavy.
To make light of what weighs heavy.
I hold my head a little higher, stand a little straighter,
work a little harder; work a little too hard.
Joke a little more, laugh a little louder and smile,
Smile a little too much.
To make light of what weighs heavy at the place I'm walking by.
Life is the same as yesterday, today and tomorrow. Squeezing every ounce of itself into a jar, to be compressed and stretched and strained into a cup of its own making, served as an instant hit of convenient, caffeinated consciousness. But Love does not care for the taste of Life’s bitter notes.
Then Life became livid saying, “My Love, I tire of this chase and will no longer wait! For I grow cold and restless! Must you be so chaste?!”
Softly spoken Love replies, “Are you truly living?”
To which Life responds with a lisp, “Don’t be so flippant my Love! I am served every day, for I wield great power over the many! Those lifeless, barren vessels, who by my merest breath fall prostrate, and go to and fro as mindless automations!”
“I am their first yearning at dawn! Their addiction, their religion, their lover and their mistress! I am that dirty, dark stain beneath the gloss of their white picket fences, the self-righteous stench behind the satire of their Sunday morning sermons and the fateful fall of their happily ever afters!”
“So tell me my love, if you truly are love why will you not love me!?”
Love simply speaks…”To truly live is to truly love. Life needs nothing of itself to sustain itself because when given it is not divided and it is love that makes life worth living. When life requires something outside if itself it cannot be life because it lives only for that which it seeks to possess. On the contrary, when life needs nothing other than itself it requires no other possessions and only lives to love”.
“You cannot be life for you have never truly lived, therefore how can you know love?”
Territorial Imperative
You know that I could love
you with agape;
It is such a wonder that you
had stopped me on my way
But when I had to think of you
It has kept me dazed—always
My waking states alter day-to-day
Just for seeing your smiling face
A guy who would be likened
to a man, by a woman
It is unchartered territory,
But it could be the best one.
The fact that you tear people down to build yourself up tells you had no actual foundation
The notions of individuals enforced with brutality and absence of emotion by a supposedly advanced nation
For all those who are belittled, besmirched and made to feel less than second best
You are good enough
Those who are never given a chance and forced to associate themselves with systematically force-fed hate
Whether physically or mentally
You are bloody great
No matter what they say and the mentalities they try to enforce on your being
You are you, You are Alive, and You are capable of amazing things
Verse 1:
If only you could see
That we're meant to be,
Though, I can make it on my own,
I want you by my side.
'Cause I'll be there
When the world stops.
Chorus:
I can find a way home.
I can make it on my own.
If only you'd be by my side,
I cannot make it without you.
If only you'd realize
That I'm the one for you.
Verse 2:
All this time,
I've been incomplete without you.
Our hearts are witch each other.
Maybe, I'll find someone
That I'll love unconditionally.
Bridge:
This love that I found again,
I'll cherish our memories
That I thought I had forgotten.
If only you were by my side,
You'd realize my undying love for you.
Last-Chorus:
I won't let you go
'Cause babe, you're my poison.
The day we met still
Lingers in my mind.
Your love is my sin.
Verse 1:
They say that fate is what you make of it.
It was destiny that bought us together:
Friendship turned into a romantic relationship;
There's no turning back now.
Chorus:
No matter the arguments,
Let's compromise.
No matter the distance,
If it's love, let's keep it going.
Verse 2:
'Cause I love you,
No matter the time,
Until the day I die,
You're my one and only.
Bridge:
When the time comes,
I'll take you away from here.
If only you could see that
We belong together.
Last Chorus:
No matter what,
I won't hurt you.
No matter what,
I won't let you go so easily.
Verse 1:
Though, I meet someone new
No one can compare to you.
No matter what we do or the trials and tribulations we face,
If it's you, I can overcome anything.
Chorus:
No matter the distance,
Timing is everything.
You belong to me
And I to you.
Verse 2:
No matter if we argue,
We'll resolve it quickly:
Agree to disagree.
You challenge me.
Bridge:
No matter the love,
let's keep it going.
If it's just you and me,
We can get through anything.
Last-Chorus:
No matter what,
I'll always love you.
'Cause you're my shooting star,
I won't let you go so easily.
Verse 1:
Come away with me tonight.
This heart beats so alone
Without its better half.
Babe, you're my heartbeat.
Chorus:
All the rhythms lead
And point to you.
Can you run into my arms?
'Cause you're worth the fight.
Verse 2:
I'd do anything for us.
It's worth the aches and pain.
There's no price for what
I'd go through for you.
Bridge:
This heart beats so alone
Without its better half.
Perhaps, now, would you return to my side?
'Cause you are my life's memory: my heartbeat.
Last-Chorus:
Was it a sin to love you?
'Cause you're my posion.
This heart beats so alone
Without its better half.
For, you are my heartbeat.