I’ve proven people wrong before.
You are hardly an exception.
You said I should be single for a long time.
Venting to my friends who were right about you was the real medicine.
And plenty of boys say I’m a catch before they get to know who I am.
You said I need to grow up.
But you’re unemployed and you bash a girl that was slandered by her best friend.
I love being told what a snotty person I am both at work and when I’m with you.
You said I’m self-absorbed and immature.
I saved an artist you cruelly envied on his birthday from a debt that was killing him slow.
It was the best 30 pounds I ever spent this week because it was out of selfless love.
You said you deserve so much better than me.
You tried to gaslight me into thinking that no living soul is good enough for me.
You took the easy way out instead of bearing with me a little longer.
You said I don’t understand how relationships work.
That’s all you’re right about because what one person doesn’t find sexy might attract another.
So neither do you.
You said a piece of you will always love me.
You were just kidding yourself when you said that.
Some therapist you’re turning out to be, dearest.
It felt hazy that I pondered for days or even weeks
On how I was going to repay you for your compassion and charity.
You don’t deserve to know what I had planned for you.
If you somehow worm your way back into my life,
I won’t be crying my eyes out like the time when a bastard was unfaithful to you.
Instead, I will stand my ground like a rock and kick you in the crotch.
You had one opportunity to take things slow so we could get along.
But you’re not getting a second chance because I don’t trust you.
Does this explain why you claim I don’t love you?
Fast-forward to last week to the part where I started anew with another dude.
He’s a scary one that could do more damage to you than me.
He loves me for everything you hate about me.
He’s the kind of boy whose easy to set aside time for
While I hit the books and explore the world because he’s along for the ride.
I couldn’t be more attracted to him every time he touches me to say, “You’re mine.”
It’s not because he desires to put me on a leash and lock me up.
It’s because he understands where I’m coming from and he too thinks “give and take” is crap.
Yet, he loves me like the Holy Grail because he tells me that I’m the best part of every day to him.
Relationships are like snowflakes.
No two function the same way because people are complex creatures with different standards.
Yours certainly were a mystery and to this day, I wondered how it all went wrong.
Our final days were a thin line between love and hate.
I already know which direction you went.
That’s one thing you and the monsters in my nightmares have in common.
opinions?
no thank you
i don't mean to be rude but
my mistakes are better than yours.
keep on hoping.
dare you to.
I am sorry I
can’t reach your hand.
sometimes the sky
falls in your eyes.
how do you want
me to hold you?
I’ve never grown
past the grass
and the growing gets harder
on every shorter day.
I’ve never left
but now that I can
can I let myself cry
over something I chose to lose?
I was even sober.
I chose to let my fingers slip
and now everything you’ve given me is breaking.
To me and everyone else you were always Alex C.
I fell in love with Alex C.
I married Alex C.
I travelled with Alex C.
I wanted children with Alex C.
Alex C. Told me I was his everything
Alex C. Told me he could never hurt me
Alex C. Told me I was the only one for him
Alex C. Vowed to be loyal to me forever
My Husband Alex C.
Then one day you were Alexander.
I cried because of Alexander
I broke because of Alexander
I lost my love because of Alexander
I have a hole in my heart because of Alexander.
Alexander knowingly hurt me, more than anyone has hurt me in my life.
Alexander did unspeakable things to me
Alexander broke his vows
Alexander gave himself to someone else.
A whore’s lover, Alexander.
You told everyone you wanted to be Alexander but no one listened. Is that still what you want Alexander?
J’avais pour colorer de rose le morose
Semé derrière moi des graines de sourire
Qui lentement se sont mises à mourir,
Qui dans le chagrin n’ont pas trouvé l’osmose
J’avais pour détruire la colère éphémère
Planté derrière moi un pommier
Qui rapidement se mit à pleurer
Qui perdit jusqu’au gout de la terre
Sur les cadavres dansent les grabataires
Et sur les tombes sales, la poussière
Poussière qui meurt, poussière qui pleure
Poussière qui hait, poussière qui se leurre
Poussière qui espère, poussière qui ose
Espérer voir dans la ruine fleurir une rose.
I have made every mistake
walked every wrong turn
can you sign my punch card
because only you know where I’ve fallen
Because I haven’t yet found a balance
between I wish I had
and I wish I hadn’t.
Because I walk and
pull the steel off the rails
with every step
let it be known
I’ll only shed a tear for you
if you give me a hand
but please don’t say
we love the silence more
than we love here.
God is Greater!
So, don’t fear bad weather, news, and the taunts of your haters
You show God’s love by forgiving and unfailingly loving all your neighbors
Do!
And it shall be given upon to you
For you are blessed and highly favored by God
All these things shall be giving a billion-fold of what was robbed
For, Great is God than he or it of this world
Use your talents to uplift all man, woman, boy, and girl
For the time has come
My Dear Chosen One
To spread your wings and fly
Flying high amongst the sky
For your dreams are big bigger than you can do yourself
So, learn to depend and to submit to someone else
For, the greatest good
Use your gifts to uplift and pull others out of the ghetto and hood
I wish I could touch you and hold you tight
For, this is a fight for your soul’s life
Get Right
And get dress for church to go hear the Word
Trust, eventually you live out what is heard
For no man can stop what God has already ordained as His own
I pray, let His Holy Spirit live in your body your temple your home
I promise with God you’re never alone
I speak victory
I hope you hear me
Greatness, Purity, Holiness, and Wholeness
For you are greater than this!
I speak rise up him and her!
Pick up your bed, walk into your true worth, and sin no more for
God is Greater!
By Katrina T. Smith Copyrighted
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Heated tongues had no temperance to spare
Betrayal is a fickle master cloaked in innocence
Eyes held truths with no regards to context
Illusions were never more real than when piercing
The heart left to bleed pounding desperately on the floor
Under the foot of merciless pain
How do you explain the inexplicable?
Some things just end while others start
The resoning was perfectly logical
But damned if anyone could see it
Because faith seemed a too bigger thing
To hold through this broken prism
Off they went onto seperate trajectories
Only to find the truth revealed in years of wastedness
It was only when they travelled around it in oposite motions
They could see they belonged together
Far too late, as other sattlites they collected were now in the way
And faith seemed once again bigger to hope for
And not a thing was learnt.
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Heated tongues had no temperance to spare
Betrayal is a fickle master cloaked in innocence
Eyes held truths with no regards to context
Illusions were never more real that when piercing
The heart left to bleed poundind desperately on tge floor
Under the foot of merciless pain
How do you explain the inexplicable?
Some things just end while others start
The resoning was perfectly logical
But damned if anyone could see it
Off they went onto seperate trjectories
Only to find tge truth revealed in 20 years of wastedness
Because faith seemed a too bigger thing
To hold through this broken prism
It was only when they travelled around it in oposite motions
They could see they belong together
Far too late as other sattlites were in the way
And faith seemed once again bigger to hope for
And not a thing was learnt.
Hollow Ground
Like the effluent rose, failing to blossom,
I am stranded
With no defence I sit and wait for the inevitable storm that will strip me of all my colour
All my emotion
All my life
Rain cascades like tears down my withering body.
Battered by the elements as i stare at the ground, waiting for it to consume me
I am weak
I had faith once, i used to admire the ocean of blue above
My beauty is still ever present, but it’s invisible to most
I am invisible
The world that we live in is a picture of serenity, but the earth is filled with parasites
Preying on the weak as they make their way to the top
Forgetting all they once were
Staying true to yourself is a dying art
And not everything is how it appears before us
But even though i’m suffering,
I am still a rose
And I am still beautiful