Simple afternoons with you are freeing
Softly, quietly I look up to see two
Squirrels screaming at me
The dichotomy between the serene breeze
And the tiny furry beasts puts a smile on my face
The worries of the world fade into Nothingness
The warm caress of the dying sun
Lifts today's burdens like an old friend with his hand held out
Seeking...Greeting
Lifting...Comforting
Am I the same as you?
We exist in this moment together
But who am I and who are you?
The wall comes crumbling down
I gasp... you turn your rosy cheeks to face me
We see eye to eye but through different lenses
My green to your brown
My chaos to your calm
Two sides of the same coin
And yet when I turn to face the trees
I see through the faded leaves and the bare bones of earthen bark
I see in the extended arms of the oak what I can't always see in myself: Hope
The screaming squirrels have given up
Sometimes I feel the same
The quiet returns
The light is receding
I turn to you once more
I return to the here
I return to us and our small Haven;
In the garden of two now silent Squirrels
A long way we have come
Yet our journey just began
Much still have to cover
Much of each to discover
Time for us courage to gather
Knowing the best yet to come
Much instore each has to offer
For now that seems still far
Growing up loving you never knew
That one day, surely yes I would
Meeting you never thought I would
Making you mine didn't think I could
Yet for this one thing I am grateful;
Loving you, and you being mine!
That, dearest, greatest joy tis mine
Happy Valentines my love...mwaah!!
Baby, I don’t know
what I wish I had done
but I left this town at sunrise
and circled the whole world
in a lifetime
Would you hold me
if I came back here
It’s home but I know
I’m older, I fear
that standing taller isn’t the same as
standing tall
Spreading seeds,
catching the wind in a bottle,
I’m finally the lucky one
And after all the clocks stopped ticking
returning to my spring
Would you let me in
if I came back here
After all of this
I’m stronger, you know
leaving here isn’t the same as
leaving you
It’s a minute worth a memory, it’s a
train on the right track
It’s a sprint, it’s a world,
It’s a sunrise, it’s a soul, it’s
Life biting right at your heels
But would you know me
if I came back here
Streets shift so I don’t recognize
I’ve changed, I fear
that growing isn’t the same as
growing up
Compress your time to the adolescent mind
They struggle to assimilate this world
Decisions unwise and deluded eyes
Thinking carpets should abruptly unfurl
Let them grow up a bit with their hissy fit
They'll see life doesn't work by the letter
Mistakes will be made, that's the way life is played
Then they'll change till the outcome is better!
I was never asked, to 'have this dance'
Or taken out, on any town.
Never invited to a prom,
Or worn, a long white, flowing gown.
Hardly ever went out, on any dates,
Hardly asked out, on any too.
No one cared, about my dreams,
Or asked what, I wanted to do.
No one carved, my name with theirs,
On any, weeping willow tree.
No guy actually, ever proposed,
Or got down upon, one bended knee.
I never got swept up, off my feet,
Or carried over, any threshold.
Poetry was never, written for me,
Of sweet words, I'd not been told.
It may seem, unimportant to some,
These little big things, that I've missed.
But when you grew up, way too fast,
It becomes such, a longed for list.
Afraid to stay not ready to move
I fear this next chapter may be doomed
A great big step is in my path
Modivation I seem to lack
I'm in a place where I'm at ease
But the unknown is teasing me
A gust of wind a booming voice
Pushes me towards this void
But I run away not ready to go
For a fear this great unknown
Afraid of what I may lose
I don't know what I shouldn't do
Expectations running high
Tears cloud these sky blue eyes
Wishing that you understood
The fear I find in adult hood
Your face is still etched
So vividly in my memory.
Your missing tooth,
Your dark green eyes,
Your shabby, old pair of converse,
Your overalls,
And the striped shirt
You always wore beneath it.
We were invincible.
You were Batman,
I was Robin.
Our imaginary capes
Blew against the strngth of the wind,
Our arms spread out
Like the wings of a plane
As we flew across cities
Searching for trouble
Oblivious to the real dangers
That would consume you.
The missing tooth grew in.
You replaced your overalls
And shabby shoes.
You laughed as much as you breathed
And you smiled
Even on the gloomiest of days.
No one could have ever guessed.
It was never supposed to be like this.
I thought we had more time.
We were supposed to grow up together.
To have all-nighters,
2 AM conversations, midnight drives,
Parties, prom night, graduation.
I don't know how it happened
Or why it had to be you
Or why I had to find you lying there
Pill bottles scattered across the floor
Your body, stone cold, lifeless
We were supposed to be invincible
I light a fire just to watch it burn
Sit across the street with empty hands
Behind a tree unnoticed, so it's not my turn
I have infinite thoughts, but empty plans
Ending up only to be pretty hollow
Ideas only stay for portion of a second
Echoing through the empty walls. and then comes nothing
Diffusing into the air, to become a forgotten particle
and nothing comes to follow
To set the ominous breeze,
Over the most vibrant sea, that suddenly lost color
and the skies are now gone and dull
They paint the picture to not excite, but simply appease
To be trapped inside this now and empty void
With nothing but everything destroyed
To say that we are fine, and simply avoid
Now we sail, swift onto the large sea of contradictions
Too lost within, that we forget our own convictions
Letting loose the anchor of anxiety, and thus become the restrictions
But this is not the end,
A man aboard throws over his only friend
And a storm rolls in, and then our destination is not known
As realization becomes the new sun, and hearts are turned to stone
A daughter now deserted by her parents is overwhelmed in strife
She whimpers, but can not help wonder what makes up this sickly life
A world where people phase in, and phase out
and thoughts become ideas, and ideas become a shout
and how long does a day go on to stay out and last,
Before awesome expectations become invisible, straight into the past?
Will the ship find it's way to land, or sink in despair?
Great ideas no match for the roaring waves of Negativity and ignorance?
Those striving so long for a real sun, to only be in vain, deprived?
And those hopelessly waiting for relief, to be cruelly concealed, unaware?
The masterpiece of a book now weathered to nothing but scribbles
A great idea now hidden and destroyed by life's cruel riddles
Will the hands be strong at ease to create another inspiration?
Or will it fail to swim over the simplest waves and forget it's own foundation?
You're still lost within the time
The ultimate crime
That you couldn't really hurt
but now you're gone and just inert
You try to find meaning in the days
That it wasn't just a phase
That you could just lay in the sun
and never say you jumped the gun
and you lie wide awake at night
Hard at thought, ready to write
You wrote on a piece of paper "I think this time, I'll be okay"
But you don't really know, your thoughts never stay