The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
Bring the fists
Leave the guns
Let's end this like men
Run full force into the gates of hell
Bring them down
To their knees
They will pay with blood
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
They can beat us down
But not take our pride
We will rise again, again, again
Let the anger take hold
Bring out your demons
Bring out the pain
This world will know true justice
When they hear my name
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
We beg them to stop
They laugh in our face
You wont feel the same
When you're in my place
They beg for mercy
It's one on one
Every man for himself
But we all stand together
You will fall to pieces
YOU!! WILL!! LOSE!!!
The hate, hate, hate
Is here to fucking stay
You're irate, irate, irate
It's time to fucking fight
I’ve been swimming in the deep end lately.
My head is spinning in circles.
My heart had never been so hollow on the inside.
I need to catch my breath before I do anything else stupid.
My work of art is an escape from uniformity.
I felt safe with you for the time being.
At the end of the week, you cuddled me
When the sergeant had an off day at work and took it out on me.
I let you in like I did when I meet new people.
You were happy for me when I told you I finally found love.
I wanted nothing more than a friend’s reassurance that everything will be okay.
But you in particular were a land mine waiting to explode.
It’s dangerous territory where you’re from as a queer.
It’s dangerous territory where I lurk on the web.
It’s dangerous territory to build a world without receiving adequate training.
It’s dangerous territory to make friends with volatile people like you.
I can barely read script in Delphi without misinterpreting some if not most of its passages.
My art isn’t like what you’d expect to see in other do-it-yourself or high-profile projects.
The way I write, the way I archive, and the way I distribute information is my strongest suit.
There is no way I can fulfill my goal in life alone without the help of a team that knows its stuff.
You didn’t have to sugarcoat your advice to fix my problems
But you didn’t have to pull more than my teeth either.
You spoke to me as if I had to know every damn trick in the book.
You pointed out where I went wrong as if I didn’t already understand it.
I would have welcomed your advice if you watched your language.
I would have been more considerate if we joined forces as planned.
But being friendly with you in light of this is just out of question.
You can say that I’m high all you want, but it goes to show that you’re smaller than you think.
It’s dangerous territory where you’re from as a queer.
It’s dangerous territory where I lurk on the web.
It’s dangerous territory to build a world without receiving adequate training.
It’s dangerous territory to make friends with volatile people like you.
A vagabond told me this morning that I don’t learn much from success
And boy, I sure did learn a lot about your character more than what it takes to be top dog.
I might also let it slip that you exploded in my face because your little rant was all over the place.
In that case, riddle me this, who among the two of us really needs room for improvement?
I woke up today, and I put on my clothes and brushed my teeth
I went to school, and they were waiting there for me
I went to the bathroom, to get away from their killing knives and daggers of deception
I went to my next class, and they tortured me while the teacher just laughed
I went to lunch today, and they made me feel unwanted and I was feeling quite brash
I went to the corner, and ate as if it were an art to eat uncomfortably alone
I went, well, I went away and continued through this rutted blur that I'm trapped in
It's the end of the day, and I finally force a smile because I get to go home
I went home, and dad left, again, mom said he's not coming back
I went to my room, I cried and closed my eyes, hopefully for good
I went to sleep, my stomach was empty and my dread was full, I hope that I don't wake up
School scraps
By jfarrell
“My dad’s bigger than your dad!”
…... remember that, from school?
When I got home from school,
With cuts and bruises,
I’d get 7-8 slaps and hits, before
…. “Did you hit back?”
Once,
I hit back.
Can’t remember what the fight was about.
Jason was a year younger than me,
A neighbour, a friend, on my estate,
On my block.
I beat him up;
His two teenage brothers beat me up.
Should’ve ended there.
After the customary 7-8 punches,
To get me talking,
to get me to ‘share’…
He stops hitting me…
Squares his shoulders…
And storms out! “No-one gangs up on my kid, like that!”
I watched a hero, my hero,
Storm off down the balcony
And start hammering on Jason’s door…
“I WANNA WORD…..
“WHAT YOUR KIDS DID TO MY SON….”
…. the door opened….
…..I’d never noticed Jason’s dad before…..
….He was short, nose to chest, with my father…
And my father was not tall…
…..SHOUT, SHOUT, SHOUT….
One punch…
My ‘hero’, my dad, out cold.
I saw it all there, don’t know how;
7-8 years old;
Dad gets drunk hits wife and kids….
He’ll only hit… stand up to…
People smaller than him….
Coward… but I still feared him.
In 3 days I will be 50….
You know what….
I think I should stop fearing him…
After all…
He died over 25 years ago
And I’d seen him only once since I was 14.
3 days before 50 I, finally, realise…
I’m better than you…
And always have been!
I may not be the ‘man’ you think of….
Beating up littler kids to make me feel better….
I am MORE…. greater… then you ever were.
Ostracised
By jfarrell
It starts early, that’s all I really understand,
Before I started school I was ‘outside’;
Left to feel ‘not a part’;
Left to feel unwanted.
When I started school, I was already the perfect victim;
‘No-one cares, no-one’s gonna stop us’;
Everyone knew it,
And so, they didn’t stop.
Bullied from the day I started school
Until the day I left;
I hoped it would stop there;
We’re all adults, now, right?
What a fool I was back then.
Maybe.
I hurt, but wasn’t going to school and stabbing someone
Because of it.
But, three months short of my 50th birthday, maybe…
I’ve never trusted anyone enough to have friends;
I don’t know how to feel comfortable around people
And I probably never will
I don’t know how many billions people on this planet, it doesn’t matter;
I see and hear you, but you are as out of reach
As the people I see on TV screens
And… if I did reach out… and touch one of you… you’d scream
Here, outside of everyone, looking in;
I don’t feel lonely; I don’t feel rejected;
I feel hated.
My parents ostracised me back then and this where I sit today.
Bullying is dreadful in any shape,
It is like a fatal virus,
That does destroy the source,
And the victims thus.
At times jealousy is the reason,
At times extreme greed for power,
At times insensibility is the prime cause,
At times fickleness is the raison d'être.
Insecurity and inferiority complex are also responsible,
For the rise of the bullying-mindset in certain people.
I didn't do anything
Not a sound nor a word
Yet I find your cruel remarks
Rather disturbed
It's not I who is the monster
But he who points the finger
You are the lesser fiend
Your tounge kills the innocent.
I found a girl, and saw her perspective
Silent, yet surprisingly reflective
They claimed she was away, entirely defective
But I knew otherwise just from the look in her eyes
I saw through the silent, and closed off disguise
And from there, I saw the immediate connection
Completely dissected, but still searches for true affection
Her warm, yet crooked emotion
A calmed, yet broken devotion
Silent, but struggling for her sound
and yet, still not a face found
Her skin torn, gone and rotten.
Her mouth stolen, words lost, ignored and forgotten.
She was exposed to all of the morbid things
Corrupted lies, and uneven broken wings
All she wanted to know if happiness was true
This is what I saw, this was the girl I knew
And she left sudden, without a word,
Her existence she seen was too blurred
Before I could realize, she was gone and done
Did you ever wonder what life can become?
All she wanted to know if happiness was true
This is what I saw, this was the girl I knew..
You know you could do something
You could at least try to stop it
That kid never did anything
Nothing to be treated like this
You know you could stand up, be his defense
Rescue him when he’s surrounded and scared
Yet you stand by, do nothing, it doesn’t make sense
With the people around you, these actions are shared
You see him pushed in the halls, alone everyday
Would it hurt to pick up his books, become his friend?
You could be nice to him because anything you say
Would help him, with the friendliness you send
You know you could speak out
You could tell a teacher, a parent, anyone
One word and they would stop what’s wrong
Yet your mouth stays shut, thinking it’ll soon be done
But it goes on, and your “soon” becomes quite long
You could have done anything to help the guy
You could’ve stopped him from touching the knife
But just like everyone else, you stood by
And suddenly he chose to end his life
You could have stopped it, anyone could
He needed a friend, a spot anyone could fill
You knew you could do it, knew you should
But you stood by, thinking someone else will