Darkness

Desperate defiance in the dark

Desperate defiance in the dark

 

 

Voice vanishing, vaporised by virtual vitriol

Algorithms amplify absence, abandonment

Words once winged now wither, wane

Trauma's tendrils tighten, twist, torment

 

 

Silence. Deafening. Oppressive. Inescapable.

 

 

Childhood's cruel cacophony echoes, endures

Rape's raw rage resurfaces, relentless 

Abuse's ache amplifies, accumulates

Gaslighting's glare grows, guts grace

 

 

A chill wind of indifference swept through the room, leaving me shivering and unseen.

 

 

Neurodivergent narratives, now nullified 

Vestibular vertigo, vision vacillating

Fibrous fire flares, flays fragile flesh

Depression's darkness deepens, devastating

 

 

The empty chair across from me seemed to mock my solitude, 

 

its vacant seat a cruel reminder of my isolation.

 

 

Social streams shrink, shrivelling slowly

Platforms purge purpose, passion, power

Identity invalidated, invisibility impending

Self-worth withers like wilting flower

 

In silence, I found solitude; in solitude, I embraced silence

 

Yet still, soft syllables simmer, survive

Waiting, whispering: "We will rise."

For even silenced, stifled, suppressed

The soul's song softly, surely sighs

 

 

Through the hollow halls, past the empty rooms, 

 

beyond the echoing silence, 

 

a single, defiant voice dared to speak

 

 

In the depths of this suffocating silence, 

A flicker persists, refuses to die. 

Though the world may try to extinguish our light, 

We will rise, reclaim our stolen sky.

 

 

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is perhaps, one of those "My struggle doesn't look like your struggle". 


Perhaps also, as the first person I showed this to, was unsure how to reply. Eventually they said: It is like you are bleeding straight onto the page.



They continued, keenly observing that. "People do struggle in knowing what to say. I think looking away while you’re so vulnerable is a relic of patriarchy: waiting for you to put your armour back on and get back up and keep pretending we’re all fucking fine."

Hello to my old friend

Hello my old dear friend
I see your cold hard unloving stare
Only your darkness you send my way 
Piercing my soul inner deep of  my break
Trying to hard to make me fear and wake
 
Calling my name and laying your seed
You are only thriving, you think that you need
 
Feeding me lies and hopeless fakes
Who is soaring what do you think I'll take
 
Falling into those hissing hardened tribulations 
Covering my mind with such wrong dark ambitions 
 
Trying to drive me mad and make my cry
I keep asking this to you oh why do you lie
 
You keep taunting me for my mind to drop
You keep lying and hissing to my ears of naught 
 
To taint my dreams and darken my lot
I keep fighting and screaming to you hell no
Yet you keep trying to pushing to a new low
 
You hiss and scream that I'm done and can't go on
I start laughing as you think that you have won
 
Staring and smiling what do you think you accomplished 
But keep in mind everything you believe is so lacking 
 
To steer my life from what is truely right
And ignoring the strength of what I might
Keep fighting back and yell it is enough
Because I have such a thing as what we know as love
 
My strength in emotions are held so true
We all know it Is such a dark poison to you
 
You hate me and you hate this 
And I will win as you so heartedly wish
That I will keep falling and succumb
And you want me to feel so very numb
You pick and prod and push the needle
You keep hoping that I will not be a leader
And a leader to my every careful hought
I keep going yet you know that  I fought
 
I am a warrior and a strong women to be hold 
I will never give up and I will stay straight and bold
 
And It hurts you that I keep fighting back 
This Wisdom, truth, love, that you lack 
You my old friend are just a past forgotten 
And you keep trying, but not what I am wanting
 
I have life and light in my ever going fight
My husband, my kids, are my everlasting light. 
And I spread my wings and raise to the skies
And I know how deep your traumatizing lies
Can break my heart, and my mind, and my soul
Guess what, you fucking prick, I am not alone
This is your jealousy, yet you can't stand it 
While I laugh because I am on a high grandeur 
This darkest wilt that rose in a spoiled field
As a risen and bloomed spirit and will not yield 
 
To the dark old friend of sorrow and sadness
I have taken my strength and fought this madness.
 
I say go away, and stay far and disappear 
Because,  I am a women will that preceveur.
 
So hello to my old friend from dark and sad
You have opened my eyes, and to that I am gald!
 
I will ignore and throw your hissing far away
Thank you, fuck you, so have a good day!
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