survival
Desperate defiance in the dark
Desperate defiance in the dark
Voice vanishing, vaporised by virtual vitriol
Algorithms amplify absence, abandonment
Words once winged now wither, wane
Trauma's tendrils tighten, twist, torment
Silence. Deafening. Oppressive. Inescapable.
Childhood's cruel cacophony echoes, endures
Rape's raw rage resurfaces, relentless
Abuse's ache amplifies, accumulates
Gaslighting's glare grows, guts grace
A chill wind of indifference swept through the room, leaving me shivering and unseen.
Neurodivergent narratives, now nullified
Vestibular vertigo, vision vacillating
Fibrous fire flares, flays fragile flesh
Depression's darkness deepens, devastating
The empty chair across from me seemed to mock my solitude,
its vacant seat a cruel reminder of my isolation.
Social streams shrink, shrivelling slowly
Platforms purge purpose, passion, power
Identity invalidated, invisibility impending
Self-worth withers like wilting flower
In silence, I found solitude; in solitude, I embraced silence
Yet still, soft syllables simmer, survive
Waiting, whispering: "We will rise."
For even silenced, stifled, suppressed
The soul's song softly, surely sighs
Through the hollow halls, past the empty rooms,
beyond the echoing silence,
a single, defiant voice dared to speak
In the depths of this suffocating silence,
A flicker persists, refuses to die.
Though the world may try to extinguish our light,
We will rise, reclaim our stolen sky.
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Big Bro Got You
As I stuggle with whether or not I can maintain my sanity I am conviced that I "have to" as a proud act of endless protection for you.
It hurts me knowing I have failed to live up to expecations but don't worry fam... your big Bro will always use survival instincts to get us through.
I can't offer you much from a financial stanspoint because I am usually without the means.
However temporarily abandoning my morals and standards to help make ends meet is acceptable;or at least that is how it sometimes seems.
The pressure I face as a gay man that once was oblivious to his simple yet magnetic looks is often frustrating enough to make me want to hide for eternity!!
Yes, your beatiful gay big Bro has unspoken daily battles navigating life in this double standard world which severely impacts me!
Yet, I consistently put up the brave face like several others in this world; hell at least I am blessed to have looks as a fall back.
As long as it is left up to me, you will never "go without" due to a selfless compromises that I lack!
I refuse to let my mental challenges prevent me from having your best interest consantly on my mind.
I am technically not always your "big bro"; sometimes you're my senior who's cognitive decline is a result of dealing with a society that is so unkind!
Never the less, whether you're my sibling, family or friend you can continue to place your trust in me knowing the love I have for you.
No physical or mental sacrifice is to large; as long as GOD continues to supply me with life "Big bro GOT YOU!!!"
By Bryant Mosley
The Man named Jack who may just be damned
I can’t stop dreaming about your eyes
i want them to be my eyes
i can’t stop staring at your mouth cause I want it on my other set of lips. I can’t help but want to wrap my legs around you
the arousal you cause in me with your mere existence some days makes me feel like I’m going insane. I’m not going to lie. We wouldn’t work if we weren’t both a little crazy. So fuck me like the crazy bitch I know you can be . Cause baby oh baby I don’t want to be your child, I got my own, I got me and I’m here to get you under me and on top of me don’t matter how bring that booty of yours over here. Shame you ever have to sit on it but don’t worry I’ve got an idea we can just set your groin in my mouth mmmm the settle flavors drive me wild like my favorite candy. So baby tackle me cause you already got me Locked down show me something new take me on a new adventure I trust you to keep me safe.