Wow, this is the best poetry book in the world.
I love how deep it is.
That one poem is so funny my heart skipped a beat.
I couldn’t take my eyes off of the pages.
And the most amazing part is,
It sucked.
A lot.
Who were you expecting, a white knight?
I’ve heard these jokes before in checkout lanes.
And the customers in front of me never knew you existed.
I’m not that pretentious.
But you are.
I do not have double standards.
But you do.
Someone whose castle is built on mediocrity can’t scare me into hiding.
But someone else might be.
The moat is heavily guarded by trolls that can ruin their lives
If they refuse to walk on eggshells around you.
I keep pointing out your flaws
But you never even see them.
Instead, you fired a bomb into the crowd
And ecstatically handed the cannon to me.
You impersonate a traumatized child so onlookers would feel bad for you
And point their fingers at me at the drop of the hat,
Leaving me with nothing else to say in my defense.
I’m beginning to believe you love the drama more than you love your craft.
You’ve thrown burnt bridges in the wind today and I’m off to the pen,
But I’ll let you have your fun for now.
I have stowed away in the back of the truck to escape my sentence,
But I’ve come back to fight you with a rocket.
I’ve been ready for perfect storms since my old flame tried to kill himself.
And pinned the blame on me because he wanted me all to himself.
I have nothing to lose if you play the “defenseless child” act again.
You may have been one locked in a tower once upon a time.
But you grew up to be a dragon and imprisoned someone else.
It’s not my fault that you made yourself look worse.
It’s yours.
You can stop lying to me now.
I know you were never the victim.
Your single mother and cousins applauded you because they had faith I was the one.
It felt amazing to be this close to a family that I never met in the flesh.
Seeing them in the form of a discarded diary should have sounded an alarm in my head.
Your voice was so solemn and so soothing that it was like tasting a honeysuckle lollipop.
It was the best flavor I’ve ever had until I told you about the pauper I am providing for.
Then the flies showed up and I spent the next two months swatting them away.
One day, I licked the lollipop for the first time since then and tasted manure in the center.
I wondered why something so sweet could taste so repulsive.
But to my surprise, I was struck by the thought that I should have known.
You found yourself a guy you couldn’t wrap around your finger.
I didn’t see it until I was being bled dry and I could barely stay awake.
I had nothing to offer you when you claimed I did.
So why were you angry?
Why were you cranky?
I thought you were dandy
When you abstained from hanky panky.
All this time, you were still the hurt little boy that was raised in the Pope’s lyceum.
And turned into a lamprey the second I couldn’t give him anything to eat.
If you’re alone and free, I’ve already forgotten about you.
If you deserve better than me, you took the easy way out
By cheating on your test in life and got caught by the pauper.
You whimpered in fear of getting expelled and I was prepared for it.
The lamprey within broke free when I couldn’t look at you as the same person I loved before.
You fruitlessly faked your regret and pinned the blame on my ass to get out of jail free.
I’m not crying not because I didn’t care about you.
It was because I have the ending from that film memorized by heart.
It’s crazy, isn’t it? I know. I’ve watched it several times in French as a student.
I know my worth. I’m smiling in public while the sun is up
And brightening up the night when it goes down.
Thank you for putting words in my mouth when you were at your lowest.
Can you remind me again what major you’re pursuing?
Because you behaved like a patient in a case study at Arkham to me.
Wake up and smell the roses, my sweet summer child.
If you can’t stand to be where the bald eagles take flight,
Then park yourself on a bench and feed the pigeons.
It Does Not Matter Now
A way to frame minds
So powerful lies can be
Let's keep doing it—
It was Day 1 when it was scorching hot and we crossed paths.
I was looking for an oasis to drink from,
Though a hug from you was a thousand times better
Because afterwards, we went swimming in the lake and laughed at the gold diggers passing by.
Poor men were oblivious that they mined their last nugget in this desert.
It was Day 2 when we continued our journey.
You introduced me to your bitches when you brought me home.
One licked me silly while the second took a while to come around.
It was only trying to judge me to see if I would be a menace to your family.
I’ve always liked the playful, funny, and carefree breeds.
It was Day 3 when you showed me your larger-than-life garden.
You spoke of how your brother and mother had toiled day and night tending to it.
The garden was shaped like the number 5 and I couldn’t be happier.
You regaled me with stories of an ancient civilization that once existed in this land of the dead.
Every word from your tongue between breaths was like a missing page in a book lost in time.
It was Day 4 when I crawled on my knees after a beating from a two-faced sergeant
Looking for you so you could lift me back on my two feet and hold me close
But to add insult to injury, you held your scorn like you should’ve held my hands.
So I passed out on the floor and was left for dead out in the open.
How do indecisive weeds like you sleep at night?
It was Day 5 when I woke up expecting you’d be there, but your home was empty.
Your garden was withered and the magic was gone so it turns out that it was all a mirage.
You can rationalize your actions and demonize me any way you like,
But when you save your second thoughts for one minute before midnight,
It’s goodbye and good riddance to you weeds.
So I left. It was better for me to abandon you before you inevitably did the same.
The world is full of snakes and trojans as it is.
It’s best for me to give them a dose of their own venom as soon as I see right through them.
You should’ve told me earlier rather than at the last minute.
Or when I have fallen and can’t get up.
Then maybe we could’ve still been friends.
But now you’re just another silhouette that shears hearts like hedges.
If you’re looking to post an ad requesting company in a moment of loneliness,
Think again before you shatter another heart or wager your sanity.
A weed ain’t cut out for love, let alone a friendship
If it can’t make up its mind and let its loneliness fog its judgment.
Poor guy should’ve inspected the thorns before he picked the rose.
Now it’s my turn to wager a few things,
I bet you don’t even miss me.
I bet you feigned regret that you added salt in the wound.
I bet that you’ll forget all about me after the weekend I disappeared.
I bet you’ll cower in the arms of the two bitches you value most in life.
I bet you’ll start looking for another soul that you’ll pray to Aphrodite you won’t screw over.
Whatever happens to you, I am grateful that I have kin to keep tight
And an adventure I continue to embark on in the desert with or without you there for me.
You’re just another silhouette that shears hearts like hedges.
Coward I am
For being unable to lie
Coward I am
For being unable to say no
Although this I accept,
I cannot make a change
Something holds me back
I don't want control
Of the person I am.
I need direction
A path to walk through
I want to speak my mind
And deny myself
Of things I do not need
I need to cease
Being a coward
Welcome to the City of Dreams
All full of nightmares, daydreams, and schemes
Whatever you dream; it’s a wonderful theme
Whenever you want; you’re always the king
Lie down and sleep your pain away
Forget your past, forget the day
Here the only toil is play
It’s easy to come here, there’s many a way
Become the hero you wanted to be
Without actually being what you see
In this world only, can you be free
Stay with us, is our only plea
Be rich, be naughty
Be powerful, be haughty
Live in this dream, decaying body
No one will care if you’re a bit dotty
It’ll be too late, when you finally know
You’re not in control; was only a show
So just sit back, and go with the flow
While we take you to an all-time low
Down the rabbit hole
Into the earth
Shadows will blind you
Now what was this worth?
Life is so fleeting
Death is now eating
Living and dying
Laughing while crying
Fall into madness
Can’t tell the difference
Between night and day
Between real and fake
Between right and wrong
Between sky and cake
There is no difference
Only existence
Nothing to do
But dream
The City of Dreams…
“Welcome to The City of Dreams…”
she talks about passwords
she loves to discuss dog turds
how she gets all perturbed
with how she used words
honestly she could care less
her close relationships are a mess
lies with no distress
claims to be a healer
master bullshit dealer
sits high upon her pillar
sold her dad for a dollar
on her mom puts a collar
the truth is never hollered
she knows she is a coward
hurting men is her game
she knows who to blame
to her it's all the same
could be next on her list
or a just a finger on her fist
words and mind she will twist
happiness will be missed
"I'll take that and that too."
like it's all that she can do
I am the latest prisoner
so I better listen to her
do what I am told
or I will be scold
but I am too old
how much longer can I hold?
she chases down
and finds the clown
and makes him frown
her mind is broken
a crack token
don't buy what she's smokin
she's knows and is lookin
for her next victim
to blame
for the pain