Obsessed with Control

When the man of the house threatens to put a leash on you,

The best step now is to see yourself out to force him to rue.

Enter My Fear

All of the welcoming emotion suddenly dies.
and the darkness shrouds the land in only misery's cries.


Enter grief!
A timeless ocean. 
Trapped of despair, trapped without relief
Enter the moon!
Endless racing of the thoughts.
Including you alone, trapped dead inside an empty room

The dead is holding you stiff once more!
Staring into your eyes, never have you felt so gone before

The time comes again, to pit against all that is you
Will you ever find the part of you that is actually true?

Paint the sky bleak
Consider everything we cannot speak

The one painting with the sun I painted as a child is lost.
Reality has broken the barrier, this is the ultimate cost




I never would have imagined it
But some how you did
That day you said it, I fell
Backwards in shock, and I did,

I actually became speechless
The day you told me you loved me
I found myself in a sate of bliss
And this I know you can see

Because that day I told you
That I was
I didn’t know how true, just how
True you’re feelings were/was

And every time you say it
I find that I am still
Struck speechless, because it
Is the greatest thing, even still

I could not have imagined it
Not then, not ever
That your feelings where there, it
Has become something that I cant live without, not ever

I am so struck by your love
That even now as I write this
I know you weren’t sent from above
But I still feel such bliss

Each and every time you say it
That you love me
I find that I cannot say it
But somehow I do, this I know you can see

How your love has given me
A new reason to face the day
Even though I still want to be set free
I still will find a way

To go on and see
What this new day has in store
I know that one day I will be set free
And toward them, close that door

That will all come, one day
And that day I shall rejoice
And finally say
That they gave me no choice

But even until then
I still find myself speechless
Each and every time when
You tell me of your love, because its bliss

Written on
July 26, 2011

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This was written to Scott Wolf. The very first time he said he loved me, I was speechless. I found myself 'speechless' everytime he tells me that he loves me. I figure this will be the same thing my whole life, with him.

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