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*Mind, Heart, Soul*
March.23.2001
Trisha M Barrek Hopkins
-Mind-
You are always on my mind
Too sweet
So kind
When I'm cold you're my heat
Someone just like you I won't ever find
No one else i want to find
Your love always makes me blind
Right next to me will always be your seat
-Heart-
You'll always be in my heart
So deep
Never part
When you're with me I cant sleep
I knew we were meant to be from the start
-Soul-
You are apart of my soul
You are all around me
To keep in touch will be my goal
I'm not ever setting you free
You're a precious memory forever I will hold
Apart of my soul you will always be
You are worth more then gold
You are dear that I hope you see
You will always be in my mind
You will always be apart of my heart
You will always be connected to my soul
And the memories will never end
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Trisha M Barrek Hopkins
*Thinking Of You*
March-12-2005
Trisha M. Barrek Hopkins
While i am thinking of you
I sit here and wonder why
Why has God sent you back to me
Why has he let you let my feelings fly
Why has he let my fear free
Then out of no where all over again makes me cry
Because he, God has took you from me
Without your love all straight i cant see
It seriously feels like my soul will die
If i cant have you like it use to be
But all i get in return
Is your sweet voice on the phone on the other end
Instead of your love that inside me still burns
When you put your sweet lips on mine
To kiss me like you do
When I'm in my bed all alone
I try to put a picture in my head of you
As i try to remember when we were as one
And i try to recall the last time when i my heart wasn't stone
I try to remember the fun
And even though your not here with me
The pain within hurts like hell
Because I'm still in love with you
This i have always to you tried to tell
That my love for you is so damn true
But when i get the nerve to say what i want
My words don't come out well
So the words in my mind to me begin to haunt
The burning passion is too deep in my heart
To go on without your presence
Its too hard to have the memory part
From my mind of innocence
Baby don't you understand
I've loved you the very first day
From the very start
I want you to sill be my man
But there's nothing to say
Because you're really not here
So i just sit to clear my mind once again
And i tell myself for the 100th time its not fair
This is just a dream all pretend
Instead of crying out of control i just stare
There's even no reason to count to ten
But still all over again i begin to imagine
You're here by my side telling me you truly care
Telling me for us how there is so much passion
And kissing me so gently like you do
I'm wishing this life we can share
Then i wake up and snap out of my daydream
And just sit on the edge of the bed
Baby i don't want to
But i try to clear you from my head
Because that's the only way i wont go insane
I try to erase to me every word you said
But my memory always wants to play this hurtful game
Of making your memory of you remain
Making me forever have you in my mind
Forcing me to remember the past
And having my heart trying to find
A way to make everything last
No matter how hard i try
I'm always still thinking of us
And because i cant truly have you
My heart starts to cry
Because sweety even though we cant be
I will always have you remain with me
You will always have a place in my heart
And now i know from me you'll never part
I've come to believe
We are and always will be one
From my mind heart and soul you'll never leave
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Five Year Journey
The weather is well
The sky is blue
The day anew
The little birds wake and sing
We wake because our alarms ring
I can’t tell
If that was the screams in my head or
The school bell
I’m inside
Inside again
Inside myself
Translation of my ideas, I’m deaf
Sympathetic to several causes
Seemingly smart with scarce solutions
Often imagining the future
Taking the high way in the maze of life
Road block
Stagnated, frustrated
Angst
Initially, but it evolved courageously
It’s hard to understand ourselves
Time is the patron of change
Now that I get it
Or
That I think I get it
I’d like to rewind
And restart the picture I painted
Purify the person I tainted
Use the colors that I wish I used
My eyes see nothing new, I’m unamused
Now there’s nowhere to memorize just open your mind
Analyze every line
Because all the world’s a stage
Regressed to Illiteracy
In my book I can’t seem to turn the page
Learning till the day I die
Consumption of corruption because it’s easy
Though,
Our interests are mutual
Alone like my daily ritual
Instant satisfaction
Failing to ponder and think critically
Why don’t we ask why
By social stigma we act cynically
To me my shadow is colorful
Full
The feeling we search for
Push and pull
Two sides seen by only two eyes
Left & right, black & white
Understanding is out of sight
Success
Maybe
I might
Still figuring it out
Silence kisses my lips
Only talking when we take sips
Beats my heart skips
My conscious flows in the veins of my eyes
My tongue is red like my lies
Tarnished are my teeth and my thoughts
And without purpose my soul rots
The human hand is the door knob to a person
But my hands are locked in fists
Wrinkles in our palms
The fleshy manifestation of our route through life
Legs like ruined Roman columns
Glory with revitalization
Destruction with mistreatment
Only if he comes to a sooner realization
He’ll become a traitor of stag-nation
*Noway Out*
March-22-1998
Trisha M. Barrek-Hopkins
I.
I stand on the top of the bridge
Unrecognize the dark valley below
I look far in the distance i see the ridge
The place that i crave and need to go
II.
As i start into the valley of the unknowing
One i know that many have traveled before
By the same path as i follow now in the showing
And i pass the bodies left behind
Ones so unrecognizable you can ignore
And the spirits i may find
All this horror in my mind i can not help but to store
The doing to these bodies is something below kind
III.
I see the evidence of the battles
And know of the markings
That have become of those before me
And now i see the leftover of death
Wondering if any of us will get free
IV.
Above me the light of promise
To reach the ridge of destiny
Will mean for internal happiness
And life with no end
V.
It is were my spirit ends
Giving my soul away
My life to god i send
Something different people say
But it has come to me
To this day
I set my heart free
VI.
As i walk with no power to run
The branches are against me
And all of the darkness of hell
Never knowing when ill see the sun
They reach for me and i must resist
The fear i have no one i can tell
No person is pissed
VII.
As i reach the foot of the hill
That i must reach i find no path but down
No understanding from those people
To the point that i have reached
I give up tring
I tried to preach
But my only way is to go on dying
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Born For Infinity
Born For Infinity
As water falls
from clouds
And music flows
from guitars
and words leave
the poet
and light
pours from stars
As art
from the painter
scent radiates
from bloom
peach tree
bursts from pit
child born
of womb
As attraction
leaves the magnet
love departs the heart
heat leaves the fire
Auras
from souls depart
-saiom shriver-
A tale of souls
Wandering Soul, lost in sea
Hiding from its shadow, seeking to be free
Hopeless Soul, sinking in abyss
Crawling and slithering, out of the darkness
Weeping Soul, singing to the sky
Yearning to escape but despaired that it can't fly
Broken Soul, wrapped in chains
Breaking on through, only to perish in flames
Withering Soul, drowning in fear
Seeking redemption as the angels appear
Hey there child
Wake up child, it’s time for school
Time to conform and learn the rules
This is your future, cause the choice is already made
About the laws and the people to hold your cage
No time for questions, no time for change
You gotta get with the program or you're gonna be estrange
So forget about the future and follow the past
It’s time to be part of the sheeps which we have amassed
Hey there child, why do you dance in the rain
Why do you gaze at the clouds, maybe your insane
Hey there child, why do you feel no pain
Why do you continue to dream, oh you’re so strange
Wake up boy, there is no time for rest
You gotta find a job and a home to build your nest
You gotta find your lover and then break her heart
You’ve gotta crush all her dreams by tearing her apart
You got to lose your voice, and accept your fate
Let go of all that joy and drown in your hate
You are gonna have some children and then teach them the same
Keep holding them down until it’s you who they distain
Hey there child, why do you dance in the rain
Why do you gaze at the clouds, oh maybe your insane
Hey there child, why do you feel no pain
Why do you continue to dream, oh you’re so strange
Hey there man, so broken and undone
You done what we asked for and now you’re no longer our concern
Wrapped in our strings, oh how we made you dance
Made you believe that you could win this game of chance
Lying in your death bed, alone and scared
Filled with regret and wishing that you dared
But now it’s too late, so close your eyes
And lose all hope and accept your demise
Hey there child, how do you dance in the rain
Show me how to gaze at the clouds, help me be insane
Hey there child, I want to feel no pain
I wanna learn how to dream, how to be so strange
Hey there child, please save my soul
Please take my hand, and pull me from this hole
Hey there child, show me how to fly away
Show me how to believe, how to find my own way
Curses Too Kritic/ Invocations From The Soul- Part Four and Five
An hour pass midnight, my curse is
sleepless, mind weary, creative
thinking, imaginary vision; sleep-
walking in my dreams between
dimensions....Constantine!
Too walk in the dark one must
embrace the darkness, welcome
Moloch into your dreams, be aware
of the shadows that walk besides
you; often three shadows follow me
....nothing else matters once you
have sold your soul, enjoy the night
,and let the fire burn!
I met a lover in the shadows of the
night; her darkside is similiar to mine
, same interest, struggles, and
addiction....when all is quiet, stoner's
asleep, tweeker's hiding, and prosti-
tutes gone home, my lover and I get
naked and fuck at the crossroads
under dark skies, no moonlight....
only shadows!
Curse the damned, blasphemous,
heaven's abomination including me....
pale horse rider of the armageddon
with sinister ways; my name was
never written in the book of life!
Invocations to the dark, evil, and
unholy with sacrifice will open the
nine gates of hell; be careful when
evoking the spirits of darkness; if
your mind is not ready for what is to
come, your heartbeat will stop at
the sound of my feet approaching
your dreams, destroying your
sanity!
It is 2:10AM, invocations to the dark
side are becoming rituals, rites of
dragula, perversions, and manisfes-
tations; Lucifer speaks in demonic
tongues, no need to translate, I
understand! Invocations to Lillith
with ghost songs in cemeteries at
the witching hour; my soul possess,
the evil within bleeds over the tombs
of the dead!
SoulKritic 2014 Copyright
The Dismantling Of A Soul
She's tried to be the strong one,
that sturdy, unbreakable wall.
But after years of doing it alone,
-the mortar starts to fall.
What's held her all together,
slowly drops away.
More and more corrosion,
takes a toll each day.
Then the bricks, of her strength,
start to break and crumble.
There upon the debris,
she begins to blindly stumble.
One by one,
they fall out of place.
Till finally, at last,
she's but an empty space.