Psycho- Confessions

Hatred

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Hatred”

 

 

I'm becoming the monster I sought to be

and it's scaring me

I can't stop the urge

it's to much for me to handle

my life is just one big scandal

power to the freaks;

god bless the geeks

outcast's wearing our fucked up masks

fighting Society

that is fucking with our privacy

suck my dick, and like it

I am the monster born

taking on an all new form

thundering down on you like a storm

 

call me what you will

because when I am done, you'll feel

all my hate, all my rage

I'll trap you in your own fucking cage

stabbing you with the sticks

that condemned us you fucking pricks

Kill the damn dicks

I lost all my humanity

Next to go is my sanity

I'll give them something to label

I wont rest till its on cable

 

"De-flowered girl, on Jesus's table"

 

This is just the beginning

God will reject me for sinning

but I don't give a shit, can you tell?

I'm already living in hell

we are the damned

our life they scammed

Its our Time

spawned from God's crime

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This was one of many dark poems I've written in the past, I would probably do a tribute to my Morbid Device's collection. (A whole another story in itself) But yes, as I mentioned I was going through a rather disturbing time in my life when I wrote this piece.

 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Heaven

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Heaven”

 

 

Heaven is so bold,

your beauty brighter then gold

heaven is so bright,

looking in your eyes I can see its light

 

"The sky is blue,

bringing in something new

heaven is nothing without you"

 

Heaven is a place where my angel can sing and dance

where your beauty will only enhance

and can never be sold

wither or grow old

 

"The sky is blue

bringing in something new

heaven is nothing but you"

 

I've told you this a million times

I've said this to you through a million rhymes

your beauty goes beyond that of a million minds

and those of infinite finds

You are my heaven, without you I'm left with nothing

and trapped in the darkness

you are my heaven, my queen

hoping that I can be your king

 

"The sky is blue,

bringing my angel something new

Heaven is everything about you"

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Hiding Away

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Hiding Away”

 

Laying there bleeding, in a time of grieving

crying out in vain, wishing away all the pain

rotting away inside, trying your hardest to hide

as the world tells all lies, opening your eye's

the pain, the feelings still there, life is so unfair

holding onto what's left,

as your mind is being pulled on a rack, trapped and fighting back

your soul burning in the darkness, everyone is so heartless

Life is so cold, growing so old

your all alone wishing for someone

to take away all the pain, all the hate

giving up before it's to late

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Hope

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Hope”

 

You cannot touch, what you cannot see

You cannot feel, what you cannot hear

The pain that we fear

is all to real, and will never heal

though I said it a thousand times

it seems to be a million crimes

 

I'll be your lover, I'll be forever

I'll be tomorrow, I am anywhere”

 

 

Torn by the distance

my thorn is my persistence

things you cannot see

people you cannot be

chained, yet free

always pained,

your white dress stained

I said it a thousand times before

how they thought it was a lie

so bad I wanted to die

 

I'll be your lover, I'll be forever

I'll be tomorrow, I am anywhere”

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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How Many Times

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How Many Times”

 

 

How many times did I say those words

I don't even know where to start

but I feel it with every beat of my heart

how many times did I whisper them in your ear

wishing you were here

I was in so much pain, with nothing to gain

my head filled with so many voices

and so little choices

 

with just 3 little words

you did more then any other, you are more then just my lover

I want to be with you forever, to heal together

 

they say love is nothing but lies

I don't believe them when I look into your eye's

how many times did we say it

how many times did we feel it

I always thought you say it best

it always puts my doubts to rest

 

"Your voice is an Angel's choice"

 

being with you is my dream

being with you is my heaven

My Angel, my love, how many times did we say

"I love you"

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Hurt

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Hurt”

 

 

I'm Fucked in the head

Your god is dead

you said I was obsessed

they said I was depressed

nothing is what it seems

were lost within our own dreams

my pain will portray

my emotions will decay

all things will start to delay

my thoughts will slow

nothing can save me now

my mind just won't allow

hurt in many ways

hurt in so many days

peel my skin away

now its impossible for my words to say

you made me believe

that even in the darkest of eve

Love will bloom, but then it will consume

I am hurting beyond words

I am hurt, nothing but dirt

my blood runs cold

the memories in which I hold, will never be told

never again will I love, killed my only chance

the misery will only enhance

hurting I dance, to this devil's prance

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Insanity

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Insanity”

 

 

 

Cheap imitations

Broken Imaginations

 

everything seems to be falling apart

even from the beginning, even from the start

cutting straight through to the heart

just when I believe everything is fine

I find myself walking on that vary thin line

 

Empty thoughts

twisting and turning leaving me in knots

trying to hold onto what's left

even if that means using my last breath

 

my mind wanders

leaving the pain to follow

my thoughts so hallow

the pain begins to show

everything trapped below

my emotions out of control

my reactions slowing

 

a wasted life

broken like a rusty knife

 

No where left to run, no where left to hide

Nothing left but the darkness

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated; From Psycho- Confessions)

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Life

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“Life”

Everything I had was striped away
doing everything I can to keep the demon's at bay
hoping, dreaming for a brighter day
fuck the life in which I was gave
a life that cannot be saved
my dreams and goals, crushed and slammed
to this world I am damned
The words I think are never the words I say
hoping, dreaming for a brighter day

The cure I need
the greed you feed
ignoring my plead
on this painful cross I'm crucified
to this world I lied
from this world I hide
the day my heart turned black
was the day I found that rusted knife in my back
Fuck you is what they said
and that day I bled
Nothing is left but the pain
a decaying fragment all the same
rotten to the core
my mind is numb and sore
heaven isn't in my future
just endless amounts of torture
darkness all around
trapped without so much as a sound
to this fate, I am bound

"Darkness here, death is near"

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Light it Up

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Light It Up”

 

 

Light it up,

Burn it down,

All the way to the fucking ground

beating me to make you stronger,

torturing me to make it last longer,

to me your nothing but a cheap thrill

something that I take in the form of a pill

you made your mistake

you created me, and now I take

all your religious antics you make

won't save you from my hate

give up, it is your fate

Light it up,

Burn it down,

all the way to the fucking ground

You locked me up

I tied you down

now isn't that something, look what I've found

twisting within the depths, without so much as a sound

my hate towards you,

made it that much more profound

I am the monster in-which you fear

in the darkness, I am the noise you hear

I will strip away everything you hold dear

ironic isn't it, because that is what you did to me

 

Killed all my hopes and dreams

nothing I ever did was right,

pushed back before I could fight

searching for a light, to find my way out

of these shadows...now its your turn.

Light it up

Burn it down

To the Vary Soil of this ground.

Give up its to late,

give up its your fate

 

"Death is all around

no place to go but down"

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

(Updated From; Psycho- Confessions)

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