I've never seen an angel bleed
Till I stood with knife in hand
I've never seen a devil cry
Till I looked once through it's eyes
You were my drug
Long before I acclimated
Long before withdrawal
I needed you to survive
I can feel your eyes on my back
Can't you hear me?
I'm silent on the outside
But screaming on the inside
I'm soul-lost
I can't find who I am anymore
Maybe I'll be fine
Perhaps I will survive
But I just don't know if
I can outlast your memory
If I lose myself in drugs and dreams
Or fly away to places and things
To fill the gap you left behind
Consuming body, soul, and mind
But there is no need
To conjure dreams
When life comes
In such radiant colors
They say Pandora is to blame
Her curiosity brought us pain
And fear of darkness in the night
But there was hope in candle-light
From the dark, a light will shine
Before the day, the night has gone
And now we know it burns so fine
That is why it's called, breaking dawn.
And maybe, just maybe
That which dies gives birth to something new
From nightmare to nightmare ,
I'm sorry about my burden, how I'm so wrong,
And how I'm so stupid with all that I do.
I'm sorry about the way I am, I dont belong.
I'm sorry that I never at all deserved you.
But you can't see this part of me I'm hiding,
That's so crudely hidden under what you see?
I'm sick of crying, and I can't keep on trying,
Without you I'm worthless, you are so free.
You're my antidote that gets me past every day,
You're the one to always save me from my agony.
I wish I could show you I can't live this way.
I wish I could show you my sorrowful blasphemy.
The infectious pain quickly tears me apart,
And shatters my will within a few words.
I feel so helpless, I wish I could restart,
And go back to when I wasn't such a coward.
You're my lost antidote, come cure this poisoning;
Come reverse me, turn me to my former being.
Please stay forever and keep me from maddening,
And keep me from the edge, stop the bleeding.
You are my drug
No, I don’t need
Coke or Meth
You’re all I need
I just need you
For the rest of my life, everyday
Even if u decide to walk
I'm going to stay
So learn to live with me
Because I cant live without
Not you, not ever
If you say you’re going to leave, I’ll pout
Just because I need a dose of
My drug everyday
Truthfully, my love for you
Is worse than any drug to this day
Because I need you
Every second of every day
Even when I sleep I need you
Because you make my nightmares go away
I love you
Is all I can say
And with you
Forever, will I stay
~Chrystal
Written on
January 19, 2012
i like my syrup right from the spout now do you know what the fuck im talking about im talking about that drug that hardcore fucking drug if you ant got it your ganna feel like you got a bug dont even wanna get out of bed to give your girl a hug ya thats that fucking drug now let me tell you about another one at first it seems hella fun till you need another one ya thats that fucking pill its got you feeling ill dont know how to deal with bullshit so you say i'll only do alitte bit before you take it you better shit now your chest is kinda tight 50 hydros gone befor the end of the night knowing your ganna need more now your girls a hor the one you ador thats what that shit will do come back around and fuck you lets talk about coke that shit ant no joke nothing funny could get you money could get you jail useing the money you made for bail the drug life ant ever ganna be fair so play your part if you dare go out an get your share were all living in sin so get locked up an do it again lets go out on a binge overdose wake up pop some more and get comatousted like you dint just overdose lifes a party and im the host i dont give a fuck cause im higher than the rest i came from the family nest and i was the best just here to make a mess fuck all of that turn my hat back so you can see my eyes you dont know about the cries cause of the lies but its for me to deside shit ill wait for it to subside then i'll start to share but you probly wont care cause you cant stand to bare the truth cause it might hurt short like a skirt i dont care what you think cause your gone when i blink wanna be me youll sink your soft like the pink but the dirty pink that might stink an i dont give a fuck ima still be high till the day i die
by kyle aaron cohen
My mind is awake
it never sleeps
Keeps me awake at night
and in the day, weak
I can't control
where it goes
My morbid thought
only my mind knows
The messed up things
I like to do
I turn my heart off
when I go through
the things I drink
The things I take
the happiness
I try to create
My bleeding nose
My darkened eyes
Hide my apathy
Behind lies
The edge of cliff
way past the line
and no one can save me from me
this time.
Spoke amongst them
with valor,
his voice many heard...
Presence of authority,
Silence when he spoke-
A toke of peace, lite
many fires,
in Hollywood bungalows,
with little girls, dirty
women, WHORES!!
No fear to criticize;
So critic...
This is my philosophy,
living testimony of
another chance in
life...
Knowledge they saw in
my eyes, confirm with
words that discontent.
Seed of envy are their
pupils, seen through,
heard never listened-
Invited never welcome.
Deny my art, my love
for the spoken
word...
Not like the crowd,
unique!!
They know, I know,
they are fools!
Drip drop I feel on my forehead as I lay in my hospital bed.
I open my eyes to see a spider web of veins centered over head.
Frozen in fear I cannot help but stare.
I look left; I look right, still full of fright.
I see two people slowly sit up and turn to look at me.
Is this truly what I see?
No mouth nor nose and eyes, a face covered with flesh.
My strength tested to the best.
I fear to close my eyes and rest.
It’s not the pain I cannot take; the doc slips me another dilaudid 8.