This world of ice
Forged in frozen sheets
Layer upon layer
So many attempts to thaw
Daily melting
Hidden tears, weeping alone
Drip from the tips
Of every cycle formed
Crying out, wishing to remain
And finally end the pain
But it’s hard to move
In the cold
For the days are short
The sun sets again
The lonely frost
Once more sweeps in
And progress that was made to flow
Turns once again to ice and snow
Leaving nothing to hold
In the chill of this night
But a faint hope
That perhaps tomorrow
I’ll finally find courage
In a silent moment
Of light and warmth of sun
And turn to you
And finally say...
I'm sorry
I’m a dagger with a smile
Watch me lure victims in
With genuine kindness
Then slaughter their hearts by nature
I’m a vampire with tears
Pulling in the innocent
As I drain their sweet blood
And absorb every stinging pain
I’m a bullet who won’t whistle
Burning on the inside
Right before I burn yours
Half a second later
I’m a teenager who’s sorry
Toying with puppets
And cutting their strings
Right when the felt real
I wonder if I lost my one true love
I wonder if letting you go all those year’s was the best thing for me
When we speak it’s as if we never grew apart
When we speak it’s as if we are one, as if those feelings never left
And so the thought dawn’s upon me
You have found another all because I let you walk out of my life
And now
It hurts thinking about you
It hurts every time I see your face
It hurts when I say your name
It hurts knowing you stole my heart
It hurts that I still love you
Day to day I lose hope and my hearty becomes emptier
I let you go so that we could grow on our own
I let you go because we only hurt each other
I let you go, believing we would find our way back to each other
Now you have found another
Now the hole in my heart grows
I’m slowly dying with each breath I take
For I have lost the love of my life
It happens when
you're all alone....
No one answering your calls
No one answering your texts
No one there for you...
That's when you look over,
and you see your blade.
That faithful friend...
That friend who's always there
when no one else is around.
That friend that
can bring you comfort,
bring you freedom,
make you....
alive.
You don't dare
tell others that
this is how you feel...
That, even though it's wrong,
you actually....
enjoy the blade.
You keep that inside,
it's your little secret.
You slowly reach out,
knowing you shouldn't
but you're done resisting,
and ready for that comfort.
So that's when you
go ahead,
you hold it in your hand,
feeling the familiarity of it.
You place it to your skin,
you press it down,
you pull on it,
you drag it across your skin.
You give in and let it win.
You cut.....
You give in.
It was a tragedy in making,
Gasping joyfully among sighs.
It was love we were faking,
Gripping between each other’s thighs.
It was just a trial,
Giving me your all.
It was agony and denial,
Gazing at your fall.
It was torture and pain,
Getting all of your fury.
It was all in vain,
Granting me your jury.
Into the darkened world shall i arise?
And once there be exposed to all there lies?
Loss of trust be forever mourned,
And those once loved be forever scorned.
Eternally from light we are repelled,
But to return we are always compelled.
We unto ourselves inflict so much pain,
It seems without it we are all insane.
I feel as though caught in an endless storm,
Left with only my hate to keep me warm.
It seems to be released i must meet death,
And so i want to breathe my final breath.
Exasperated I am just too stressed.
To meet my end right now I would be blessed.
I took one last trip down memory lane
I revisited a folder I still had of you, brought me so much pain
All the pictures I had saved
And all those beautiful messages I didn't wanna erase
As I was reading every letter, every fucking word
I realized only then, how much I got hurt
I felt a tear fall from my eyes
Boiling with hatred from reading your lies
Reminiscing of all the promises you had made
All those memories we had built just to break
Every single moment
With a few words, stolen
I felt like crying so fucking hard tonight
As I read along like a spiders venom, it hit me hard, I wanted to die
I regret not saying a few things to you
I regret doing things I should've never done
All those nerdy voices I promised I would never do
I regret most of it, but mostly letting my heart be strung
You were so young and so hopeless
I was older, I knew how to cope with this
I wrote so many songs for you, and you didn't appreciate
Now you'll never know I still write you songs, but songs of hate
If I ever see you again, I can't say what I'll do
But it can't be anything nice or evil, but I will go talk to you
I will let you see me smile and even though deep down I'll be still broken
And maybe for a second you'll want me back, just for a moment
But I won't be foolish this time around
For a while I was lost, but tonight I've been found
And I will never be sure of where I belong
But the next time I say those three words, I won't be wrong
(Intro)
(Verse 1)
We had so much promise
But your pretty mouth could not be honest
And every word that you said
Was tainted with regret
I could feel the distance grow
I could feel your hands let go
While I was still trying to hang on
You made me feel so right when i was so fucking wrong...
(End verse 1)
(Chorus)
You gave up on all our dreams
You told me secrets, you told me things
You destroyed the house we took so long to make
It's all your fault, you let it fade
(End chorus) x2
(Verse 2)
You had, a tremble in your voice
I could hear the silence in your noise
I could feel your fear with just your looks
Your eyes were empty, but I wish this would worked
Honestly, I could write infinitely about you and me, but with no sincerity
Our past, didn't last cause of your lies
We're no longer together, so I won't waste my time
(End verse 2)
(Outro)