Did you ever care?
Did you ever feel the same way?
How much of it was real?
How much f it was lies?
You must of known I cared,
You must of known how I really felt,
I wanted to make you happy,
I wanted to show you I understood,
How could you be so cruel?
How could you not see it was hurting me?
I took a chance and trusted you,
I took a chance and let you in,
You never let me in,
You never seemed to care,
How much pain does pleasure bring?
How much pleasure does pain bring?
Why didnt you stop it?
Why did you carry on?
You hurt me in ways I never knew,
You hurt me permanently,
I have scars from you,
I have scars because of you,
I gave you a second chance,
I gave you a third chance,
You chose to burn those bridges,
You chose to burn me.
I know I need to walk away,
Tell me its over even though it never began,
Remove the spell Im under,
Let me live in peace,
My heart aches at the thought of you,
Why did I fall for you?
I let you in and you shut me out,
Only there when it was convenient for you.
I told you I wont chase you forever,
One day I will give up and walk away,
No matter how great the pain,
How much I miss your touch,
The taste of you on my lips,
Your skin against mine,
Intoxicating scent of pheremones,
The adrenaline rush,
Hearts pounding and pulses thumping,
Im going to miss it all,
But most of all,
Im going to miss you.
Ego sum paenitet me dilexit vos.
I
Am
Sorry
I'm sorry.
I can't see the meaning of those words anymore.
Black & blue;
Bruised, on the floor, & what do I hear?
"I'm sorry, you didn't deserve that, you weren't the girl I should have hit."
No, shit.
Curled into the fetal position;
A piece of my soul was taken sans permission.
Forced into submission...
Yet, I hear it again;
"I'm sorry, I didn't know it was rape."
"Rape can't happen between a couple anyway, plus I love you, I'm sorry."
How does one process this mess?
I'm sorry, I forgot how english works.
I'm sorry, my soul fucking hurts.
I'm sorry, perhaps I shouldn't be so nice.
Sugar, spice, everything nice...
Tweak the ingredients.
Fuck this obiediece;
Encoded in my D.N.A.
Fuck what I have to say.
I'm sorry I was there for you when you were on special k.
I'm sorry I can't be nice today, "my baaaad".
Your words of choice.
I'm sorry your mom is a fuckin' crack junkie.
I'm sorry your father shot himself in the head.
I'm sorry, you're not as strong as me.
I'm sorry you think strength is monetary.
I'm sorry, my mom doesn't wake me up spilling trash all over me.
How I have grown to loathe the words...
"I'm sorry"
"My bad"
Too bad, so sad, I am left to just toughen up.
I'm sorry I didn't wanna do horse tranquilizers with you.
I'm sorry that the cops caught you at a fuckin' drive thru.
Now,
I'm sure you see,
You use a word too much, it loses it's meaning.
Fair weather friends, come and go like changing seasons.
Apologies, you have lost me.
Fathom the reasons.
I feel sorry,
When I see,
The destitute children,
Time and again.
I feel sorry,
When I see,
A poor mother,
To feed the baby does suffer.
I feel sorry,
When I see...
You could say sorry,
But quite surprisingly,
You behaved as if I were guilty,
This was nothing but your hypocrisy.
So many times I forgave your mistakes charitably,
But you like Lady Macbeth kept on being a brownie,
You should’ve stopped playing games with my sensitivity,
Instead from bad to worse you went eventually!
You mustn’t disregard that the Almighty is there,
Think of the afterlife, not of the fleeting life here.
I felt sorry,
For misunderstanding her,
I felt poignant awfully,
As it was I who made her dejected there.
She is like a river,
Who gives selflessly,
Who doesn’t want anything in return ever,
An angel, earthly.
I must never make her feel low,
Satan himself strives hard though.
Febuary.17.2002 8:40pm
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
There are things people do
When they're not thinking right
If I could only get in touch with you
I'll look you in your eyes
And say sorry as I hold you tight
As I wipe the tears away as we cry
And promise I'll never hurt you
I promise you that this day
And let me assure you
That's no lie
Please sweetheart
Give me another try
She's the one who tore us apart
With all her lies
Can't you see
You're one with my soul
Since the start
I never really wanted to set you free
Or let you go
What I'm trying to say
Is I'm sorry deep down inside
I want you back in my life
I don't want it anyother way
Remember our saying
Best friends and a day
From the begining to the end
I miss you
These words I write
They are all true
I want you back in my heart
In my eyes
Back in sight
Copyright
Mom
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry i get sad.
I'm sorry I cry alot.
I'm sorry I have many scars.
I'm sorry I'm a disgrace.
I'm sorry I have times I've wanted to die.
I know you didn't expect that I would become
what I am today when you adopted that tiny me
all those many years ago.
I'm sorry...
I'm so, so sorry!
I’m a dagger with a smile
Watch me lure victims in
With genuine kindness
Then slaughter their hearts by nature
I’m a vampire with tears
Pulling in the innocent
As I drain their sweet blood
And absorb every stinging pain
I’m a bullet who won’t whistle
Burning on the inside
Right before I burn yours
Half a second later
I’m a teenager who’s sorry
Toying with puppets
And cutting their strings
Right when the felt real
the need
to be ugly
to get
attention
to be pathetic
out of grief
for lives
destroyed
i've known
comatose
with more
intelligence
2:16 AM 7/6/2013 ©
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