Old man Charlie weeps
Drowns in sorrow he keeps
As old as hops brewed ale
Charlie of old gale
Old man Charlie seeks
Stability in seat
As old as hound who sleeps
Charlie of loose teeth
Old man Charlie finds
In due time, a divine
As old as church bell rings
Charlie of deep sleep
Addiction
What hath ol' soft darkness brought?
Shameful lust molesting thought,
Immediate self medicate release,
Gently strangles my spirit ceased,
As I drift I gaze below,
Comfortly raping my soul he holds,
When the hands rotate no more,
Orgasmic twilight, pain adorn....
There's is an emptiness unfulfilled, a
vicious circle of malignant desire
becoming, consuming.
Beyond purple haze, or blue mist...an
Arctic freeze, stone cold ice.
Revolutionize my train of thought, I'm
tired of the poison, I'm tired of being
tired, weary, restless...
I want to rest in peace and dream
again. Death sounds like a coward's
exit from reality.
I will face reality and slap her, before
she slaps me again.
I will enter ceremonial withdraws from
spiritual imprisonment of my own flesh;
love has everything to do with this, a
love that kills, an addiction with thrills...
but I have two cups to fill, the first has
overfill, the second half empty; 24oz
don't quench the thirst anymore.
Shaking, tremors, cold sweat; mental
detox, body cleanse.
The rhythm of my heart is scratching,
skipping notes, beating slow.
I'm reaching out, yet Yeezuz thinks I'm
a fool.
I can't help but to love you
Even with how the circumstances stand
I've decided I'll never leave you
Together we'll be hand in hand
I can't help but to have these feelings
That are oh so passionately true
Because the more we make love
The more I'm so into you
Not only do I want you as my husband
I'm praying you'll remain my best friend
Because when I first met you
You automatically made my heart mend
You gave me this comfort I never felt before
This comfort that I soon came to adore
You're like this addiction that I've become prone to
Nothing or no one compares to you
So remember this next time we're apart
I loved you and only you right from the very start
Part I
1) With a ‘to’ and a ‘fro’ in her throat,
something she did note,
as on a piece of paper, she wrote
"I can't like you, for you don't know -
I got to go away - to which I can't say No."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
2) With her legs beside me, so stiff
and -to save me- her hands with great mischief,
she conveys to the punishment chief -
"Oh Ma'am? How can he be guilty?
As this is his first moment to my proximity!"
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
3) With all her teeth and gums out
and her tiny eyes so stout,
she beckons me with a shout -
"Go! I won't talk anymore to you.
How much I am hurt, you never knew."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
4) With real tears in her eyes
and five of her fingers glued to rice,
maybe yes, twice - she cries -
"How would you know how much I moan!
For, never you, I am disturbed alone."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
5) With a big grin at my face,
but with a big cry, the very next phase,
at my back this time, she says -
"He wouldn't have really scolded me,
If, even little, he had ever read me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
6) With a rise in all her gaze over the book,
when asked for her verses, she gave me an eerie look.
Soon, she wrote for me; Almost a month it took! -
"Though difficult, try to remember me
for, perhaps many for you, though you're alone for me."
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
From a girl, only another girl keeps one away,
but not from past nor future, for there're many more girls, I say.
An event with a girl can give a great kick start
that can lead anyone, till many suns set.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of many incidents I could not forget!
Part II
7) With drops falling down as she bends
her neck, in some reunion -she attends
after a year- she tells our friends -
“Long back, He stopped talking to me.
Neither a hello nor a glance – as if I’m his enemy.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
8) With a smile -she leaves the lab- too fake one
and with swollen eyes -returns in- pointing none.
Then, a message leaves her, following the sun -
“A friend can be anything, but not a sister!
So, please don’t ever call me so, you mister!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
9) With good red expressions – contorted,
while issues were being sorted
out about my interest in her, her words parted –
“Oh, now please stop it! I want no fight.
I understand it and it’s completely alright!”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
10) With her ideas so optimistic,
though actions far realistic,
she typed something very mystic -
“Had you worked, excellence of now would have been average
Anyways, any failure to be understood needs courage.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
11) With her face full of joy and hope
and beliefs no less than some pope,
she always replies, to my theory of mortality, with nope -
“The word End, with someone can also be Never,
for the person may know words like Forever.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
12) With a look so cheerless, that can shrink
one’s heart -though sometimes so cheerful that can kink
it’s beat- she said or typed - I think -
“Really miss you as I sometimes also saw my ex in you.
You played big part in my life, though days were very few.”
Well, every girl is so so pretty.
Lies apart, any girl can make your day,
no matter whether you are a guy, girl or a gay
This is a small tribute to a small part
of all the girls I met.
Memories of brain written from heart -
a few of the incidents I could never forget!
IT AIN'T WHAT U THINK IT IS
Whys everybody on my shit
Whys everyone at me for my tips,
I've put in my own work
I've paid my own dues,
Why's my boy
Wanna bomb on me to,
Theres a time to step off
Step the fuck away,
Back the fuck up
Before a catastrophy gets made,
A lil misunderstandin
Can turn into alot,
Espicially when u gotta shit
And cant find the pot,
What's really goin on
Are yall fuckin blind,
Thinkin Im doin good
Yall dun lost yalls damn mind,
Open your eyes
And see whats really there,
Walk behind the scenes
And you'll find this dream is a nightmare,
It sucks to be the man
When thats what ur pertrayed,
Ain't nothin but stress, stress, stress
Every motherfuckin day,
I'd take it back
The whole fuckin thing,
Cause were I'm standin
There aint no bling,
Just anger and irritation
Over somethin thats out my hands,
Yea it sux for the most part
When your the man,
It gets old as hell
Being tugged at from all angles,
Hell the angles turn to tangles
And the tangles get tangled,
Wadded up and wrapped up
Smacked and jaw-jacked,
Not for what it had
But for what it lacked,
This might just be
The final run of my time,
It's clear to me
This must be the sign,
Its long over due
Im ready to stand down,
And let someone else get screwed down,
Haha have at it
It's damn sure all you,
What u waitin on
There's just so much free shit to do,
But dont call me cause
It aint what u thought it'd be,
You'll find out for yourself
Just wait and you'll see!
Deep in the night
And far into my brain,
Pass the parts
Clouded with drugs and shame,
Pass the parts littered
With memories and pain,
Back when things were normal
And before the insanity came,
The years they come
And the years they pass,
All yall
Can still kiss my ass,
Out with the old
And in with the new,
Its way to late to change shoes,
I cant take it back
It'll never be the way it used to be,
I wish everyone would
Back up off me,
And let me breath,
Give me alil space thats free!