i am the girl of your dreams
i wrap you up in my polluted air
the vision of me isn't what it seems
the scars i inflict are too much for you to bear
i am the girl of your dreams
you smell the sweet scent of my my perfume
you taste the bitter taste on my lips
they bow as you walk in the room
the shimmer in your eyes as you walk out the door
the poison of my kiss
you taste my venom
all you do is ask for more
you swear you would never let me end this story
yet i won the war
you fall from your glory
you have scatched yourself raw
i've cryed my last tear
you watch the years go by as you fall
He has a little secret, no one else must guess.
He knows his parents would just freak if they found out.
The rope, a belt off an old karate uniform.
The silk slides through his fingers whispering erotic dreams
against trembling flesh. He measures the length, making
sure that it is just right, not to short, he doesn’t wish to truly die, but not to long or it might be to loose to do the job.
Obsession has taken over.
Fingers slowly slip the noose round his head and down to
hug with unseemly gentleness against his skin, snug against
his throat. The hangman's knot, a lover's caress on the back
of his neck. The other end tied to his bedpost. Silent
posters with empty eyes gaze down upon the boy. The
paraphernalia, the same that may be in a thousand other boys’ rooms,
pushed aside, so that when he falls, and fall he shall, he
won’t "hurt" himself. His eyes close as he daydreams of the
feeling, the loss of breath, the darkness descending, and the
rush of final release he has come to crave, this dance with
death he finds he does not wish to resist.
I'm lacking feeling
Emotion for your loss
Only because
You seem to be missing
Unable to decipher
Between right and wrong
Don't think you know
You have this problem
I'm keeping my distance
Just thought you should know
I'm not an addiction
Yet a person with a glow
I don't need your aggrivation
Your questioning
Or jealousy
Don't want someone who doesn't know
What they could be
You lack motivation
To repair your infestation
Everyone you pursue
Will notice the real you
So keep trying
Just let me be
Go try and control another
I know I am free
Without you
I am me
Unleash your anger
On youself for once
To see what it brings
You'll lose the hunt
Maybe realize
You have issues
That need to be reckoned with
As my aura glows
Showing much happiness
I have in myself
To leave you behind
Like a forgotten knick knack on a shelf
12-00
Espresso yourself to me, fill my cup.
Steam me longer, make me stronger.
Extra froth please. Who knows where this will lead?
Sugar? No thanks, your syrup is muy dulce.
You warm me up AND chill me out.
When I stir you, your flavors swirl around...
float up to me and lure me near.
Your aroma is so sincere.
You are most satisfying right here,
but I'll take you to go...if you insist.
DON'T PUT A LID ON IT!
There’s this distance in my soul
Oh how I want to hold on
But I must let go
For you could never be more than
a memory, I know
The summer’s beginning to surround me
I just don’t know where to go
As I look around I see
Those roses you planted are starting to grow
I close my tear struck eyes
To let the darkness surround me
As I open them slowly
The darkness is all I see
Oh baby don’t forgive me
I’m afraid I might give in
Darkness is all I want to see
I don’t want you to win
07-1998