Laying here trying to sleep.
Can't get her off my mind.
I'm falling to deep.
Her smile is contagious.
Making me blind.
This is outrageous.
I'm running out of time.
Bound for greatness.
Looking at the signs.
I feel so grateful.
Her beauty is a crime.
I have faith though.
One day I shall find.
The one they call beauty.
She shall be mine.
I cannot figure out my problem,
I sit alone in my room.
and for once I’d like to think my parents were right-
I’m fine, just 13.
I understand why I’m afraid of heights
I am afraid of being towered over,
looking past me to someone else,
I am forgotten.
Years later, I am only known when being seen in the wrong light,
I am only seen on the TV,
or the jury look at me,
I see the blood on my hands,
the prosecutor cannot let me see more land,
I am scared for my fate,
I act like I am without a care,
I don’t think the death penalty is fair.
I have not touched you in the place I'd like to be touched
I have no way to describe its clutch
You may think that place we'll go is too much
I think it's a high we deserve as such
Emotions we'll share are like no other
This love had been known to smother
But I feel your need to be my lover
My heart is slow to accept another
Remembering you blinds me to all others
To feel you close is all I require
To shift my heart and take me higher
This place is where I long to be
This place we go where we are we
deep with in 2011
i was crying so deep in tears
no one could see my pain or fears
burying my burdens was better than talking
so depressed was i from deep with in
deep with in deep with in
no way out no need to shout
deep with in deep with in
my burdens were mine no one would find
sinking fast from the weight of sorrow
i couldnt continue to put on or borrow
taking those pills i thought i was clear
but lost sight of those whom i find dear
under i was no need to bost
till i was reminded what mattered most
the love of my children came shining in
sank down inside deep with in!
Zoeycup16.
He took away something I could never get back
The innocence of a child now self esteem is what I lack
I was only 7 or 8 how was I supposed to know?
I never knew someone could do something so low
Thinking back on it now I wondered why did I let him touch me
Was "no" and kicking not enough to get him off me?
I told him "no," mom I told him "no" like you always taught me
Why didn't he stop mom? I said "NO!" Why couldn't he let me be?
To him I was just a stumpy still tree
He took away something deep
My mind, some nights I couldn't sleep
But I'm stronger now and more confident in myself
I won't let this guy take my stress or my health
I've never told anyone this and I probably never will
Part of me feels guilty, maybe if I had it would of stopped the chills
But now I'm 21 and I'm starting to see
That NOT everything was taken away from me
I REFUSE to let this man take anymore from me
The innocence of a child is ALL it will ever be.
I am still a Virgin, something I hold on to with all my heart
I plan to be, till the day I walk down the isle with my future sweetheart
People wonder why I don't like being touched?
They call me prude and judge but I don't nudge
The simplest thing, like holding hands I couldn't even do
And that's all yes, yes because of YOU!
No one knows or truly understands
Why I would never take anyone hand in hand
People say I come off strong and confident, in my head I say "if you only knew"
That it was all a facade behind something SO TRUE
But now I can finally say that this facade has turned to truth
I'm starting to leave everything that happened in my youth.
Someone once told me, "never regret, if it's good, it's wonderful, if it's bad, it's an experience."
So I'm taking that as a bet
I'm starting to face my past without regret
Because if it didn't happen I wouldn't have worked up the courage to be up here
Speaking with words that are so sincere.
Richard Bach once said "what the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly"
My translation is that I'm transitioning to a new beginning and moving on from the past
Its not the end but a new beginning at last
I like to end things on a good note
So here is one of my favorite quotes
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
My heart is a prisoner tortured by the silence, distance.
If it weren’t mute from torching his tongue,
you would hear a scream that couldn’t be forgotten.
A touch, a glance is all it needs to crack these nightmares that cage him.
But returns, the darkness, the hole that spans eternity but felt in this instant…
Piercing me, It has consumed me.
The limping heart wrenched beyond impair
from your distance and my thoughts screaming within...
The pain extends it's bloody hand holding the tears from flooding the land.
Be consoled little hand, for you have inspired my greatest works...
and soon it will spill and genius will fill the end.