Taken-Away



He took away something I could never get back

The innocence of a child now self esteem is what I lack

I was only 7 or 8 how was I supposed to know?

I never knew someone could do something so low

Thinking back on it now I wondered why did I let him touch me

Was "no" and kicking not enough to get him off me?

I told him "no," mom I told him "no" like you always taught me 

Why didn't he stop mom? I said "NO!" Why couldn't he let me be?

To him I was just a stumpy still tree 

He took away something deep

My mind, some nights I couldn't sleep

But I'm stronger now and more confident in myself

I won't let this guy take my stress or my health

I've never told anyone this and I probably never will

Part of me feels guilty, maybe if I had it would of stopped the chills

But now I'm 21 and I'm starting to see

That NOT everything was taken away from me

I REFUSE to let this man take anymore from me

The innocence of a child is ALL it will ever be.

I am still a Virgin, something I hold on to with all my heart

I plan to be, till the day I walk down the isle with my future sweetheart 

People wonder why I don't like being touched?

They call me prude and judge but I don't nudge

The simplest thing, like holding hands I couldn't even do

And that's all yes, yes because of YOU!

No one knows or truly understands

Why I would never take anyone hand in hand 

People say I come off strong and confident, in my head I say "if you only knew" 

That it was all a facade behind something SO TRUE 

But now I can finally say that this facade has turned to truth

I'm starting to leave everything that happened in my youth.

Someone once told me, "never regret, if it's good, it's wonderful, if it's bad, it's an experience."

So I'm taking that as a bet

I'm starting to face my past without regret 

Because if it didn't happen I wouldn't have worked up the courage to be up here

Speaking with words that are so sincere.

Richard Bach once said "what the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly" 

My translation is that I'm transitioning to a new beginning and moving on from the past 

Its not the end but a new beginning at last

I like to end things on a good note

So here is one of my favorite quotes 

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I've never had anyone read any of my poems before, this is my first one that I have posted, let me know what you think! This is a poem about me and it is all true.

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MilMan's picture

Taken Away

Very Beautifully Done. Don't give in. Don't give up. There's a reason for you and a lot will get there encouragement from you.

To not stay in pain but come out and start the healing prosesses. GOD BLESS.  *MilMan*  Cool

darkprince1331's picture

Strong words can only come

Strong words can only come from a strong soul I am thankful you can release your pain through ink and not another source you are an inspiration to some one on here and they well each thank you in your own way I say thank you and welcome to the sight

OWL3119's picture

.....

This doesnt happen to me often, but im speechless...

 

Im in awe of your strength and courage!

I dont know how you do it.

you are an inspiration to us all.

this is one of the best poems i have read in a long time.   

Poetic_Justice's picture

brave words

The things that are the most difficult to express are usually the pandora's box to an artist's creativity. For that being your first public piece of work you are on the right path. Embracing your pain and fears is something that writers thrive on. Your poem had good structure and depth.  I will be looking forward to reading more of your work. 

Sincerely- Poetic_Justice

9inety's picture

your strength and talents

are evident, and your heartfelt words are moving, you young poet will achieve anything that you truly commit too. I am impressed with your ability to face such adversity. Keep writing from the heart. It can be cathartic to some degree, it is not a sure fire panacea, but it is a creation that is owned by you and no one else.

Peace

Dylan


"One of the best results of life, is the torment of love"

Dylan Eliot