Dragon scale gown
By jfarrell
Dazzling…
Eyes blind - everywhere you look
Seared golden brand
Reality, a fog on the edges.
Shut your eyes,
The burning, golden scar of light
You still see;
Open eyes; reality still a dense fog, on the edge.
Light, stars, madness, pain, joy;
I don’t know how;
My dragon gave to me a cloak…
Woven from her scales.
When you look at me, I don’t know what you see;
I can’t see me anymore;
I see a smartly dressed waiter, bartender, food dispenser;
Not a mass murderer… gimme a machine gun!!! PLEASE!!!!
Light, so beautiful, you have to praise god;
Dark so powerful, you have to hope there’s a devil;
OMFG!!!! my dragon is so beautiful! More real!!!!
…. but I KNOW your’s are more beautiful, and breathtakingly stunning…
Please, SHOW ME!
Nevers
By jfarrell
25th floor of a building in central London, with big windows;
I’d never seen London at night, all lights;
Was beautiful; first time I actually appreciated what London could be;
Until last night, I’d never been that high up and seen London.
I’d never been to Wembley, never been to Lord’s Cricket Ground;
Never got a roomful of important people drunk on entry;
“Champagne, sir or madam?”
I’d never served coffee to a room of professors.
Until my present employer, Berkeley Scott (BIG thank you, amazing);
I’d never experienced a road, a street…
The walk there takes five minutes..
After work, that same walk takes an hour or more.
Before BKS (Berkeley Scott)….
I’d never walked anywhere,
As part of a sea, an arrow, a swarm of people;
40, 000 people, all headed for the same tube station.
I’m nearly 50, these last 6 months seen a lot of nevers happening;
Nearly 50; never had family or kids or meaningful relationship;
BKS helping me destroy a lot of nevers;
Maybe, even this late in the race, some nevers can still be changed.
I don’t want my future (what’s left),
Just OK, managing;
I’d like my future to be good, worth the effort;
Maybe another never can be destroyed.
What Christmas really means
Christmas used to mean something but that didn't really last
People now a days have forgotten it's true meaning and quite fast
Christmas isn't about presents, food, or even fancy scenes
One special gift lying in a manger that's what Christmas really means
It isn't about how many things you can get under the tree
Or that perfect ham that youve been glazing I hope you will agree
Christmas means so much more then those decorated evergreens
It means there's Hope for all the world cuz that's what Christmas really means
And when Jesus came to us that night even though he was quite small
It means that for us to go to in heaven he had to make that Call
Christmas means a while lot more then most people know or so it seams
So remember on this joyous day what Christmas really means
Zoey cup
A White paper flower for your paper crane
one drawn from the ground the other raised to the sky
Brighter than the snow
Liighter than the air
Hope floats
As hope grows
Message from beyond
The crane and the flower still exist
In memory and thought
But most of all ieternally in spirit.
Pictures in the windows
A nod from the stars
Paper flowers smile up
At paper cranes
Sleep continues eluding me
while thoughts of you keep pursuing,
stopping my dreams from unfolding
& knowing dawn comes early,
it wakes me to reality
knowing there will never be
what could've been, what might've been,
& so I'm waiting, while pursuing
a kind of on-hold aching peace
filled with lingering remembering
wondering if you, too
are ever sleepless
thinking about me................................
Sleep calls to me,
but my heart is just not listening,
as the overflow
keeps gently falling
like autumn rain
on gardens still growing
though summer's come & gone already,
with winter's soon arrival coming,
when the seed will finally fall & die
when you're no longer in my life
but in the one to come, & finally
home will be reality
as it always felt yet never could be
between us, as it was meant to be.....................
I love you more than I've let free,
it remains hidden within the depths of me,
as I let you go you're still in all I see,
but I know I must just let you be
while reaching yet withdrawing, all in disguise,
it's expressing from my eyes & with my sighs,
yet words are never spoken freely,
truths are hidden, although I see
this love will never go away
until we do, & that's ok,
love never ends,
til we go home...
...I'll endure loving while alone...................
Sleep's the escape
I need to find,
I cannot get you off my mind,
but I know I must crucify
what's refusing to depart or die,
so exhausted though I am right now
I will lay all this down somehow
& let His Spirit minister to my heart
that {even with His peace} is still torn apart,
only He knows the secrets within,
only He understands my secret sin,
only He can help me understand
what is & isn't in His plan,
so sleep, come find me, bring release
from words that circle, searching for peace.
*~*~*~*~*
~ Anastazia Rowe ~
Oct. 30th, 4 am, 2017.
Sitting on a hill
Looking at pictures and thinkin
Wondering if she’ll want to still
Is the price quite right I’m wondrin
Apartments, studios, 1 room basements
Bed, couch, microwave, toaster
Thinking of putting our names on the lease statement
Could we do it I wonder?
Her head on the pillow next to mine
Waking in the morning for eggs and bacon
Taking a shower till both our skins shine
It’s with this idea I’m taken
Could we do it?
Could it really work?
On our own couch could we sit?
I think, living with her? A nice apartments just a perk
I always wanted a happy home
With someone perfect and loving
And not ever be alone
Now wouldn’t that be something
I love her to pieces
Staying home in Friday nights
Watching dumb movies and feeding her pizza and Reese’s
God, wouldn’t that feel right
I want to rent this room
Spend so much time with her, in our little home
God, can we do this soon?
Cause I can’t imagine doing it alone
So come with me
And rent this dinky little place
Spend some time with me
So much potential in this tiny space
Life is bigger
By jfarrell
(inspired by REM’s “losing my religion”)
Life is bigger than me.
Bigger than everything I am;
My hopes, dreams, hurts, pains, disappointments…
Whether I die tonight, or fifty years from now….
Life, the World, and everything in it will continue….
Life is bigger than me.
And, yet, somehow,
Whether I die tonight or many years from now….
My life has been as important as that ant you just crushed,
Or that dandelion, blown away on the breeze;
Every happening has a cause and a consequence;
However insignificant, I made a difference.
You must realise, life is bigger than you;
I have no children, no legacy, nothing invested;
Most of you do.
At nearly 50, I hope whatever I’m here for I’ve done;
I just wanna go,
There’s no point for me.
But there is a point for you - ALL OF YOU!
Your children must inherit a better world;
They’re your children,
Not mine.
I realise life is bigger than me, and I’ve done my part;
Life is bigger than you, realise that.
https://soundcloud.com/mario-vitale-585774765/society
Society Like a cold clap in the dark you lit a spark of what I was waiting for You hide behind the false hidden garb of compromise can't you see the lies Having long hanging viscious fangs to frighten each other A line is being drawn in the sand when will we understand The pusher on the street knows to well the score is in sight All of the money is tight waving empty beer can to cash them in A solo of sorts to summon the eager minds that plug destruction To get food stamps & disability insurance in you pocket Burning flags in the presence of the socially elite doomed to repeat A challenge to be set free is a question of time my one solution is using mind We work in the factory laboring for that legal tender While pulling out of the grocery store you get a busted fender One needs a heart saturated with truth to stand the test of time Standing in line at the D.M.V. kind of bothers me We as a society have treasured a rose that was sent before us Send the troops home there is no good reason for them to roam The casualties are enormous for a stated cause that's plain atrocious Merciful one come take this chip off my shoulder stop the senseless fighting Yet are nation grows a bit colder from all the anxiety from within Another chance a which to begin again stop the riots in the street With abortion as a plan when will we be able to understand A fetus is a living breathing human being inside not some instant jello Society is filled with people that hate that is their lasting fate Become a beacon of hope to a lost world in need of love This true expression of faith is sent to us from only God above