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It's Always Been You
It's you
It's always been you
Stealing my dreams
Keeping me from sleep
Late at night when I am in bed
You are always in my head
Telling me I cannot do anything
Then asking me why I'm so lazy
You reach your arms out
As if to embrace me
Just to shove me down again
"Go back to sleep"
Curling up by my side
Fingers tangled in my hair
Whispering softly in my ear
"You should just die"
Tears trickle down my face
"Don't be a victim" you say
Your fingers tighen their grip
Digging your fingers in
You pull me up onto my feet
I'm hanging by the strands of my hair
Tossing me across the room
You spit venom into my face once more
"What are you even fighting for"?
Shaking, I struggle to stand
Your face turns into a crooked glare
My gaze shifts slightly towards the door
Laughing hysterically you begin to mock
"You really want to go out there"?
"You cannot run from ME"
"Wherever you go that is where I will be"
"So leave then, if you think you can handle it"
"Go on, go pretend that you matter"
My knees collapse as I crumple onto the floor
Hands on my face I begin to scream
You soften your tone and lean in close
"There there child it's okay"
"It's time you listen to what I've said"
"Those people out there are better off with you gone"
"How could they possibly love YOU after all"?
My lips tremble as I look into your eyes
I know that you are right
A smile creeps onto your face
Arms open wide again
I lean my head against your chest
As you dig your fingers into that place on my head
"You know what needs to be done"
I begin to protest but can only shake
Chuckling softly you tighten your grip
"You're much too weak but its okay"
"For now just go back to bed"
The tears fall until I'm overcome by sleep
"Baby"
It's you
It's always been you
Every day I wake up
And every day you are there
I push and pull away from your grasp
But you only tighten your hands
Fight
I must continue to fight
To push forward
To move
No matter how deep your claws dig in
I'll continue to rip them from my skin
