We sit under a tree of sugar coated apples
Landing melted kisses fresh from the rapper
As I attempt to suck the maple abstracts from your upper lip
Biting the Bitter bottom
Then proceed to provide knowledge upon your private properties
Not to get to ahead of my verbs as you provide ad libs to our interactions
I'm Addicted to the misk of our attractions
Even a fraction of the attention you pay me,I can't afford
Drowning in the vocals of your cords
An assistant to the instance of were bored
And enjoying every moment
But dying at the thought of the fall from this tree as one of your life's disappointments
This view of you in my mind-is
Nothing minis for what in actuality I see of you
Hoping the feelings appealing and residual
Because those lips are a glimpse of the afterlife
the centerfold of these feelings we hold are unripe
And ready to unfold as we become something
And these Candy coated feelings dangle Dangerously
As we sit underneath this tree waiting helplessly
For a taste of the Bitter sweets
-don't hold it against me
Someday, sweet surrender
You'll have me by your means
Will you take me softly?
Will you make me scream?
Someday, sweet surrender
Your laugh will be the last
Upon my deafening ears, linger
I'm falling to your grasp
Someday, sweet surrender
My memories will surface, tenfold
Hushing my mind to silence
A lonely descent into the cold
Someday, sweet surrender
The fireflies will fly, high
Above, below, around me
Ashes dance upon the sky
No longer should you have to bare witness of the emotional scars
no longer shall you be overbared with mental scars
and no longer shall you be in pain.
You no longer have to cry
you no longer have to scream or shout
you no longer have to be alone
for I am here for you.
You are no longer alone suffering from this unavoidable pain
you are no longer weak you are much stronger than before
No longer you bare the inflicted scars.
Last night you said you couldn't
Take it anymore.
Last night you said that
You wanted to die.
Last night I held you
In my arms.
Last night I watched
While you cried.
I went to sleep with you
On my mind.
I went to sleep with worries
Not far behind.
I went to sleep and dreampt
About us.
I went to sleep in hopes
You'd be fine.
Today I looked into your eyes
And felt relieved.
Today I hope it all goes better
Inside your head.
Today I want so badly
To hear you laugh.
Today I know exactly
The reason we are wed.
God made you for me
And I for you.
God had a plan figured out
The day we met.
God is always watching out
For you and I.
God wants us to be happy
Don't ever forget.
Brandy Noelle Souza
July 3rd, 2013
You put your glasses on
Without a makeup on
You looked very pretty
Made my mind filled with sin
When you whined about your crush
Disappearing was my blush
It's like this everyday
Words always replicate
I wanted to love you
But you would never see
I thought you always knew
But all you saw was him
Days passed we never spoke
I told myself you might change
I watched you and him go
You were with him night and day
He told you to go away
You cried to me the next day
You said you'd forget him
But now you came running
Girl, put your glasses though
They're useless anyway
At least they'd hide the pain
Well, everybody knows
he asked for my soul,
i handed it over; no doubts, no hesitation, no fears;
he asked for my lust,
i gave him all i had then he left and i got more;
he gave me his seed,
i'm trying to use it to fill a hole inside of me;
he gave me his love,
i took it and screamed at him it's not enough;
now we've reached reality,
the ecstatic mood has been broken;
an awkwardness has engulfed our every interaction,
my rational thoughts are flooding back to me;
the bell can not be unrung,
his hazel eyes have seen me crazy;
now there's secrets and lies,
i feel dirty, ashamed and unworthy;
he can't forget what his absence bore,
and i can't escape who i am when i'm not his whore;
time draws us closer to the bitter end,
love can't mend shredded dreams;
i stumbled over the ghost's of lovers past,
he boiled and now he simmers over it in his mind;
i snuck across a digital line,
my friend my fault and i agree;
i'm my own worst enemy and my own best friend;
i keep hope alive on caffeine and pizza,
he works himself into a numb living death;
i'll bury us under a million dandelions,
our love will never be gone;
we will forever float in the wind,
the seeds of us planting where ever they land!
I was so close to being over you
Then what do you go and do?
You sat there and talked to me
I said nothing, how embarrassing that can be.
My heart is beating out of my chest
I wish that it would take a rest
My hands are shaking too
I'm not quite sure what to do.
This moment seems to be bittersweet
I wish i could say it was just a treat
Now i'm back to square one
All my hard work has been undone
For now my heart belongs to him
even though the result is dim
Hopefully soon i will be free
Then you'll have no effect on me.
The sun is low on the
horizon, leaving the
clouds crimson.
The sky is so beautiful
to me now. I mean I
really love it.
I am all alone except
for this wonderful sky
with its clouds of glowing
fire.
Night would never come if
I could stay in this moment
forever.
People told me that you're finally out there, dating.
I smiled and said, "Yes I know, but you're still wearing our ring!"
See, they're always intrigued by our unconventional 'highs and lows'
But the 'why and the how' we ended like this, they'll never know.
Scars and wounds, I would proudly bear remembering
How I remain true to what was written in that ring.
The fears that I've conquered- for a moment with you.
Beyond words, you've seen what this happy heart can do.
So....people told me that you were out late and dating.
They were puzzled as I gave them my cheekiest grin,
Cause after all that you've said and done I've seen...
That you're still wearing our ring.