I can’t… But, Why?
By jfarrell
I can’t…
I haven’t prepared…
What if….
I could give a million reasons.
I can’t bare the humiliation.
A broken leg may hurt,
But… SNAP!
It’s over
Humiliation is barbed wire through the heart
Relived everytime you sleep
Re-experienced everytime you close your eyes
Always there
I can’t ask out a woman because the ‘No’
Is like using a boxcutter on my heart
For everyone to see
For everyone to laugh…. forever
Over and over I would relive that humiliation
I couldn’t help myself
And, that’s why
I can’t
The worm that turned
By jfarrell
(thank you to The Two Ronnies, “The Worm that Turned” was one of the funniest stories ever)
I am a worm
A “man” according to my dangly bits
My dad tried to beat being a man into me
If he was to be my example
It basically meant hitting women and anyone half my height
Other than the occasional fly nuked to goo with fly spray
I don’t hit anyone
Hurt me, I’ll go home, cry and hurt myself more
Yeah, big man, right?
Worm
Please turn
Stop hurting yourself when others hurt you
Please, turn,
Hurt them back
Stop being a worm, be a man
Please, soon
This worm must turn
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Part I of II
This is the story of Larry Joe Prince
And the way Arizona stole his innocence.
It is written with hope that there may come a day
When a wise judge will grant him his moment to say
All the things so conveniently left out of court,
Made American “justice” look more like a sport,
With a high-priced attorney that didn’t think clear,
And the false testimony of one with much fear,
And the state prosecute thought “I’ll surely reach fame”,
He said, “Hell, I don’t care who the state wants to blame,
It’s a paycheck to me; I don’t care about truths,
It’s my ego I feed, I’m a low lying sleuth!!”
So they all drew their “guns” on that guy Mr. Prince,
Absolutely no shred of secure evidence,
They proceeded to send him to death row to sit,
For the murder of one that he did not commit,
And the biggest and worst sin of all that was done,
Was the way that the people held on to their “guns”,
They embraced all the lies to evade what was clear,
As revenge prevailed justice with each little tear,
And for those in the grave who just watch from above,
With no longer a voice to teach them that real love,
Is not proven by putting the blame on a man,
Just because he is there….cause the courts and you can,
See the proof of one’s love speaks out so very clear,
Even after the grave when one’s body’s not here,
You will hear their soul cry, and you’ll then know for sure,
If they’re resting in peace or they’re haunted some more.
There are families that hide from life’s reality,
The dead man in this case begs you hear his soul’s plea,
Make amends for the errors you’ve made in the past,
And put down all those stones, and those already cast,
If this dead man could speak he’d have something to say,
Of the circus that ran through the courtroom that day,
And if not for the dead man then do it for you,
Cause we all have to answer to God what is true,
Larry Prince knows he’s clear and he wins either way,
Cause he’s INNOCENT judge, the state’s in disarray.
So please read all with care on this day we implore,
Please don’t look at this life as a game where you score,
It’s integrity that is of stake in this court,
And it’s not mine or yours it’s this country’s that’s short
Of a quality no longer active today,
If it dies, it’s the lives of our loved one’s…they’ll pay.
Take your time, read it all, and be true to your heart,
And we’ll all pray it’s not too late for a new start.
Part II of II
They all loved cocaine but they hid it from Dad,
He just couldn’t believe that his kids could be “bad”,
So his eyes he did close, and they stayed tightly shut,
While his best offspring died with that stuff in his gut,
And they said, “It was murder”, and placed the blame there,
Yes, it’s true ‘bout that bullet and blood in his hair,
And the roots of that crime have been hidden so well,
By the real guilty ones with the lies they did tell,
For those self-righteous ones that just stared and stood by,
And condoned this deceit without batting an eye,
For the cowards that watched as the killers went free,
Be aware this could happen to you or to me,
And your sons or your daughters could one day be led
To a place where they wish they would rather be dead,
So now don’t be afraid to let truths in your ears
When your children are hurting with eyes full of tears,
Don’t you cower or shudder, don’t whine and don’t wince,
And remember the story of Larry Joe Prince.
Written in parts, from 2000-2002
Original Copyright 2002
Registration Number / Date:
TXu001112792 / 2002-12-02
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07/21/13 ©
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when all confidence has left you,
and you feel bereft of love,
forsaken by those who claimed they cared,
that's when i'll fit you like a glove.
i'll wait behind your neediness,
and use arrogance, he's my friend,
i'll have you projecting all of me
onto children, women, and men.
that's when i do my finest work,
and all of me i'll bring,
when others up and leave you,
i'll infect you, and do my thing.
my presence will be cunning,
my manipulation sly,
i'll have you wrapped around me,
you won't even ask yourself why.
the more of you i can consume,
the larger we become,
to contaminate all is what i want,
'cause YOUR pain, to me, is FUN!
a fiendish scowling wimp, you see,
a psychopath, my dear,
enjoying all your suffering,
your kidnapper...i'm fear.
10:07 AM 6/22/2013 ©
fear is the king
of a coward's delight,
fear rules illusions
that cloud all fools' sight,
fear wants compliance
adoration and praise,
fear becomes arrogance
when you challenge his gaze,
turning the tables around
can be bliss,
when I make friends with fear
his intentions I twist,
fear uses everyone
and makes them his slaves,
fear turns the souls
of some dead in their graves,
fear teases weaknesses
of youth and of old,
fear changes hearts of warmth
into stone cold,
fear is the god
that brings glory to killing,
fear is the god
that makes the spineless willing,
motivation of many is controlled by fear,
due to principles twisted,
and virtues unclear,
many will use fear,
unwilling to see,
their fears are controlling them
clear as can be,
if ever you see one who
worries too much,
believe it is fear that is
gaining their trust,
fear is a mirror
when we've lost our way,
that tells us "forget love, honey...
I'm your hero...please stay?"
misguided people fall into fear's rut,
they slip and fall in,
losing touch with their gut,
banish your worries
and live in the now,
To strongarm your fears,
honeybun, this is how!!
6:57 PM 6/19/2013 ©