I wished into the night.
I wished you would come back.
I’m still sorry, you’re still beautiful.
I wished into my glass of liquid happiness.
I wished you’d come back.
I picked our song on the jukebox.
I wished I was sober as my happiness forced it’s way onto my bathroom floor.
I wished I could go to sleep.
Spinning around in the mess of another night without you.
I wished I was in bed when you woke me on the cold tile floor.
I wished the smell of Rum and Labatts would leave my apartment.
You rubbed my back and told me everything would be fine.
I wished you were her and not my friend Colin.
I wished you could have thought of something different to cheer me up.
Three year relationship gone and one boys night out won’t help.
But its worth another try.
She's in her lonesome unity,
Then the feeling looms just like a tree.
Look in her mind; it says "listen to me"
"They're so much better than I'll ever be
They're so much better than I'll ever be
They're five times better than I'll ever be."
The two of you, you look so free.
You're everything that I wanna be.
Look in her eyes and then you'll see;
"You're so much better than I'll ever be
You're so much better than I'll ever be
You're five times better than I'll ever be."
She wants your love, not your pity.
She'd balance her laptop on her knee.
She's sure she's thinking foolishly;
"You're five times better than I'll ever be
You're five times better than I'll ever be
You're so much better than I'll ever be."
She uses up her mind and draws it.
She thinks it is her only asset.
Her value is what she'll produce;
Without her skills, she is no use,
And lacking words, she is no use.
She's suffered but her mind's abuse.
She wants to see the light,
But she gives up before the fight.
Collapsed within its irony,
(Her states swim alternatingly)
So that she really does believe
You're so much better than she'll ever be
You're so much better than she'll ever be
You're so much better than she'll ever be.
I always wish I had a very dull life
I think anyone else would
When things are not right
All of it drawn on your face
That has become shallow and tight
Mostly your eyes staring at space
Becoming black holes of the night
Darkness in their eyes shows
How hollow they are
No one cares, anyone knows
Everyone has gone too far
And all you really would want
Is some sleep tonight
And for once feel your life
Is not always a race
I would believe anyone
Would want a much easier simpler life
Things it always seems, even your dreams
Just are not right
And I know I am not the only one
Wishing for a better life
So I won’t ever be angry
And the only person I hurt
Will be myself again tonight
He was born in a rodent-infested hut, amid the broken screams of an abused woman and the furious shouts of a drunken man; those sounds never faded.
He had been there all his life.
He watched the generations pass by; he lived his life in each stage, under the watchful eyes of the same spirits that have always lurked there.
He is unwelcome-he interferes in the dull monotony of their lives
But he doesn’t, really-he never ventures into their existence-
Never shatters their perfect routine,
He merely peeps in from a distance, like a tourist at a zoo.
As the house burned, bright orange and red flames licking the night sky,
A boy of eight watched, a gash running down the side of his head.
That is a scar he will forever have to bear.
Holding that candle to the drapes and then quietly walking out, he wouldn’t regret
He was a murderer.
He walked out of what they called the kids’ dungeon, his gash now a pink scar,
Jagged and crooked, adorning the side of his face.
As other boys threw insults at him, he stole a brown hat with a large brim.
His painfully ordinary hat hides his cold eyes, as they observe and calculate
He is tall, but he slouches; his trusty cane always clenched tight between his white knuckles;
Some people make us instantly warm up to them, some make us shiver uncomfortably.
He is the latter.
He watched with pained eyes as his wife walked away.
The little boy on her shoulder reached back for him, crying too much to be coherent.
The people glared at him cruelly, telling him he was his own father.
He learned to shut his eyes and ears.
He is there, seemingly everywhere at once, as soon as the smiling sun makes his way up the sky;
He watches carefully as the village crawls to life,
The small shacks opening their worn down, unpolished doors, as curious, wary heads peek out at him,
Each of them turning away as he turns in their direction.
He watched in the mirror as his once youthful face grew old, like creases on thin paper;
He looked out of his window. An old lady smiled at him with sympathy.
She was the only one who had done that in a long time.
They talk about him-the women gossip during knitting sessions,
And the men make crude jokes about him as they labour in the fields.
Happy new parents warn their children fearfully, to steer clear of his mysterious figure.
That is why they scuttle away when he watches them-the same way he does everyone else.
He stared at the official document.
The old lady had died.
She left him her life’s savings.
They do not know how he survives-how he makes his living,
How he gets his food and drink,
Or is he some strange entity that does not require any mortal means of survival?
They do not know, yet, or maybe “thus”, he is the story young boys tell around the campfire,
As they shine torchlight in their faces, making sound effects to ensure their friends will wake up screaming in the still, quiet dead of night.
He signed at the bottom of the page;
He hoped someone would find it.
He gave his house and property to his son.
When his spirit fades away like morning stars, in the middle of December, his bed as cold as his eyes once were,
No one knows.
His body rots, as the family of rats, who call his house their home,
Eagerly feast on the pale carcass.
Things come full circle.
Clocks slow to a crawl time creeps it's deceit
Some days lack ambition no spring in my seat
Pounding heart sure to cave won't endure it's fatigued
Need mighty endowment strength stability proceed
This pen hits the paper racing heart slowly calms
I believe in my words the sweat dries from my palms
Trembling hands quieten be sturdy as steel
I take a deep breath... Now to enjoy how I feel
Shane Aaron
Dec 7 2013
Another dagger.
What number now?
Knives, not steel but ice
spreading slow venom
that numbs-- almost.
It leaves lingering pain
followed by eventual,
cold death of my heart.
I waked up,
In the mirror I had my closeup.
There was a hole in my throat,
Fastly I slipped into my coat.
I went to the hospital,
I was worried I recall.
I gave the fault to Abra,
Who was able to the macabre.
when all confidence has left you,
and you feel bereft of love,
forsaken by those who claimed they cared,
that's when i'll fit you like a glove.
i'll wait behind your neediness,
and use arrogance, he's my friend,
i'll have you projecting all of me
onto children, women, and men.
that's when i do my finest work,
and all of me i'll bring,
when others up and leave you,
i'll infect you, and do my thing.
my presence will be cunning,
my manipulation sly,
i'll have you wrapped around me,
you won't even ask yourself why.
the more of you i can consume,
the larger we become,
to contaminate all is what i want,
'cause YOUR pain, to me, is FUN!
a fiendish scowling wimp, you see,
a psychopath, my dear,
enjoying all your suffering,
your kidnapper...i'm fear.
10:07 AM 6/22/2013 ©
fear is the king
of a coward's delight,
fear rules illusions
that cloud all fools' sight,
fear wants compliance
adoration and praise,
fear becomes arrogance
when you challenge his gaze,
turning the tables around
can be bliss,
when I make friends with fear
his intentions I twist,
fear uses everyone
and makes them his slaves,
fear turns the souls
of some dead in their graves,
fear teases weaknesses
of youth and of old,
fear changes hearts of warmth
into stone cold,
fear is the god
that brings glory to killing,
fear is the god
that makes the spineless willing,
motivation of many is controlled by fear,
due to principles twisted,
and virtues unclear,
many will use fear,
unwilling to see,
their fears are controlling them
clear as can be,
if ever you see one who
worries too much,
believe it is fear that is
gaining their trust,
fear is a mirror
when we've lost our way,
that tells us "forget love, honey...
I'm your hero...please stay?"
misguided people fall into fear's rut,
they slip and fall in,
losing touch with their gut,
banish your worries
and live in the now,
To strongarm your fears,
honeybun, this is how!!
6:57 PM 6/19/2013 ©