You shift up, you shift down
Once were you there,
Now hither you are
Slow moving over time,
Moving fast in instances
The dread falls upon
Everyone you knew
Then your still,
And everything you threw
Is but real
But the delight,
Brings you back to light
And then again,
You shift up, you shift down
Clocks slow to a crawl time creeps it's deceit
Some days lack ambition no spring in my seat
Pounding heart sure to cave won't endure it's fatigued
Need mighty endowment strength stability proceed
This pen hits the paper racing heart slowly calms
I believe in my words the sweat dries from my palms
Trembling hands quieten be sturdy as steel
I take a deep breath... Now to enjoy how I feel
Shane Aaron
Dec 7 2013
comfortably nestled in between two rocks
above the stillness overlooking the small village
flattened black tar rooftops
steep cobblestone paved streets
winding around the southern tip of the mountain
a bicycle ride away
too far to touch the bitter memories
my gaze is locked into a numbing trance
time stands still
12:49 AM 7/6/2013 ©
...........
when all confidence has left you,
and you feel bereft of love,
forsaken by those who claimed they cared,
that's when i'll fit you like a glove.
i'll wait behind your neediness,
and use arrogance, he's my friend,
i'll have you projecting all of me
onto children, women, and men.
that's when i do my finest work,
and all of me i'll bring,
when others up and leave you,
i'll infect you, and do my thing.
my presence will be cunning,
my manipulation sly,
i'll have you wrapped around me,
you won't even ask yourself why.
the more of you i can consume,
the larger we become,
to contaminate all is what i want,
'cause YOUR pain, to me, is FUN!
a fiendish scowling wimp, you see,
a psychopath, my dear,
enjoying all your suffering,
your kidnapper...i'm fear.
10:07 AM 6/22/2013 ©
fear is the king
of a coward's delight,
fear rules illusions
that cloud all fools' sight,
fear wants compliance
adoration and praise,
fear becomes arrogance
when you challenge his gaze,
turning the tables around
can be bliss,
when I make friends with fear
his intentions I twist,
fear uses everyone
and makes them his slaves,
fear turns the souls
of some dead in their graves,
fear teases weaknesses
of youth and of old,
fear changes hearts of warmth
into stone cold,
fear is the god
that brings glory to killing,
fear is the god
that makes the spineless willing,
motivation of many is controlled by fear,
due to principles twisted,
and virtues unclear,
many will use fear,
unwilling to see,
their fears are controlling them
clear as can be,
if ever you see one who
worries too much,
believe it is fear that is
gaining their trust,
fear is a mirror
when we've lost our way,
that tells us "forget love, honey...
I'm your hero...please stay?"
misguided people fall into fear's rut,
they slip and fall in,
losing touch with their gut,
banish your worries
and live in the now,
To strongarm your fears,
honeybun, this is how!!
6:57 PM 6/19/2013 ©
Waiting.
That machine in front of me carries possibilities. In a morning filled
with dread and desperation, it puts for a silent hope. Yet who is there
on the other end that not only can but will answer? My chosen I cannot
reach. Even so, she is too far away to come.
I wait.
And as I wait, the turmoil and terror builds within, searching for a
breach in my defenses, ready to come broiling through at the slightest
weakness.
Searching.
Through dirty, darkened goggles I seach for a name, a number, a hope,
for there lies in another room an answer that will suffice.
I reach.
And in reaching a spill is made and the emptiness of pain splatters a
scattering of its drops on my face, easing the tightened rein I have
enforced. With shaking hands and contorted face I dial numbers that
are dear to me. Will my friend be there? Will they, too, reject my plea
for help? As the ringing stops my hnd lowers, cutting off the light of
hope it represents.
Summer used to e a word i loved to hear
But that all changed this past year.
Now it's a word that i dread
Just the thought leaves me feeling dead.
I'm taken back to a time
Where everything seemed to shine.
But that shine soon disappeared
Leaving me with many tears.
We did many things that i regret
We did nothing i'll be able to forget
My life will never be the same
I can't believe how much things have changed
Being around him has become unbearable
Everyday i feel more terrible
For some reason he has become so mean
He's starting to torture me
All old emotions have become a waste
Since only hate has filled its place
My heart now feels empty and cold
At least my heart he does not hold.