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I have been lost for awhile.  My family lost someone today.  I am doing well with it, but I needed to share.

I am an EMT and a firefighter.  I have spent my whole adult life trying to help others.  To stop pain and Death and to save life and joy.

I have been there for too many deaths.  I have seen too much pain.  It is a burden on my soul and a weight on my heart.

I try to sink the pain deep inside of me, but it has power and time and can find a crack to come out again and again.

I do not know how to stop it from pushing out from the inside. Maybe if I push it to the outside it will have more trouble coming back in.

Maybe

-bt

My grandma died from cancer and after us all taking care of her for so long, it's hard to recover from the loss. I've been writing to cope. 

It's all relative... 

Pother ideas to add amoebas clawing fingerlike projections calling pain into existence drawing attention like a virus... Etc... 

we all wear masks.. painted on with loving grace.. in the shape of fangs that hide our tears

Really, i was just thinking of a bad break up. God, it's bad :S

Oct. 2012.