I have been lost for awhile. My family lost someone today. I am doing well with it, but I needed to share.
I am an EMT and a firefighter. I have spent my whole adult life trying to help others. To stop pain and Death and to save life and joy.
I have been there for too many deaths. I have seen too much pain. It is a burden on my soul and a weight on my heart.
I try to sink the pain deep inside of me, but it has power and time and can find a crack to come out again and again.
I do not know how to stop it from pushing out from the inside. Maybe if I push it to the outside it will have more trouble coming back in.
Maybe
-bt
