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exhaustion surrounds
permeating her auric feild
like a blanket of thick smoke
retiring into the darkness of night
it is her solace and place of quietude
undaunted by earthly storms
the raging fires of voicy havoc
raucous misunderstandings
petty misgivings that cloud the path to clarity
slowly and calmly anesthetized
by the rise and fall of her chest
the inspiration of her breath
far into the depths of unconscious planes
dreaming of spatial incongruencies
distorted views of the day's events
slip into a place where they make more sense
awakened by a sound
a child weeping
baby soft skin broken by the remnants
of an ogre's shame and anguish
after dropping bombs on innocent women and children
abandoned by an angel of forgiveness
left in the scourge of suffering
accompanied by his own flesh and blood babies
one man's desperation
the cold war has been resurrected
a house of horrors comes alive
it is up to each one to survive
raw emotion pierces a hole
gnawing like lightning through the night
into the core of her soul
awakening with cries
but after 35 years
she is finally alive.
10:07 PM 7/3/2013
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Worthless, a word with common speak interlaced,
Describes me so well in a fashion so perfect.
I have no meaning, no use, no love or place;
I want to be displaced; from life be erased.
So come and end me, come slit my throat;
Come suffocate me, and watch me choke.
Don't hesitate, I wanna prolong this pain;
Have no mercy, just play it like a game.
Tie my arms, my feet, restrain and throw me;
Into a tank of boiling tar you'll force me.
Scattered inside are razors so gleaming;
So pleasing is that music of me screaming.
Take serrated blades, rip my wrists apart;
Carve out my eyes, like the hopes in my heart.
Drain my blood, drink it like a fucking wine;
So sweet, delicious; it's the end of my time.
Rip out my fucking heart and tear it apart,
There's no love left in me to give anyways.
Carve out my chest cavity, it's divine art;
Hollow me, use me like a fucking ashtray.
Hold down my hands, tear off my fingernails;
Hang them as bloody ornaments so pleasing.
Screaming agonized joy, my heart now fails;
Just kill me now, this wish so diseasing.
So take a hammer, smash in my worthless face;
Stomp on my remains, now but a disgrace.
Digest my flesh, make me part of your soul;
Feel my corpse, touch the walls of my skull.
Lock me in a chair, force my eyes open wide,
Make me witness the horrors of real genocide.
My screaming only intensifies this pain;
On the floor is a growing red bloodstain.
Take my corpse, throw it in the sea's midst,
With anchors tied tightly to my rotten chest.
Let not one piece or memory of me remain,
So I'll be forgotten and all will be the same.
I don't care how, just please end me quickly;
You know, there's a reason for my death plea.
I'm sick of hurting others, sick of being me,
Sick of being the one to cause all the misery.
It's not that I would normally wish to die,
But at this point I can now seem to find,
I've brought this unto myself, can't deny,
So please kill me before I change my mind.