To Paddle One's Canoe Over Still Waters
Seeming storylines are child's play
Appearing to you like 'tis
something funny
Out of our little trembling political
situation
If only stars are the silent majority
They must twinkle—endlessly, without a noise
No matter how far we are,
theoretically
The light year spanned space-time
to have brought
me to you
—wondering, now, if vice versa is
also
true
In a sense of delight that had made
young lovers swoon
'Tis a mother's loving caress to a
newborn
A perfect love of Astrological
compatibility
And forever they will
choose to share lovingkindness
—to each other & for others.
—
As well.
He was a loner who always sat down contemplating fantastical adventures that occurred on the pages of a comic book
He compares that to his life and scoffs at the contrast compared to his own
Feeling that his existence is some sort of punchline and whenever he reads a comic and realizes the dualism is the hook
Admiring the strength of the heroes on the page and then realizing his own weakness often led to him expressing his rage
He idolizes them and tries to emulate their heroic accomplishments
He is an optimist but not one who has grandiose dreams and narcissism is a term that could never be applied to him
He believes that a good deed no matter how small was significant because he couldn't fly, knew better than to contaminate himself with anything vaguely radioactive and his mental faculties are not up to par with Peter Parker and far less than mr fantastic or Bruce Banner
He believed that no matter the insignificance of a good deed still had some worth and is quantifiable irrespective of what it accomplished
He believes a smile or a "thank you" from one person holds the same worth as recognition his idols receives
He tried to associate with some of his peers and most either looked down on him for his simplistic and "childish" outlook on the world and his antiquated sense of morality
He accepted their criticism on what he loves without any response to provocation or anger because that is what his idols would do and instead channels it. He channels it not into rage and resentment but into focus and determination
He knows that in all probability he would not reap rewards for what he does or believes in and the motives for peoples actions and behaviours would not Change solely due to his actions
He knows that his antagonizers would not receive their comeuppance in the foreseeable future but still he preservers
Some may wonder what his motivations are and why he tries to be unbreakable despite all the interconnected cracks that decorate his souls and provide stories without words for all the abuse he has endured
He doesn't give up because that's not what the Black Panther would do, Nightwing would never give up and Barry Allen would not give up in the face of insurmountable odds
There are periods when his heroes are beaten to the ground and are drained both physically and emotionally and they never succumb to the futility of their actions nor do they crumble under the weight if the trials and tribulations they face
So neither will he
Sometimes he imagines that he too is the product of the imagination of someone who puts their life and struggles on paper and if there is any semblance of truth in that
He believes that he should be a realistic role model for any readers who may be struggling like he is
when i see people in there perfect little relationships,
with their cute pictures,
their inside jokes,
that twinkle in their eye,
and the fact that they actually have plans for tomorrow night with someone they love,
i can't help but feel a little jealous.
but then I ponder on the idea of me with a significant other,
and if I acted the way I see other couples act,
I'd puke.
Suffocation at it's finest.