spouse

Politics

Folder: 
Light and Dark

Blindness

Darkness

Deprived of my sight

Sitting in the void

Nothing but myself to fill it

Dark thoughts enter my head

They cover my eyes

Yet I can't see it

In the Blackness

Alone

No matter where I turn

 

There is nothing to see

And then a luminous explosion

A light pierces the darkness

A star from afar

Blinding me again

Blinded by whiteness

Covered in rays of light

And still I cannot see

 

But now there are voices

Around me they are fighting

Some for the darkness

Others for the light

I hear them killing

I hear them destroying each other

And doing atrocities in the name

Of the Darkness or the light

 

But all I can think of

and the more that I ponder

I've come to realize

Is that neither lets me see

 

and both blind me equally

Clockwork Human

Folder: 
Light and Dark

Just

Like

Clockwork

Tick-ing

Mov-ing

 

Unlike

My

Words

Try-ing

Prov-ing

 

That

I

Am Not

Just-a

ma-chine

 

I

Keep

My Heart

Bur-ied

Ben-eath

 

Parts

Still

Broken

Set-on

My-teeth

 

I

Cant

Give in

I-won't

Be-lieve

 

That

A

Second

Chance-I'll

A-chieve

 

 

Clock

Work

Human

Now-just

Ma-chine

Start a War

Folder: 
Songs

Too late to feign innocence

You've heard it all before

I can't take one more chance

I won't hurt you anymore

 

Consider this my letter

That I write to myself

That I couldn't get better

And I won't take you as well

 

Stab me

Break me

Beat me

And chain me

Leave me on the floor

Gasoline on my body

Light it outside the door

Take the man I was

And burn him to the core

Lets start a war

 

You deserve much better

Than I, for now, could be

Personality suicide

I can live for more than Me

 

For if even I can do it

Then everybody can

A personal revolution

Its time to take a stand

 

Stab me

Break me

Beat me

And chain me

Leave me on the floor

Gasoline on my body

Light it outside the door

Take the man I was

And burn him to the core

 

Lets start a war

Waking Nightmares

Folder: 
Light and Dark

I sleep

I dream

 

Or somewhere in between

 

For within waking nightmares

Nothing's ever as it seems

 

 

I wake

I stare

 

Or am I truly there?

 

Reality's an illusion

And it never will play fair

 

 

Am I sleeping

Do I wake

 

In which world is which?

 

Should I end my life in one

I cannot choose to switch

 

 

So do I sleep?

Do I dream?

And visit somewhere in between

But within my waking nightmares

True reality unseen

The Seer

Folder: 
Just For Fun

Today I sit upon my chair

and watch the world unfold beneath

The stories that I see in there

I to you, for now, bequeath

 

I see age in specks of dust

A lifetime carved in wood

Time's corrosive touch in rust

Just like a lover could

 

My eyes open to the Sky!

And there I see the stars

But look down, and time flys by

With speeding headlights of cars

 

Look to the rain, wisdoms countless

The same water fell on Rome

I speculate, with reasons doubtless

Civilizations last shorter than stones

 

You may think I ramble insanely

That my mind has truly blown

But these thoughts forever chase me

And will leave me utterly alone.  

Love

Folder: 
To My Wife

Please don't move, stay right there

With the sunlight in your auburn hair

The features of your goddess face

Each one perfect in their place 

Will etch themselves into my mind

A masterpiece no like could find

I'd spend forever in your eyes

Without a minute passing by

For if Heaven looks like this beautiful face 

I'd gladly accept my deaths embrace

Salvus

Folder: 
Light and Dark

Right here

Right now

With this ocean between us

Where tragedy confronts eternity

I can finally see your light 

From the darkness of my own heart

A grave machination of despair

The soul taken

My corpse remains 

You walked through my fires unscathed

You've passed through death's dark gates

And yet still live

Excelsior

Still, I look for you

Relentless, I'm lost without you

The ghosts of my past haunt me still

Continuously burning me alive

A whispered silence inflaming my throat

Exhausted with no lungs to breathe

No air with which to speak

But a hush and a sigh, then I'll be gone

Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?

As my vision bleeds to red

Your freedom burns my heart

It puts fire in my bones

Until I'm left with ashes of what once were

And shadows of what could be

Immortal

I don't need to be reminded

      that its all meaningless

I feel the slow hours tick by

      from my already too short life

 

Another breath

Another bottle

Another wasted day gone

 

Fill my lungs with cancer

      And why?

I don't die faster

Fill my gut with liquor    

      The pain doesn't leave

 

Why try when there is no end

I refuse to race without finish

"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher"

Listless at my own apathy

I don't care to care

       I can't 

Because it doesn't matter

 

Why live for life's sake?

Why die to end it?

 

All is without purpose

"Everything is meaningless, says the teacher."

 

Leanan Sidhe

My heart aches

It yearns for my beloved 

A fire long kindled burns within 

 

She is not of the Earth

Her scent is in the wind

Her voice in the rain

 

Oh how I long for her!

 

She is ever before my eyes

When I wake she is beside me

When I sleep she holds my soul

 

I quiver with desire for my mate

 

She is more precious than diamonds

Than mountains of choice silver

Golden is her smile

Seafoam and starlight in her eyes

 

Oh how I yearn for her!