There's something beneath my bones.
A red spark after we talked on the phone.
Prone to it.
But I don't get it.
My mom can't escape this house even if she had a loan.
Spawned some rhymes and pwned everyone and everything I ever known.
Over these years I've grown and weakness is all I've shown.
Heard my sister groan in the back bedroom and heard some moans.
Her and Seth were fucking I suppose.
Yeah, that shits gross.
Overdosing won't work.
When I walk in school all I see is pork.
Pigs rolling around in mud.
I met this chick and picked around for a flower bud.
But all I got was a nose drenched in blood.
Oh crud.
Her boyfriend ended up being a stud.
My head flooded and I saw a hog with horns.
The rain continues to pour
I continue to be fucking mediocre and poor.
Thrown out my front door.
I've never been cared about before until I met her
and like a cat my soul began to purr.
I only graduated because my math teacher gave me a curve.
My best friend Willy ended up being a perv.
Ducked down on a 5 year old girl and whirled.
Met up with him in a mental hospital and that shit had me shrilled.
My step dad said I had a demon in me.
I'm starting to believe it
because everything to me has me peeved.
When I was younger I looked up to Christopher Reeve.
Until I heard he became a cripple.
I started to feel like I couldn't achieve.
Until I saw Spider-Man and I gained the need to swing.
I've never cared about the bling but I've always wanted to sing.
Expressing myself is the only way to bring down the ding.
There they sit
At the edge of the table
Worn and heavy
Resting in fables
Tales of adventure
Of sweet smelling summer
And self-discovery roads
Planted in autumns comer
Roads connecting
To everything and everyone
That’s touched my life
And left the sun
Of star seeking nights
That stain that back of eyes
Of heart clenching moments
Lost in music, so high
These keys to life
Life’s twisted streets
Bring me back home
To dust my feet
Always on the road, sometimes I'd halfway be asleep,
But every mile worth it, cuz this love is not skin-deep,
Your struggle has been difficult, so many different yards,
Just seeing the smile on your face was always my reward.
I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away,
But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.
I tell few people of our love, their noses snub and judge,
Do they really have the right to hold love hostage as a grudge?
This undermining of love itself makes little sense to me.
I've learned it's best let them go, keep an open heart for you and me.
I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away.
But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.
We'll hope there's money for the gas, and rental cars to drive,
We'll pray that street signs only cost a bumper, not my life,
I've learned to pull aside and not go down the ramp asleep.
I've learned I shouldn't dye my hair on only two hours sleep.
I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away.
But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.
Copyright 2013
This is it
This is goodbye
And though you say I just can’t add up
I’m not so sure about that
But your saying that may mean
That you’re not good enough for me
Yet, that’s not how I feel
So before you leave
I wish
That you always find God’s grace
That you find what you’re looking for
That your dreams give you wings
That you aim at the stars
That you appreciate compliments
And forget critics
That you live like you’re dying tomorrow
And you always find your way back
I’m still your friend
And I can settle for second place
But only because loving you briefly
Is better than not knowing you at all
Perhaps another time
Another life
We would’ve been happy
But if you can’t find someone better
I’ll still be here
And I wish
That your heart won’t be broken
Past what I can fix
That the fork in the road
Wakes you up to the drive
That you find joy
In the little things in life
And that you always find your way home.