dysfunctional

Many Miles To See A Smile

                                                                                  

Always on the road, sometimes I'd halfway be asleep,
But every mile worth it, cuz this love is not skin-deep,
Your struggle has been difficult, so many different yards,
Just seeing the smile on your face was always my reward.

                                                                                    

I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away,
But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.

                                                                                       

I tell few people of our love, their noses snub and judge,
Do they really have the right to hold love hostage as a grudge?

This undermining of love itself makes little sense to me.

 I've learned it's best let them go, keep an open heart for you and me.

 

I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away.

But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.

                                                                                           

We'll hope there's money for the gas, and rental cars to drive,
We'll pray that street signs only cost a bumper, not my life,
I've learned to pull aside and not go down the ramp asleep.

I've learned I shouldn't dye my hair on only two hours sleep.  

                                                                                          

I learned a lot of things in life, but never had I known,
A smile could be perpetual, through so many nights alone,
I don't know what you look like when I turn and walk away.

But I know by now you know my love is in your heart to stay.

 

 

Copyright 2013

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A Poem about the family members of prisoners and some of what they must endure to support their loved ones.

The Closet

The Closet

I’m trapped

In a closet

Where it’s so dark

I can not even see the chain

To pull and turn the light on

I can barely breathe in this closet

Feels just like a python

Is coiled around me

I hate being trapped in this closet

  • But still

  • Outside the closet

    It seems it would be darker

    With people watching

    Every step I take

    Judging me like Olympic judges

    Judging my every move

    Peoples stares wrapping around me

    Just like a python

    Making it hard for me to breathe

    So I think I’ll just stay

    Trapped in a closet

    Where no one can see who I am

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    Emo Trip

    Folder: 
    2011

    I have never, ever
    Shared my man
    Not with anyone
    For any reason
    But now I am
    But why you ask
    Because he cannot find the time
    Or maybe he just doesn’t want to
    Find the time to talk to my dad
    I think he is just
    Enjoying the time with her
    So he doesn’t want to
    Find the time
    Because he is spending
    It all with her
    So what am I to think
    Of all this?
    I have heard others say
    “Just drop him;
    He will always walk
    All over you, if you let him.”
    But I cannot find a way
    To do just that
    Mayhap it’s just something
    Within me
    Maybe I’m just dysfunctional
    Maybe I’ve got my heart
    And my mind
    Are all in the wrong place
    Maybe something’s just wrong
    Maybe I am wanting
    To be hurt
    Maybe I need to feel pain
    Because no one could want me
    Maybe this is just me
    Being emotional

    ~Chrystal
    Written on
    October 1, 2011

    Author's Notes/Comments: 

    This was yet another written to Tom ___. This was an emotinal trip I have been feeling for a few days now. and I just realized that it has been a month, with only 2 weeks of her. *Sighs* I just dont know. But I thank all of you for giving me the advice on the last poem.

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