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This is about the fight I'm going through with my Mum.  I'm her primary carer and she has pancreatic cancer.  If you know nothing about it and are curious try www.pancreaticcancer.org.uk.  It is the least treatable type of cancer.  Only 20% of people discover it before it's spread because it causes few symptoms early that are not easy to write off to other causes.  Of those people with localised tumours, 1 in 5 won't be able to have surgery because major vessels are involved.  Of those who have surgery only about 20 percent don't die of complications, recurrence or spread in 5 years.  Don't ignore persistent indigestion, unexplained weight loss or unusual toilet habits.  Get checked out.

This is how I feel each time someone I love dearly dies.... But mostly this poem is how I felt when my Great-Aunt (cancer) and my God-Father (suicide) passed away. I felt as if I should just give up sometimes and felt hopeless.... I was spiraling downward toward self destruction and not caring who went down with me. But basically my family helped me get through it and I helped them in away. But even so, it still affects me (my wings are broken)

Okay so while writing this I teared up a little. It may not be well written but it gets my point accros I believe. We all struggle to experience it all so quickly as if our lives are slipping away. Also that just because lying is easier doesn't mean its okay. Please read and enjoy :)

I was told I had Stage 4 Cancer two years ago. Recent events with my illness have gaven me cause to write this poem.

I wrote this after my Mom passed from cancer on July 7th, 2012

This is dedicated to my childhood best friend, who died of breast cancer... :(