March.27.2011
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
In the begining was great
But towards a month passing
I started to get a feeling of hate
And wondering if we would be lasting
You tell me you didn't do a thing
My gut tells me a different feeling
To my heart forgiveness I try to bring
But no matter how hard it tries
My heart is having a hard time healing
At night....Every night it cries
I know of the hints they are revealing
I pray none of them are true lies
I promise you from the start
That I'd stick by you no matter what
But you also promised you wouldn't break my heart
And now it's going back to being half shut
It's beaking apart
I will keep to my promise we won't ever part
I hold on to what you have told me
But if when our love becomes a lie
I will have no choice but to set you free
I don't want to really though
Because my heart will then fully die
And I will be left with pain
With nights of tears to show
And I'll be alone....all alone
I'll be left to cry
My heart then turns to stone
All because love became a lie
The promise you made to me
You never were ever going to keep
The love you said you gave
You promised you would never leave
My heart got broken my chest caved
Your words you lead me to believe
All that came out of your mouth was true
But now my heart bleeds
Of pain and agony
And I'm crying on my knees
How much I'm broken apart
Don't tell me you didn't know
I promised you I wouldn't leave
But your love you no longer show
Maybe it's time you give me back my heart
You said you would stick by my side
For me you'd always care
But I see now that was a lie all along
You lead me on and that's not fair
Maybe we don't belong
You told me your love would never end
You said you'd always be faithful
And always your love you'd send
But you no longer call me beautiful
Now we just feel like friends
My love I don't think with you I can share
I believe now you were pretend
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March.18.2014
Trisha Barrek Hopkins
I can not trust a soul
I'm all alone
Closing my heart is my goal
My feelings I'm turning to stone
Devil in disguise
Afraid to love
Always telling me lies
Always a push or shove
I can not confide in anyone
I sit here and cry
I can't even go out to have fun
My mind wants to die
I don't want to be close to you
You treant me like a friend
But its not true
You sit there and pretend
I only wish I knew
Before I let you in my heart
Not I sit here down and blue
I'm always falling apart
My soul hurts everyday
Even my spilt personality hates me
If it weren'I got writes t for my daughters
I wouldn't be here anyway
No one anyway with me sees
On what I say no one cares
Your love with me any more
You no longer share
Feelings you don't want to store
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Not Done
She always sat to the side
Alone and wondering
Looking at the others
Always observing
Why did they all pretend
To be so happy
When the feelings on the inside
Were all so dark and nasty
Why did he pretend
That nothing was wrong
When they broke his glasses and
His head fell with a bong
Why did she pretend
To be so dumb
When she was a genius
But her mind became numb
Why did the couple pretend
That they were so in love
When behind closed doors
The girl was beat and shoved
Why did the child pretend
Things were okay at the house
When the mother screamed and hit
And he cowered like a mouse
Why did they all pretend
To be so happy
Wondered the girl to the side
As she looked on sadly
Promise me you'll never change
Never disguise who you are
Don't pretend to be someone you're not
Always be yourself
Because I want you to be happy
I want to know the real you
I don’t know what to say
I just seen some stuff
That would make
Her say “I have had enough”
But here I sit typing
Instead of running my mouth
So I sit and I watch
Waiting for it all to go south
Like it never will
I’ve seen them go through stuff
That most would throw their hands up
And say, “That’s it I’ve had enough”
And I will never talk about this
If I do I am wrong for even thinking such a thing
And I know they have given me such leniency
So I go on pretending to have a reason to sing
~Chrystal
Written on
July 12, 2010