I sat at my desk and rubbed my eyes,
Rocking back and forth in my grey
Office chair. The coffee I drank caused my loins to
Burn so I stood up to take a leak.
Passing my bedroom mirror, I saw
My profile and noticed that
My chest was round and peacockish.
The burning moved from my groin
To my right hand. I grabbed an
Unfinished volume of my thoughts from the
Shelf and peeled back the skin. I found
My place (as I often do) and navigated
My Pilot across the strict ruled page.
Black streams of thought formed like
A fetus in the womb, kicking my insides.
My breathing was fast, then slowed to the
Rhythm of my heartbeat. I pushed.
What was on the inside was coming
out. I looked down at my son. My hand was
Limp and my chest concaved.
I am overcome with sorrow.
I do it again tomorrow.