John alan Fessel

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New York, United States Of America

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In my life I've lived as a City Mouse. I've lived as a Country Mouse. At times, I've lived surrounded by a lot of mice in either settings - mice are the close friends of poverty. These days, two cats have proven closer friends(sorry RIP'd mice) where I spent my time living a simple, slightly primitive, largely self sufficient life at a pond-side cabin in the mountains. I was lucky, perhaps, to foresee the mayhem coming - that which is now upon us in the year 2020 - five years ago and wandered off into the woods. It's beautiful, and a man named Henry knew what he was talking about, back in the day, when he sung the praises of the woods being a pen's haven.

These days, it seems I'm 75 percent dreamer and 25 percent doer. Actually, I'm updating that to 60/40 (progress, eh). Working on it being 50/50, but still am having trouble getting past trying to be 75/75. With dreaming always coming first, I'm not sure this plan is going to work out :)

I love conversation and human intimacy, I love stories. I love the silent moments by the window, in between, watching the leaves or snow fall. The walks in the quiet of the night. Doors to reminiscing and nostalgia. Such grand little flickers of time, and holding close of dear friends on the path, help keep each day as full of life. As the does potential of new things that await.

Simultaneously, with age, and with the louder and louder touting of every single thing new as human advancement, strangely some shadows seem to get longer. With every year I only wish harder for peace and understanding, above winning. I live to walk the fine line between hope and not being naive. All of these are the kind of work that is worth it.

Writing is a borrowing of others eyes, and a sharing of our eyes with others. A sharpening of our own vision. It is a wondrous joy I found about fifteen years ago, that has helped me better express myself, and - I think - better live. It quickly grew into a real love of mine, and there's little I've missed more when the pen has been still a while. Truth is, without it I think I'd miss some of the better parts of being alive.

About My Navel

I think its hiding under my shirt because it's too embarrassed at the thought of being written of.

Favorite Stuff (poets, poems, quotes, hobbies, etc.)

''People asking questions, lost in confusion..well i tell them theres no problem, only solutions.'' - John Lennon, Watching The Wheels

"And so I say to you that I've taken a vow—I...take thee, Non-violence, to be my wedded wife, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer—this isn't a bargaining experience—for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part." - Martin Luther King, Jr.

Division - carved most deeply by the inability to turn the other cheek and the unwillingness to continue reaching out with both an open hand and an open mind - as well as naive enthusiasm and the unsatable nature of hatred all seed the clouds of war. Yet war's most common fruit is Regret, once the battle has begun, and the tree upon which Regret grows is what most of the blood actually waters - contrary to myth.

And this simple one: nothing's ever as good or bad as it seems in the moment.


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