One Day At A Time.

Loving you is like tying my stomach in knots just to connect a few dots

Loving you is like asking the robin that thinks it's a blue bird to remember it's a robin, and it's laid an egg.

You laid an egg!

Or, rather you helped procure one.


You're here now. Remember?

You're back on this plane(t) of rock hard existence

Where you know only shame


How's that working out for you, so far?


You see... Loving you is like picking up each piece of plaster in a disaster and [then] asking it to stop crumbling

Could you please just stop crumbling. FUCK.

I can't take it anymore with the decay.

Put your self back together.


Loving you is like losing a piece of time, in the grand scheme of all things,

and then setting expectations for when this will all come back into frame.

When will this all come back in to focus?

When will this all come back?

Will this all come back?


Loving you has been like the most gut wrenching ride, I've ever felt in my life.

It's like a constant influx of hellos, and a steady stream of goodbyes.

Loving you is like holding onto a stream, where you can see it flow through, passed you,

but there's nothing stealthy enough to hold you.

Besides, why would I?


What would be the point in building a damn to stop your flow?

I mean-- like-- GATDAMN can he flow! The world doesn't even know.

But, I do. I know what you can do, because I've been wrapped up in you,

and I've let every aspect of me cave into all the cavenous pits you've created wthin

...and here we are.


We're back in your pit of shame and despair, and I don't have time.

I can't fucking be here.

I have things to do...

A baby to take care of--

and you...

 

Loving you is doing everything I can to not be bitter.

Loving you is remembering that all I wanted was for you to live to be the man he needs you to be.

Loving you means knowing I still have to love me.

 

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life_used_to_be_lifelike's picture

  wow you are good... SO many

 

wow you are good... SO many emotions in this poem. I see you have been a member for a long damn time on this site but this is the first time I’ve encountered you. 


"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.

dreayeya's picture

Thank you :)

This is easily one of my best ones up here.


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Drea

 

allets's picture

I and Me Poetry

Sing the song of who you are - works for me and I am all in this one as in there is a point where you and I do not connect and what's love defined as again? Good one! - allets -

 


 

 

dreayeya's picture

<3

I forgot I wrote this, and I am so thankful for your comments <3


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Drea

 

allets's picture

Just Re-Read

Such poems never age. The mono-syllabic cadence is lovely - simple. Woven around complexity, and love as perspective - marvelous writing, unaged - slc